加油

圣诞节快乐。

其实。。。我有点介意。真的。虽然，很大可能我不会去可是至少问一下也总比这样好。那么多年的朋友就这样因为那些屁股东西搞成这样。真的很xxx!!!

很多东西并不是别人不在意而是自己太在乎。

无论如何是好。还是希望大家都有一个快乐的圣诞节。加油!

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拼了!

連續幾天的熬夜，真的很累。昨天熬到6:13分。我真的不能了。真的很累垮了。這幾天真的很謝謝我的朋友們跟我一起拼，尤其是常偉。真的希望我們所有人都能達到自己心目中的那個目標。加油! 不要放棄! 龍大哥，你要加油! 不要放棄。永遠都不會是“太遲”。現在開始總比明天開始來得早。


似乎真的很久沒有這樣了。我真的很怕maintain不到。尤其是聽到了家人跟我說的那些話，我真的不能maintain不到。我知道，盡力就好，可是...我有嗎?我後悔這個sem那麼懶，現在要那麼辛苦。



看來今天我必須讓自己好好休息，好好養神，再來拼過。來一個好好長長足足的睡眠吧。休息是為了走更長的路! :) 晚安

everyday I'm revising

每天呆在mcd半天，回家呆整晚...虽然是有进展，可是感觉很没安全感。真的很没信心。
这几天，很容易过的!不要埋怨，不要叹气，要加油!  功课重要，家人更重要!
时间是可以安排的，所以不要担心我好吗?我睡很够，身体也没有不好。真的。TT


一大清早，一人在mcd,遇见一个超变态的ah beh...我...真的不知所措。
电话没钱，身边也没人，不敢抬头，更不敢走开。那感觉，我一辈子都不会忘记。
是我看错吗?还是? 我不知道，我只知道，我真的不想再一个人呆在那里。那画面，还蛮清晰的。TT
麻烦你，真的很不好意思。真的真的。也很谢谢你啦。不然，我也不知怎么度过那一小时。



这个final,我真的没什么信心。眼看是进展的蛮不错的。只希望读了的不要跟我忘记! 一定要记住!!!! 记住记住记住!!! sem3是怎样就靠你自己了!

永远的回忆?

"我等你" 一句这么简单的话是需要多少的勇气才能说出口?

等?一年两年还是??

活在当下吧。不要在为不可能的事情而烦恼。我还是比较喜欢以前的你。真的。虽然我们真的发生了很多很多事情可是你在我心中的地位，角色是不会变的。

记得。你一定能的!我等着那天的到来!! :) 加油。

* 对不起..有些东西错过了就真的再也找不回了。

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ihatelying

Again, the planning for ice skate cancel. I think i hv no fate with it:-( since form4 till now, i nvr go for skate successfully before. Really hope tat i could ty it once in my life when i was still "young".

I dislike explaining. I donno why. I just dun like to explain even others misunderstood me. Maybe because i'm weak in expressing my thinkig formally n seriously?dunno. But im sure tat, i dislike explain is bcz i thk tat explanation is an super extra thg in the life.  Like i always said了我的人不必解釋，不了我的人不必解釋. Thats all!

Just the same. I dunwan to explain for today issue. Ya. Indeed its my fault but why will i do so? Im lazy to tell n i dun think it is necessary to explain. Since no changes can be made. I dunwan to lie. Especially to my dearest. Sorry.

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testing

Hahahaha..just to test whether his app working or not..if u coul see this which means it work, if cant which means it not..

Btw..ytday i ve baked a american chocolate cake for my intermediate and my dear wei wei(chan wei)..happy birthday both of u..although the cake is not as delicious as i imagined and its not as good looking as i expected..paiseh for this..but really hope u all like it and happy:-D

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假裝

怎麼辦


既然搞到這樣的地步

OH MY GODDDDD!!!1


7年的友誼，難道就這樣? 就因為選擇的路不一樣所以就沒了我們7年的感情?
怎麼會搞到這樣啊，麥嘉欣。你好失敗哦!
既然搞到在學校遇到都要左閃右躲的。唉唉唉唉唉!!!



謄清。
我不是單純。只是頭腦有點不靈活。
很多東西不是我不知道，只是我不想知道。知道的太多也未必是好事。
對，我遲鈍，我笨。我也不知怎麼能醒目一點，我真的不想每次那麼blur。可是我就是改不了。那天聽到你們這麼說，我真的很傷心。我沒有在裝。我多麼希望我學會偽裝。


女生的友誼總比男生的友誼來的脆弱。
這本來就是一個事實。也是男生永遠不會明白的，就像我們不能明白為什麼男生們的友誼能那麼的好。不是我們想太多，而是我們都明白女生們在想什麼。很多東西，真的只有女生才會看得出，而男生總是看不見。這點，我從沒質疑過。


final真的要來了。怎麼我還沒開始讀書呢?整天就是睡罷了。
答應了自己的事情一定要做到啊，麥嘉欣。不然，我會看不起你!知道嗎?! 加油!

Gambatteee

Eclipse.          10.12.2011


Since recently no test, no report, every frustrating stuff was temporary gone, so I have more time to spend with my family. The only thing I can say is, Sorry and Thank you. Dad, Mum, Jie and Gor! Many things I couldn't help out but the only thing I could do is just to reduce the burden of you all by studying hard to maintain my scholarship. I'm not suffer at all if i were to compare my burden with them. I have no right to say:" I'm tired. I wanna give up!" Mak KahYan!! You don't have the right to say so! So, Keep it up and don't ever give up easily!



Sem3. Should I move out? ....

发泄

今天真的感觉很奇怪。




可能是我吧



不知道:)




昨天，本想好好发泄一餐可是却没能达到我想要的效果。算了。还是大吃一餐比较痛快。
不爽不开心emo,就吃罢了。





来，笑。虽然有时会有龙大哥所说的大便大不出的感觉可是其实偶尔便秘也不是大问题。加油!

陰天

是我變了嗎?


就連你也說我變了。我真的有點接受不到。你說，是因為長大了所以改變，可是我很懷念以前的我，開開心心的。kahyan快點回來，ky走開!!


長大了，一切都不再是簡簡單單的。
有時...
笑並不代表真正的開心。
哭也不代表真正的傷心。
吃東西更不能表示我餓!!!


本小姐身材大走樣已不再是新聞，已被歸類為成年舊事。
可是當時的我會狂吃是因為讀書，而現在....並不一定是。
我也不知道從何時開始我會變到如此的懦弱，遇到困難就放棄，逃避。我真的很討厭這樣的自己。怎麼了?以前都不是很兇?越有挑戰性就越開心?現在怎麼就退縮了呢?我看不起你啊，ky!!
沒錯，暴飲暴食的生活又來了。明明就不餓，明明就很飽，還是要買東西吃。即使知道自己很肥，還是要吃。因為，吃就是最幸福的事。



之前一直煩惱的事情，剛在吃飯的時候，我想到了解決方案，只不過，需要等爸媽的批准，那就一些的問題都能被化解了:)這樣，感情應該會變好吧?



是我小氣還是什麼?我不知道。
我只知道，我不喜歡別人把我當玩具。這樣會令我想起他。真的。想起我當時有多麼多麼的笨。今天兇你，對不起。可能真的我太敏感了。因為，這的會令我想起他。想起那個時候。

笨?

三天的无眠，我真的觉得很no life. 真的很闲

每天放学就到我们的第二个家。昨天，超疯狂。既然在麦当当度过了一整个晚上。
可是读到真的很闲，我真的没有试过要放弃，就这么一次。我真的很累了。值得庆幸的是，有的好暂时放假2个星期。:)

变。我真的讨厌这个东西。好或坏就在于你怎么去看待它。可是，通常都是坏的吧。
真正了我的朋友还是只有他。无需解释，因为解释在一个真正的感情里根本就是一个超级多余的东西。我也非常讨厌。我以为，你是第二个他。可是最近好像变了。不知道。


我真的那么笨?真的吗?
不是都说没有笨的人吗?可是为什么我发觉最近的我都很笨? 为什么?
谁能真的真的坦白跟我说? “不要人家说什么都相信”这个term我了啊。可是为什么好像跟我所了的东西不一样呢?为什么好像现在连很小件事都要骗人? 不是都是很大件事，必不得已才讲骗话的吗?为什么现在好像连人家跟你说他吃饱了，都可能是骗你那样? 我快疯了!!!

十二月二日

考試考試考試，報告報告報告。除了考試還是考試，除了報告還是報告。到底我的學習生涯怎麼了? 這就是大家都認同的joyful college life? Ohhh gosh, totally not okay?! It's super duper freaking highly extremely frustrated and tiring. UTAR簡直就是名副其實的Uni Tak Ada Rehat!


有時真的希望知道的東西會少一些，這樣會更開心。真的。知道太多東西也未必是件好事，畢竟我就是不懂得偽裝。笨咯!白痴咯! 有變咩? 之前會很在意為什麼我每次都比別人慢那麼多拍，為什麼總是不能明白別人暗示的東西，可是現在似乎已經習慣了。


昨天，發生了一些事情。真的覺得他很好笑。真的真的太好笑了。想像不到他的樣子。他既然會這樣，真的嚇到。希望說了出來會是好的而不是像有些那樣尷尬。謝謝你的坦白。


今天，是不是我想多了? 我不知道。這已不是第一次。我真的很討厭這樣的感覺。我應該給他什麼反應好呢? 假假跑前去還是?只是知道，我真的很不明白。真的。算吧，做好自己本分就好:)

灰

我的天空今天有點灰 :)




我真的很討厭這樣! 我真的很不喜歡。現在是怎樣? 有什麼那麼不喜歡? 為什麼要這樣? 這樣的你跟他有什麼分別? 喜歡的時候就一個樣，不喜歡的時候又另一個樣。


真的覺得很閒很閒。

那些年，我們一起度過的日子 。

《那些年，我們一起追過的女孩》


無可否認，九把刀真的是一個很棒的作者。多麼希望深雪的小說也能做成電影，那一定很受歡迎!

期待已久的戲，終於跟我最愛的朋友去看了。雖然，並沒有齊人可是還是有那個感覺。哈哈。


很感觸，真的勾起了很多回憶。中學的時候就是最天真無邪的。
一起讀書，一起奮鬥。
每一幕都讓我想起了在中學時候的某一些畫面。
被老師教訓的時候，朋友們站出來幫我。
忘了帶功課，他替我被罰。
上課時，都不專心。
考試到了，我們一起為了一個目標而前進，互相鼓勵。
雖然說要考得比對方好，可是心裡卻希望對方能比自己好。不斷的打擊對方的信心，為的只不過是要激勵他而已。
很多很多，一眨眼就一年了。
聖誕節要到了，到shopping mall都是聖誕節的裝飾。
去年的聖誕，我們還是處於友達以上，戀人未滿的關係。
一起慶祝的時候還會在那裡尷尬，哈哈。一年後的我們，既然已經經歷了那麼多。
既然已在一起，分開了，現在還做回朋友。真的是速戰速決。今年的聖誕又會是怎樣的呢? 可惜，聖誕的隔天就是我的final ><
我最愛的聖誕節啊~~~~~


這套戲，我想到了2個人最多。第一個是他，我不覺得好奇，因為他本來就在我的成長過程中佔據了一個蠻重要的角色。可是第二個他，我真的覺得很奇怪，怎麼會是他? 是不是最近發生了一些事情所以我會想到他還是?不知道，只是看到了某些畫面，想起了，這件事情，曾經也發生過在我跟他之間。


對，會讀書又怎樣? 那隻不過是一張踏上成功之路的車票，而不是終點。
曾經的我最討厭的就是只會讀書什麼都不會的人。而現在我發覺，我越來越像這樣的人了。我不要! 我不是書蟲!!!



________________________________________
每個人都有自己的一段回憶。
而到現在為止，我人生中最美好的回憶就是小學6年紀和中學的期間。
看到後面，沈佳宜結婚的時候，突然想到，其實很多東西都是看我們自己怎麼去想。難道沈佳宜年輕的時後沒有想過他那時會一輩子都愛柯腾 嗎?他一定沒想過會有那個局面，所以，其實我們都不能把一些事情看得太過於執著，回憶中是最美好的。所以，美好的東西都會是回憶，過去的就讓它成為我們人生中最完美的回憶吧。

對於錯

我真的不知道我這樣的決定是對還是錯，是否因為一時衝動。



不過，我相信...我不會後悔....吧?




我只知道最近的我過的真的很累，每天好像在追一些很遙遠的東西....
我這樣的決定是否很自私? 還是之前是我異想天開?




看回我的dreamlist,我真的覺得我很白痴。對，有夢是對的。可是，我就是很白痴。我就是一個我最討厭的那種人，有夢卻不追。



可能，放棄了那條路，是對的。
爸媽，對不起。是我沒用，是我懦弱。:(

身在深林深處

很渺茫，誰能給點指點我啊?

到底這條路是對還是錯? 真的越走越暗，很怕。真的很恐怖。

不敢跟家人說，不想他們擔心。還能跟誰說? 救命啊!!!!

自己有解決不到，唯有盲目的走。因為選擇了所以走。可是這樣，真的很令人感到厭倦，疲憊。

怎麼好像不是我所想的那樣? 怎麼好像越走越遠，跟我想像和期待的路程真的差太多太多了。有點超乎我的想像。點算好?我真的不知道!!! 

累

有時還是會想起那天的那件事情。


還是會覺得是因為我。


曾經，我跟他是多麼好的朋友，什麼都可以說，可是就是一點點的誤會再加一點點的謠言，變成了今天這樣的關係。真的，很遺憾我也很內疚。我們這樣的關係不要緊，可是感覺上那天會有這樣的局面也好像是因為我這件事情而起。我真的覺得有一百個一萬個對不起，和內疚。

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真的很累。看到你這樣偽裝自己我也替你感覺到很累。真的。不要偽裝自己去得到別人的青睞，好嗎?朋友。 你這樣真的很假，怎麼能變到那麼快呢？在我的面前跟他們的面前怎麼能有那麼大的轉變? 我真的覺得你很恐怖。怎麼那麼小的事情，你也會想到為了不要他們誤會而去說謊呢? 這是那麼小的一件事情，你也想到要這樣隱瞞，我真的嚇到了。不要這樣好嗎? 這樣，我跟你做朋友做到很累。真的....

:)

this period, I was sick and having tests. and I didn't do well for my maths paper although I've spent whole night for it! This time was definitely my problem! because, my friends know how to solve it but I have no idea for that solution AT ALL! Sick is not a excuse for having bad result !

Wednesday will be another test again. and this really make me feel like breathless!! Please, what for forcing the students so? This is really tiring and suffer!

Not sure what happened to me, I just feel very bad recently. Maybe it's because sick + test + some issue, I am really in a very bad mood. Im really stressed. Not the stress by academic but the stress of life.

it seems like, Im not good in everything.*failure*

Sweet 18 :)

3rd November 2011 !


KY's big big day. haha.
Thanks for all the surprises and celebrations. Everyone of you were awesome! Thank you very much!
I still have no time to snap my presents and upload here.
First of all, really thank you and appreciate my parents for the undivided love and cares to me for 18years. Their sacrifices and love were the most greatest and gorgeous present I would never ever have! Thanks, Daddy Mummy! Love you all, :-*

Honestly, I never think of my 18th brithday will have any celebration because the week of my birthday was a busy week for us. We have presentation and tests. And some other friend was having their final exam, my family was busy preparing for bro's wed too. So, I dah agak no celebration.

Really thanks my dear, Issac Liu a lot a lot! HAHA. Thanks for squeezing your precious time of revision just to celebrate my birthday with me. Sometime, you just make me feel what a true friend are. ~.~ Thank you! Love youuu <3 HAHAA.

JKFC ! These few sakai(s).
hahaa, although the surprise was a little bit ruin by me but it's still great! Thanks for everything you all done for me! I really miss the time we spent together from Form1 to 5. The laughter, the tears, the anger, the bakchi-ness,etc. Btw, I hope we could achieve our dreams together. This is the true word from the core of my heart. Maybe the path we choose was different, maybe we have different point of view, but I hope that we could reach the terminal that we wanted. When you all were tired, look back, Im always there for you all. :)

Tutorial G10!
LOL. Ini lagi shock >< I really really didn't think of having a celebration with u guys since all of us was busy preparing for presentation and test. Btw, really thanks to everyone who have wished and celebrated with me. Especially, TingFang, Loong, KokWeng! I don't know whether is it true, but this is just what I heard from them. Few of you walk in the rain just to buy me present? LOL. Thanks la weih, for the flower and handphone and all the presents! Thanks a lot a lot a lot!


This year wishes was really different from other years. and I will make sure that next year I will not get the same wishes too! HAHA. Most of the wishes from my friends was, wishing me could back to my original size >< Im not feeling sad or down for it, it's good to have such a wishes from you all because I never receive any wishes like this before. And this is a memory in my journey and also a motivation for me to diet and exercise! Hehe.


Ya, Ky was officially 18 now. There are no excuses or reason for you to do any unwanted mistake. Please be responsible to your life and future. You're big enough to differentiate what is wrong and what is right. Don't act like a immature kid anymore, KY! Gambatteeee <3

加油

不喜欢被别人否认，看不起就做好自己。

麦嘉欣！当被别人否认的时候，微笑。不要发脾气，不要不爽。要感谢他们。没有他们的否认，就不会有更好的你。不要被别人看不起，就以行动证明，你是能的。加油！

R.I.P

自我了断


需要多大的勇气?


对，我绝对赞成说自我了断是非常自私的行为，可是，没人会要走上这条不归路。
有没有人想过，从他开始有这个念头开始到他真的开始行动的期间，是多么的煎熬? 是几挣扎? 是几多几多的压力，困扰，挫折才会令到一个人鼓起勇气结束自己的生命?

对，没有解决不了的问题。只要往另个角度想，事情就会简单化。说是简单，又有几个人能做到呢? 还是那句，珍惜身边的每一个人。真的，不要等到失去后才来后悔。遗憾是不能被弥补的! 对，我的确没有珍惜身边的每一个人，可是我会努力做到:)

this is life.

Years ago, this song was the theme of my blog too. Suddenly came across with this song just now, when I was wondering, configuring, searching, thinking ... What actually do I want in my life? Ya, I do have my dream to chase of. I want to reach my B-terminal, there have everything that I want. That's why I'm doing such hardcore things! Honestly, these few days, Im really tired. I really freaking exhausted, and tired of this life! Why life not just that simple?! WHY?

Always reminding myself that I have no one to depends on, that's why I have to achieve my dream all by myself. What I want in the future, I gonna make it true by myself. No one is helping me. And I know, if I stop doing what I'm doing currently, my dreams will never ever achieved and it will only be a DREAM forever. I know what should I do, What I have to do, but ... I'm just too tired to move on. Ya, I might not have the right to said so, because I'm just an ordinary student who only need to worry about cgpa and pocket money. But, honestly, I'm tired. Maybe I'm just that lousy and weak. I don't know who to tell, who to charge me up. I've used up my batt. and songs no longer effective for my tiredness.

What I can see in my academy path is getting darker and darker. My main path to the B-terminal. That's why I've seek for my sub path. well, nothing come easily. Whatever come easily, will just go easily. That's why we have a saying - easy come, easy go. Since I have a abnormal dream, so I have to work abnormally! So, MKY!! It's time to back to your life and stop procrastinating! Just add a little more, you'll be there. :)

好听

Sometimes I'm kinda tired of this life. Its quite stressful and tiring of chasing something I wanted so desperately but it seems so far to me.


每个人心里都会有一个极限，尤其是被伤害过得。在我们长大的过程中，我们变得越来越会保护自己，就好象洋葱一样，一层一层的把自己抱起来，不让别人把自己看得太过透。每当被伤害会体会到一件事情时，我们就会把真正自己包起来，因为知道了，原来这样是会被伤害，原来这样是不好，等等。

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不是说过要证明给我看的吗? 为什么现在又退缩了? 为什么每个都是这样? 口口声声说有几好，会怎样怎样，可是时间久了却这样? 为什么每次都是要在我开始相信的时候跟我说原来不是? 每次都是当我从新再相信原来是有例外的时候，你们就跟我说原来全部都是一样? 之前的保证，之前的一切一切，难道都真的是假的吗? 麦嘉欣就是那么容易相信别人。死蠢。

你说的话总那么好听，你爱不爱我不能确定
也许你只把爱当游戏， 我却没那么聪明 :)

复杂的一天

很想马上倒在床上大睡到明天，我不想醒着。我知道我在逃避，可是，我除了暂时逃避，我还能怎样? 我真的有点累了，越来越觉得，其实自己并没有很好。之前都高估自己了。原来，一切都是假的美好。原来自己是那么不会handle问题。原来自己是那么的依赖他们。原来，原来，原来。原来我并不是自己想象中的坚强。我很想证明很多很多，更多更多，我以为我能。我相信我能。可是，我开始质疑了。我开始否定我自己。对，我很会鼓励别人，很会分析道理，当朋友down时，我都能开解他们，给他们solution。可是，当自己down时我却帮不到自己。


我变了。我不知道是好是坏。我只知道我变得越来越现实，实际。可能是看到了社会的残酷，可能是见识多了，知道了，之前的我根本不能再未来的社会里立足。哭泣，太懦弱了。好像，很久没有哭了。是因为知道了哭泣改变不了事实所以不哭还是我变坚强了?我也不知道。


可是，今早，我确确实实哭了。当眼泪滑下我傻了，我也很惊讶，真的。我既然哭了，而且还是为了那件事情。在眼泪滑下的那刻之前，我都以为自己不在乎。可是，当我真的哭了，我才发觉，原来我很在乎。只是自己也不知道。可是，我真的不知道这会是好的开始还是坏的。该继续，还是停止。我真的不知道。怎么办。。。


怎么办怎么办怎么办，很无助。真的很无助。我简直就是没有任何的感觉。伤心?担心?失望?绝望?好像什么都不是，就只是很down很无奈。我坚持的，是对的吗?值得吗?

Nearer :)

成绩放榜了。


知道了成绩放榜时，并没能立刻马上上网看成绩。
回到家，一上网，skype的灯就不停的闪，朋友不停的问。
那感觉，真的很恐怖。很想找个人陪，可是却害怕自己的成绩没有自己想象中的好。
想跟家人一起看，可是，我更怕。因为，我知道他们对我期望很高。如果，我失败的话，他们会比我更加的失望。


像我所说的，看成绩前，我就答应好自己无论是好是坏，都要倘然接受，因为那已是一个不变的事实。那也是我的成绩，无论我留多少泪，那还是我的战绩。

看到了，我的grades的时候，我怕了。心想一定是没有了，因为需要全部A才能保持，而我却没有。我失望了。当时，我真的一位就这样，我emo了。我在想再怎么跟家人交代，怎么跟自己交代。当我scroll 下一点点时，我才发觉，越来下面有下cpga == 原来我办到了! 我真的很开心，很开心很开心。可是，那开心只有短短的几分钟。当朋友不停的问时，我厌倦了，因为他们又在比较。也知道有些朋友考得并不是很好，心情也有点沉重了。我了解，我明白那感受，因为我刚还没看到cpga时也真的以为自己maintain 不到。无论如何，成绩是好是坏已成定局。现在该做的事是Sem2要更加努力，成绩不好不要逃避，找更好的读书方式，考好的更不要骄傲! Daddy, Mummy, Jie n Gor !! Thanks for the support and love. I can't do it without anyone of you. I will do my best to keep my promise, I will not disappoint you all. Love u guys! 

下贱!

学会自爱，才爱别人。

不懂得自爱的人，没资格爱别人，更不要在那里跟我谈情说爱!


自己都不懂得爱自己，凭什么要别人爱你? 凭什么爱别人? 凭什么在这里跟我说尊严?! 你有吗?!


不要有问题发生的时候，就把矛头指向别人! 想下为什么会这样，是不是自己也有什么问题。小姐! 为什么别人会这样对你? 不见别人这样对其他人? 就是因为你自己不懂的保护自己，爱护自己，尊重自己，所以别人才不尊重你!

有样又怎样? 不懂得爱护自己，一样是贱货一件! 对不起，我不喜欢用那么难听的字眼，可是，我真的找不到任何一个词比贱货更适合你的了! 不要令我那么讨厌你好吗? 我很累。小妹，真希望你有改过自新的一天。可是，同时也害怕当你改过自新后，想回自己之前的无知，承受不了而自杀! 可恶! 明明自己就是恶魔，还要装天使。怎么这世界上会有那么讨厌的人啊? 哇靠! 我真的很讨厌你们! 你们! 同时，我也很感谢你们! 因为你们，我才有今天的我! 因为你们的所作所为，我才要撑下去! 证明给你们这些狗眼看人低的家伙看! 你们就尽管欺负他们吧，我会让你们后悔! 我说到就做到!我要做的事情，我一定做到!就像我能争取到我今天拥有的一切。 我就是喜欢看你们那无奈，不甘的样子!那一天，那一刻，那一秒，我永远不会忘记! 你们那惊讶，无言，无奈，不甘的样子，就是我最大的收获! 我说过，不要看小我，不要惹我，更加不要欺负我的家人! 继续过分吧，如果这样你会开心，就继续吧，我并不会阻止你，因为这才是我继续奋斗的动力! 不好意思，我不懂得用像你们用的那种低贱的手法去伤害别人，损人不利己。我比较喜欢双赢，不但能帮到自己，也能赢去你们的不甘同时那妒忌的眼神!尽管是那么一秒钟的嫉妒，我也要! 因为，我真的很讨厌很讨厌你们! 这是一个不变的事实!

原谅他人就是善待自己。妈妈常这样跟我说。我非常认同这句话，所以我很少讨厌别人。可是，至于你们，为什么我不能原谅你们? 因为你们在我眼里根本不是人! 就那么简单。

I can !

Hi, Sem-breaking . haha


Refresh back days I was studying for my final. It was really crazy. I wonder how could I do it? Locked in the room, sit there and study for 12 hours. OMG! But, its not surprise that I have gained 4kgs during this final exam. Honestly! I have gained 4kgs ! Ishhhh. Im super duper upset, and was trying my best to exercise and burn all the 4kgs FATS ! Since I couldn't control my food intake so I have to increase my FATS output, HAHA.


During the period where I am fighting for my final, the only thing that motivate me, and give me the energy and strength to study for 12 hours was SCHOLARSHIP. For me, score = money. Every single marks means a lot to me since I have started my uni life, because even Im lack of 0.01, it will cause me to pay RM3000+. And sorry to say that, I will not pay for it! Get off ! I COULD MAINTAIN my SCHOLARSHIP!

Although, facing the notes was tiring and toturing of course. but the mindset of us must be a very right one. Result will be release very soon, and I know many people will get result that they're expected and of course some will get unexpected result both good and bad one. But please, accept it with a open heart. Every single hard work will pay us back with our result. Our result is equivalent to our commitment. Even though, you cant get a result that you aim for, don't feel upset, don't darken your day. Promise yourself before u check the result, no matter the result was good or bad, allow yourself to spend only 2hours maximum to be proud/ sad of it. After that, back to ur real life! Good result means that, you need to continue the same effort in sem2 in order to maintain ur result. Bad result means that, the study method of u wasn't right, and think of another way or work harder ! :)

yes, we will all encounter moments in our lives that we just want to give up. Everything is just against us and we don't know how much more that we could take. I must confess that the road of perfectness and greatness is a difficult one! The hardship encountered along the way are what will test our resolve and make us great! So, whenever you're down and disappoint, don't give up! Tell yourself, I will survive, I will overcome, I will succeed! I can!

SAY NO TO FATS !

我要瘦 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


*Law of Attraction*

我很瘦。我很瘦。我很瘦。我很瘦!!!! LOLLL.

比较

比较。



其实，在这个社会里，我们每天都在比较。
走这条路比较近，
这比较便宜
这比较快
这比较美
这比较好吃
这比较好喝
这比较难
这比较简单
这比较舒服
这比较厉害
等等等...

仔细想想，这些话是不是都占了我们日常的话语的一大部分? 其实，比较并不是不好。还是那句，就看你的观点是怎样。如果，今天比较会带来的是动力，激励..那尽管去比较吧。而我，从来都不喜欢比较成绩。真的。因为，在我们学生的生涯，为的不就是成绩吗?成绩就代表了一切，不是吗? 所以，成绩是敏感的issue, I seldom touch it. LOL. 一山还比一山高，我们要怎样去跟别人比较? 不要把自己逼得那么辛苦好吗? 明明生活就很简单。

今天，我们的coursework result都贴出来了。大家都在讨论着。自然而然的，听到朋友们在比较。as usual, 偷偷溜掉。因为，我很怕。真的怕他们问我的成绩。我不知道要怎样给他们反应。怕他们会误会。所以，逃跑！是最好不过的方式！哈哈哈。时间快到了，我走过去拿书包，听到朋友们说“好啦好啦，不要比较了”。
其实，真的很想跟你们说，不要跟别人比较。尤其是身边的朋友，因为这样久而久之会影响友谊。只跟自己比，好吗?这次那9分，下次至少都要拿个9分，这样就算对得起自己了。别人拿10分，替他们感到开心罢了。把他们的分数当成动力。问问自己，为什么我们上同样的课，做同样的练习可是他却那么高分，我却这样。是不是自己哪里有问题。这才是比较真正的定义。而不是，比较了，然后自己一个人emo觉得自己笨自己没有用。

人，往往最大的敌人就是自己。所以，为什么要跟别人比?跟自己比就好了。赢了自己，就等于战胜了最大的敌人。


要考试的朋友~ 我们能的! 每个人都有自己的目标。有的2.0，有的3.0，有的3.5，有的4.0。别人做到，我们也能。加油! 不要被coursework的分数打败自信。:)

把压力放进冰箱，把它转化成“冻”力吧! 加油加油!

离家出走

离家出走 - 叮当

也就是我blog的歌。这首歌，还蛮适合我的。真的。就像我想对家人说的。


温室的花朵 看不到天空
世界有风雨 才会有彩虹
爱能保护我 却也绑著我
把我还给我 把心变自由
让自己飞过 也追过 也痛过才算活过
你爱我 就让我和我的命运去交手


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Final is around the corner.


4.0 or not? I'll fight for it!

Dad, Mum, Jie, Gor, I will do my best! No worry!
Dad, sorry for against-ing u recently. Please allow me to go where I wanted to go. I don't allow my life to have regrets. I know its the life I want, I see what I want.


前几天，妈妈跟我说，她一天都不见到我10分钟，即使是在同一屋檐下。听了，心真的很酸。爸妈，对不起，谢谢你们。真的。突然觉得自己很不孝。是我不好，不懂得如何分配好自己的时间。读书，又比别人笨，需要花多一倍的时间明白。所以往往时间都用在读书。
其实，你们希望的是我好好读书，拿文凭，找份好工作，安安稳稳的过生活。
可是，我希望的是，好好读书，拿文凭，找份好工作，让你们好好的享福。你们就是我的动力。没有你们，就不会有我。谢谢你们的牺牲，是值得的。还是那句，给我时间。

Today My life begin :)

Recently I have fall for a song which charge up me when I was helpless, disappointed or down.
Today my life begin - Bruno Marz. Friend around me should knw that, Im strongly recommending this song recently. HAHA.



The lyrics was awesome.
I've been working hard so long
Seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart's been done so wrong
I wondered if I'd ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin'
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And I've learnt how to leave it where it is
And I see that I was wrong
For ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Life's too short to have regrets
So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
Only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin
I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin
I know I can make it, today my life begins
Today my life begins...

Genting trip

17/8/2011 - 18/8/2011


T10 2D1N GENTING TRIP.

more pictures, just to simply click into my facebook profile will do.


Ya, awesome days spending with them. Without a doubt, gap and relation between all of us become closer after this trip. Although there're some disagreement and so call bek-cek thingy happened, but we used to overcome it. And this have made us know each other deeper.

Here to share something, what I've learned from this trip.
A game we played at night. It's not a horror game but it's super scary. This kind of thing is the most scary stuff in the world. The real side of human. Its always 10000000times scarier than ghost, insects, etc. Okay, the game is about 心机..everyone will have to choose a card, whereby the card indicate that whether you're a wolf (killer), witch(heal / kill), little girl(spy) or villager(normal). at the end of the game, villagers must kill all the wolf while witch and the little girl will help the villager. so, some which is wolf will pretend that they're villager and try to convince them to kill their own villager. The scariest part of the game is that, when u see how someone pretend infront of other but at the back actually she/he is a killer. especially, when he/she is the one who trust a lot. I don't know whether am I trust someone easily or what. It just made me feel really very very scare, when the real identity of your friend reveal. In real life, i dont think he/ she was such a person. but from this game, i knew. really. That's why, half way, I quit this game. Because, I cant stand it anymore. 人的真面目比任何东西都来得可怕。

我真正的领悟到“人不可貌相”。可能，我真的是像T10们说的那么单纯和笨吧。对我来说，这是很大很大的缺点。太容易相信一个人。

result

Hey, blogger! Here I am :)

Ya, can u still recognise me? with my extreme dark eye circle. Ya, Ky here ! hehe.


This week was a busy week too. 2  tests, presentation, 2 full reports. and know what? I have done both of the full reports by today! HOHOHOHO! Ya, i admit, i didnt put as much care + effort on it as I did previously. So, maybe will get lower mark la. ><

Ya, here's my result for my tests.hehe. Actually, Im really satisfy with my result. So, everything is worth!

Test 1
Mechanics : 36/50
Chem : 42.5/45
Maths : 14/35
CT : 26/30
Bio : 9/10


Test 2
Bio : 8/10
Maths : 25/30


Seriously, Im really happy with my result. This is really an unexpected result for me. Really thanks to everyone who have taught me and share their understanding with me. Really, Thanks a lots! Serene, Vincent, WeeChin, JC, KingHeng, ChanWei, etc ! Thanks!! Love u guys! ;)

CT and Chem, I was the highest among our group member. Honestly, Im really shocked, I bet you all will feel shock too la. This stupid Ky will get the highest mark == Anyway, for CT, I really gonna thanks WeeChin and especially KingHeng! OMG. I really dare not to refresh back the day, the half an hour before CT paper. I have forgotten everything single thing. >< Thanks KingHeng's companion and helps! Thanks guys. :)

Tutorial G10 :)

疲惫。

 hahaha, after our experiment. Always will be a photo shooting section :)
I love this photo la weih, nice shoot ya, JC :) LOL!

Our 1st Karaoke section! rock the ktv !! A unforgetable K section :)

LOL. Macam yeshh punye photo.

Started from week3, test has became a common thing for us. Sleep at 3-4am was a common thing to all of us. The UTAR CFS Tutorial G10 ! HAHAHA . Ya, we always do things together no matter where we are. Maybe not all of us together, but at least few of us. The few "hardcore" one. haha. So, yeaa.. this article was mainly for YOU ALL. Hmmm, although just back from school, but I seems like... started missing you all la weihh. Don't know~ because of u all, i have the college feel. hehe. Next sem is coming soon, I m worry. I want to stick with our own group, I dont wanna seperate from u all :( Please, may god bless that few of us could get the same timetable!! Pleaseeeee. Thanks god.

I've used to this group.
When I have questions in certain subject, i know who to find, who to depends on.
When I was doing reports, assignment, tutorials, I know who will be the one who did the same hardcore thing with me. I know who to kacau at what time.
When I was concentrating on my test paper, I know who r the one who keep staring at my paper. HAHA.
When I was emo, I know that my phone will ring and the same name will appears.
When I was fishing in the class, and i know i will receive a annoying phone.
haha, peopleee, stop doing this la weihh. next sem not same group how? I gonna miss all of this messages, missed call(s), companions so much.

CRAPS

Hi blogger !



Long time no see. Could you recognize me? With a super dark eye circle. Honestly, Im getting older n uglier nowadays. pimpers + dark eye circle :(


Few days before, when i look into the mirror. Honestly n seriously, Im scared by myself also. My eye circle is no longer a dark eye circle but seems like... blue black. macam kena orang belasah. After that, the next day, my dark eye circle seems like bigger than my eye =.= Ytday, my mum ask me isnt got make up to school  macam ada eye shadow. OMG!!! UTAR memang = Universuty Tak Ada Rehat!

Well, 2 full reports, 2 assignments, 2 tests. wowww, 成双成对。very good ! and what now?! 我们还不是捱过去了? G10 ! 我们能的 ! haha :)


After today's test, went to loudspeaker for K session with my group mates! OMG! Its awesomeeeeeeee! HAHAHA. Feel really released after this week. huuuuu~ Ky! cannot give up so easily ya! gah yao gah yao! +u, haha :)

Score = Money

First test for both Maths 1 and Mechanics.


I've started doing revision a week before the test. Ya, honestly I put more effort on Mechanics compared to Maths 1 because the difficulty was quite a big range and so to my understanding ability. But somehow, during Maths 1 test, I had felt the feeling that I have never try before. The feeling of ... its really can't be described. In our lecture note, tutorials question and even extra questions that tutor gave us was not as tough as the test. I don't know whether the test was tough or, I don't understand this chapter.

Maths consists of 4 questions and carries 35 marks in total. Could I score 5marks and above? or not even 5 marks?

Mechanics, first of all really gonna thanks Chan Wei for sharing his tutorials' answer with me. Chan Wei, really thank you very very much ! Yesterday, after going through the answer of Mechanics, I have saw some light and seems like, my gap with Mechanics was slightly nearer -.- but is just somehow, I don't know what the hell happened to me. Keep calculate the wrong answer although everything was correct. This is a very very bek cek and ridiculous thing! Test questions was exactly the same as the tutorial questions, is just the value had changed. Just because of this, I m worry that still I can't score for it. If I can't score, it's surely because of my carerless mistakes, either calculation error or substitution error. Ya, this two was a very big mistake that is strictly not allow to happen! Aiks. Won't la won't la! I already double triple check every answer, must be 100% correct! no mistake!


During the past, I don't care much about the marks. Because, getting low marks really doesn't matter. It just to tell you your level of understanding. But now, its no longer this simple. Marks = Money! Can't reach 3.500, pay it then! Don't want to pay, then work hard! Stop giving excuses.

Face-note.

2/7/2011 - Saturday.

Mathematics 9am-10am
Mechanics 10:30am - 11:30am



Ahhhh!!! OMG!!
test held on Saturday? okay, fine.
2 subjects in the same day? Okay, well~
Maths and Mechanics ?!! Walaoooo, 咩事哦 -.-
Only half an hour break?!!!! UTAR ~ you win lo. you win all niaooo ~.~


Ky! don't complain ehh, walaooo. put more effort la, keep complain will transfer info into your brain or not? If it works, continue complain then. If its not, keep your mouth shut and face the notes! >_<

ILoveYou

HAHA!


A Pre-engineer used this method to flirt around.


i+[(5v+u)(2e+1)]-5v-2eu
= i+[10ve+5v+2eu+u]-5v-2eu
= i+10ve+5v+ 2eu+u-5v-2eu
= i+10ve+u


HAHAHA. Great Job, young man! :)

珍惜

有些人事物在我们身边时，我们总是不察觉，把一切当成理所当然。 总是没好好珍惜。当不在了，我们才发觉，原来当初的一切并不是必然的。原来，没有了他，对我们带来那么大的影响。可是，遗憾，哭泣，后悔，内疚，憎恨，思念..对现况已经于事无补了，也都无法再把他带回到我们的身边。与其拼命挽留当初，为什么不好好珍惜现在?

“我...过几个星期就要走了。” ...

虽然面带微笑，可是真的...心里是出现了一万种不舍。这次一别，我们何时再相见? 怎么了，一片片我们的回忆不断地浮现，却不能以一字一句形容。值得庆幸的是，我们的回忆并不是悲伤的 ! 真的，每段回忆都是笑脸的 ^^

谢谢你。带给我这么多的美好回忆。教会了我很多很多。
不要带着不舍到那里，答应过我的事情，无论如何都要做到!
谢谢你为我安排的一切，真的。就算你忙到把约定的时间忘了，真的无所谓，因为，至少，你有努力过，你有想过，而我，也看见了:)

十年后? 真的还会记得对方吗? ...
为什么这次要对我承诺些什么?不是说过你不喜欢答应别人吗?为什么第一个承诺就要那么的艰难，漫长?-.-
加油!


我 非常爱你 非常确定 你像情人 又像知己 :) -- 梁文音 情人知己

GahYau!!

The real Uni life had began.


Assignments, tests, reports.



Anyway, kinda glad to have such a busy life so that I will have something else to concentrate on instead of thinking unnecessary things. :) Nowadays, Facebook is not the first webpage I click into when Im connected to the internet. Google is the best companion of mine now. Anything, anywhere, anytime! *ADVERTISING*


Anyway, I prefer single bond. which ONLY consists of TWO electrons. Please, don't occur any dative bond or whatever bonding okay? And, I'm aso strictly prefer stable electron arrangement. Don't wish to donate my electron and for sure wouldn't accept other electron! pleaseeeeeee!! I'm stable now. lol.

名牌。

名牌。


` LV ` COACH ` BURBERRY ` GUCCI ` GUESS ` ABERCOMBIE N FITCH ` ROLEX ` MNG ` MOOKS ` PRADA ` CHARLES N KEITH ` CALVIN KLEIN ` CHLOE ` POLO ` CHRISTIAN DIOR ` CHANNEL ` ARMANI EXCHANGE ` ROXY ` NIKE ` BANANA REPUBLIC ` DKNY ` GAP ` KEY NG ` MICKEY ` LEVIS ` RAOUL `


想要吗?
我想要! 一定要! :) 


不是爱炫耀所以一定要得到，而是，我一定要到能够拥有这些名牌的阶乘。

COACH 一直 是我梦寐以求的牌子。每次看到有人拿的时候，就会跟自己说，不能羡慕，因为总有一天我也能拥有它!

今天，我得到它了!! 可并没有很开心或庆幸。因为，那是哥哥在加拿大买给我的。我的第一个名牌包包! COACHHHH

Positive

I'm fully negatively charge now. Anyone could accept my electron to make me back to neutral or even positively charge?! ><

mmm, somehow forgotten what made us have the idea of  "couldn't-graduate-from-foundation", most probably it would be the lecturer(s) keep reminding us like a parrot that there were 500+ intake of foundation study students but there're only 180+ students graduated and could proceed to their degree.
Or maybe it would be the syllabus n level of my subjects that cause me have this worst idea of all. Ya, it's nothing wrong with the syllabus, it's my standard. I'm weak.. I'm a slow learner. Aiks, and yet, I still not that hardworking enough. 3.500, could i?

Girls !

1.女生还是要努力让自己出色些，从能力到容貌。

台湾有名广告词：认真的女人最美丽。每个人都有选择自己生活方式的权利，但一定要认真。对自己；对工作；对生活。这样的女人就算不是天生丽质，也有一种自信从容的美‘也只有这样的美，才能和时间对抗，其实也是好男人欣赏的类型。
可能很多姐妹不是工作上很出色的人，那么能把自己收拾得干净清爽，也是一个很大的优点。不管怎么说，现实中的男人还是首先容易以貌取人的，不是所有的男人都只爱最美的女人，对于干净清爽的女人，大多数男人都是有好感的。


2.好男人，对自己有要求，对女人没要求。

凡是自己对工作得过且过，却对自己的女友有诸多要求的男人，还是敬而远之比较好。
这样的男人，婚后变成毒舌男的机率最高。我们姐妹嫁人，最少要求的是被自己的丈夫尊重，认为自己有权利对妻子呼来喝去的男人不是好的结婚对象。

3.嫁人最主要看人品，性格。

相似的性格，相似的人生观、金钱观是婚姻生活最好的保障。

个性不同，两个人平日里都说不来，就算是全世界都公认是金童玉女，天生一对，也是不能嫁的，毕竟你的一生中大多数时间是要与他共度的，冷暖自知。


4.一开始就说配不上你的男人，以后他永远都会配不上你。

对 一些出色的女生来说，总会遇上一些看似潜力股的男人，你为他改变自己，付出全部，他却说，你对他太好了，他的（学历，金钱，能力，地位，相貌等等）配不上 你。我身边好多姐妹们的例子证明，没有自信，只能靠你屈就才能交往的男人，以后对你不会好的，你的出色只会让他更自卑。

5.托付终身前，要看一看他的家人。

不是看他家有多少钱，是看他家家人是不是家庭和睦，关心礼让。一个家人中有男人打女人，大家还不闻不问，装作没看见的家庭，以后也不会管你的死活的。每个家庭都有缺点， 要问清自己男友的态度，一味愚忠的男人，心里对妻子的尊重是有限的。


6.对自己手紧，对女友也手紧的男人没有情趣。
对自己手松，对女友手紧的男人一定自私，是最不能嫁的。
金 钱是最能看出一个男人本质和感情的东西。姐妹们谈恋爱不是谈钱，但如果他在钱上让你感觉不对，就该好好想想他是不是合适你了。在谈恋爱的时候，正常的消费 是应该的，见面开始就说清要AA的男人太精于算计，也太怕吃亏了。在未来的婚姻中，有许多需要人牺牲的地方， 这样的男人会最先跑掉。

7.打人的男人不能要，被打一次一定要分手。花心的，脚踩几条船的男人不能要，发现一次一定要分手。老话说了，当断不断，反受其乱。


8.恋爱中女生要有自己的底线。
 决不能因为爱他，就放弃自己的尊严，侮辱自己的父母，抛弃自己的工作。好的感情，婚姻一定是双赢，而不是单方面的牺牲和成全。

9。遇到自己喜欢的男人，一定要勇敢去追。
单恋是最伤人的，也是最没有结果的。


10。有话明说。
有什么想法，说出来，不要让男人去猜，能沟通，你的生活会更快乐。不能沟通，说明你们的幸福还没有保证。我想，没有一个男人是以猜女友心思为乐的。为这个原因，失去一个好男人，真的很可惜。


11.不要一开始就在男人面前做贤惠状。

如果他对你的付出心安理得，却不懂回报，他有大男子主义的嫌疑。如果你时间长了，心里放松了，做得没有以前好，他会很受伤，会觉得你骗了他或是你不爱他了。
不 如一开始，就有分寸的表达爱意，给他表现的机会，让他为你做些事。说实话，男人对自己付出的东西印象比较深刻。他为你做得越多，付出越多，他对你越留恋， 越不开。反而，你的付出，他的获得他比较没感觉。在婚姻中，常干家务活，常照顾孩子的男人放弃婚姻的可能性要低得多，也正是因为这个家是他辛苦造就的，他 更舍不得放弃。
很多花心狠心的男人都有一个最贤惠，无私的女人在默默付出。我最终下决心嫁给自己的男友，是因为他和我说：我非常操心你，，我总怕你过得不好，或是遇上什么事，只要一不看见你，我就非常担心你。他的付出和我的感激是我们俩最好的相处模式。


12.当断则断。
人 人都有犯错的可能，但如果一错再错，就是自己有问题。好多姐妹因为“和他在一起N年了”，“他是我第一个男人”，“我为他流过N个孩子了”，“我为了付出 了……”“我已经……岁了”而忍受和一个不善待自己的男人生活在一起，最后受伤的还是自己。我的一个朋友和我说过：这个世界上的事，没有一成不变的，它要 么变好，要么变坏，总之，没有不变的。这句话直接促使我走出了一段不好的感情。因为，我知道，如果要变，那段感情只会变得更差，以后我受得伤会更多。我的 勇敢是我现在过得不错最坚实的基础。

13.因为爱而爱，不是为了一场漂亮的婚礼或是梦想中奢华的生活而爱。

一切幸福都需付出代价，但不要让有些代价毁了你的一生。年轻的女生容易被虚荣所蒙蔽，但在真正的婚姻中，那个能在夜里给你盖上蹬掉的被子的男人才是值得托付一生的男人。


14.要珍惜真正爱你且对你好的男人。
好的男人会以真正对你有益的方式对你好，不是纵容你，也不是以爱你的名义束缚你。这样的男人很少，如果遇到了，一定要珍惜。年轻的男人往往会以纯真的方式爱自己的女友，他可能不成熟，但他的爱是真的，不要轻意放弃。以后在社会上历练多了，你才会知道一颗真心有多宝贵。

15.一切都来得及。
这 个世上有很多好男人正是苦苦寻找另一半。不是所有的男人都只爱处女，也不是所有的男人都会在乎你以前的婚姻，更不是所有的男人都在意你的年龄学历。有很多 好的婚姻中，男人爱的，是自己女人的笨，天真及及圆圆的身材，或是嘴角的那颗痣。你受过的伤，他会加倍疼惜，你的勇敢，会让他更加尊重。所以，即使受了 伤，也要像金三顺一样，勇敢去爱，就像没有受过伤一样。你只有首先开放了自己，这个世界才会放开你。


16.不要为男人一开始的追求就付出自己的心。
好 男人和坏男人在追求你之初，都会关心你，接你送你，给你发短信，在你生病时照顾你。不要一有人对你好，你就马上陷进去，想一想，多看一看，再做决定。一 般，四个月，足够的接触，足以让你了解他。网上的交往不算的，再长时间的网络接触也不算的，真实的生活才有意义。你要和他一起吃饭，逛街，一起做些事，才 能了解他。你过得快不快乐，你自己知道。很多时候，不是男人在欺骗我们，是我们自己在骗自己。

17.如果爱他，接受他的现在，别幻想他的改变。
如果他能改，当然最好，不然，就想一想，你能不能接受。婚前的每一个缺点，婚后都会被放大。他抽烟，而你又爱他，就努力接受吧，婚后戒烟的男人太少了。其他缺点也是一样。

P license:)

13th June 2011.


A very memorable day for me. LOL!

I got my P license !!! hehehe. Without any 突发事件, I have passed my driving test. Huuu, finally I can clear my 2010's Goal. Ya, it's time to work hard for my 2011's goal list already !! Gambatte !!!

18 :)

1.转身，要比眼泪快。  
     这是必须。
     过了18岁，你必须学会承担难过，你必须知道难过它会过。
     要经常对自己说，我也可以很勇敢。不要，千万不要，轻易在别人面前掉眼泪。
     别人看多了你的眼泪，就会觉得你的眼泪如此廉价。


2.你以前或许干过许多荒唐的事。
     可是请你不要觉得那有多见不得人。请你不要觉得那是负担。
     过了18岁，这是你生命中一个新的开始。

3.谁对你好，你就对谁好。
     人际交往永远是礼尚往来的。双向法则。没有人有义务对你好。
     过了18岁，擦亮眼睛，谁对你好，记得对他好。


4.明确自己的目标，为此奋斗。 
    此时不搏何时搏？不是屁话
    过了18岁，你要出国？找工作？还是继续学习？……
    过了18岁，你离踏入社会已不远，你是否已做好准备？

5.答应自己的事情就要做到，该对自己狠的时候就要狠，切忌优柔寡断、藕断丝连。 

     对自己心软，成不了大事。 

     过了18岁，要学会面对现实，不能再整日沉浸于白日梦中。

6.如果你正在恋爱，请不要毫无保留地付出。
     你全盘托出了，拿什么留给你以后的妻子？
     男孩子，要学会自己洒脱一点，别把所有的都投资在所谓的“潜力股”身上。
     无论什么时候，看清楚你自己手中留着什么底牌。


7.做人当方则方，当圆则圆。
     过了18岁，别人不会再把你当小孩子，你的错误已不会再有人包容。 

     对不喜欢的人和事学会面带笑容，不喜欢躲的远一点。 

8.感谢所有伤害过你的人。
     然后在18岁生日的那天，对他们挥挥手，说声，“我不再恨你们了。”
     仇恨留在18岁以前的青春，你长大了，你要正视伤害。 

9.别玩什么非主流。你又不是肥猪刘。（女生）
         还不如学着化化妆，不是烟熏浓，是大方得体的淡妆。
        一个大企业的面试官曾对我说过，一个化淡妆的女生，企业会优先考虑。
       为什么？因为你连自己的容貌都不着急，你会着急什么？
       世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人。


10.减肥，说说就好。
       到你真的减到跟竹竿似的时候，你会发现低血压低血糖头晕目眩一系列疾病同时伴随你。
       说不好还有胃癌。
       过了18岁，你要知道，你以后的路还有很长，健康的身体是你走下去的保证。

11.对挑拨离间的人，不要揭发他。 

       等他演完一出出好戏，拼命演，拼命圆。 

       然后告诉他，其实你什么都知道。 

       接着，笑笑，离开。 

 *Extremely like this*

12. 是的，你已经达到法定婚龄了，可是你并不用着急着嫁人。（女生） 
        或许你正在热恋，你们山盟海誓说要一辈子。
        可是你才刚过18岁，你不知道一辈子到底有多长。日子是过出来的，不是想出来的。
       结婚，不是两个人的事情，是两个家庭的事情。老一辈讲的门当户对，并不是毫无道理的封建思想。结婚，你应该抱着一辈子只有一次的信念，所以挑选的时候丝毫不得马虎。恋爱，就把它当成恋爱。结婚，慢慢来。

13.轰轰烈烈的爱情，留给1字头的年龄。
       你已经18岁了。别再做那些会被别人当做笑话的傻事。
       什么夜不归宿，当街吵架，以死相逼，一哭二闹三上吊。
       那些疯狂的事情，那些年少轻狂，我们经历过就够了。
       过了18岁了，学会淡定从容。

14.女朋友，宁缺毋滥。不要因为寂寞而恋爱，不要因为跟风而恋爱。
      过了18岁了，学会对自己的人生负责。

15.自己喜欢的东西，不要奢望别人买。 （女生）
       18岁，不管你以前是否玩过暧昧，你已经过了暧昧的年龄。
      女人要独立，经济独立是基础。

16.如果一个男人对你说他配不上你，相信他。（女生）
        一个自己说配不上你的男人，一辈子也不会配得上你！
       珍惜与能力无关，与钱无关！

      
        最后，随时给自己准备一个微笑，告诉自己“我可以！”

Saw this post in Facebook. What a meaningful post.
Plan you work and work your plan! Gambatte !

Week2

Yayyy! Get into Week2 of my Uni life.

Emm, positively I should be glad la. haha. But my very first Biology test fall on Week 4. Should I put "Aiks!"  instead of "Yayy!" ? LOL. Face it ! Ky can de! right? :) hehe.

Week2 is really a big different from the first week. Although I'll still get out of the lift wrongly and walks many yuan-wang road. LOL. Have some new friends, but I still miss my old friends. Especially during lecture classes. Somehow the image of us studying together will appears when lecturer asked some specific question(s). Like, I will think that, "If xx was here, sure he/she will fight back." and " if xx was here, I can ask him/her this question." etc. LOL ! Girl ! wake up and move on la. That's all memories but not realistic. :)

Ohya ! My student card ! Hehehe, I got it. Will upload it some other day la, to prove that I'm a UTARian ! Hoohohoho.

___________________________
Think positively and everything will be fine. Smile ~ heheheee.

Modulus.

Modulus. A magic wands that could change every negative number into a positive one.


Hehehe, changed my blog title to MODULUS. This is because, hope that everything that I had posted here will become a positive one after all, both negative n positive topics.

Think positively, then everything will be very fine.
Hmmm, tomorrow gonna have the very first class for Critical Thinking. A new subject to me, wondering what it's all about. Hope it will be a great one ! :)

First Day !

30th May 2011.

Yayy, finally this day had came into me ! The first class of the Uni life was - Biology I. LOL !
The syllabus covered was similar with what I've learned in SPM actually, but without a doubt I had forgotten all of them totally. I wish I could fall in love with it as I have no other choice :)

Mechanics.
This subject is a very interesting one! The solution was freaking ridiculous but yet it made me feels amazing. It's really brain-challenging ! :)

Mathematics I.
Hmm, lecturer had gave us a test to do. It's all questions that we had learned during Form4 n 5 in Maths subject as well as Add Math. Same thing happened, the formulas .. I've forgotten. Not even a single memory in my mind. haha. completing the square, logarithms, cosine rule, etc.

Sure I'll cope with it and recall these very quickly ! Gambatte ! Tests will be started on Week 4. So, it's really no way for me to fool around like I do during the past. LOL.

________________________________________________________
 Although something unhappy happened. Ya, I should have control myself goodly. Aiks. Why influence by others so easily? Where is your rational, beliefs, toughness ? MakKahYan ! Don't make the same mistake again, think of others and yourself as well. 做好自己本分就好，0 遗憾 ! :)
Sorry, I shouldn't send the message. or, maybe shouldn't be at that time. Anyway, enjoy your holidays ! ♥

never the end.

This is not the end ! Never the end !


This is just a turning point! A terminal, to get into a path which we feel better.


Don't give up !


We can !

xxxx xxxx xxxx, xx xxxx xxxxxx xx xxxxxxxx! x xxxx xxx !!

I'm a Grade A student !

Well, felt a little stress after attending today's orientation programme which talks about PTPTN and Scholarship.


To maintain 100% waiver of tuition fees, my CGPA gonna be maintained at 3.5000 and above. Okay,when I get to know this, I knows it will be not easy but I think as long as I put in effort and be more hardworking, I would maintain it. But now, OMG ! After the slide shown by the speaker today, I'm really scared. If got grade B, then the CGPA will dropped to 3.300. So, which means, to reach 3.5000 I need to got at least an A- which also equivalent to 75% (if I'm not mistaken).. OMG ! Every subject also need to get A .. could I? From a ordinary graded student into a A graded student. Furthermore, no tuition, no notes. Errr...Anyway, I will do my best !


Another crazy info I got today about the scholarship, after 1 year Foundation study, to continue 100% waiver during degree programme, we need to have CGPA of  3.9000 and above. !!! Apa ini? Gila ke?

I know, I shouldn't have this kind of mindset now. Since I have not touches any of my subject yet. Ky ! You can !! Nothing is unachievable! Do your best !! Gambatteeeeee .

orientation day :)

UTAR ORIENTATION Programme 2011.



The night before it, me and peers were excited for it. Because our loafer and aimless life could finally come to a very end. HEHE. And of course, thanks to everyone who had text / call me yesterday night. Thanks for the concerns :) All the best in your life too !


Everything was ok for the whole orientation programme actually. But then, when it almost came to an end, a man gave us a integrity talk. Err, seriously.. I really can't get what he mean. What I know is, he made the orientation programme sien == Met quite some old friends there. Wish to know more new friends ! :) Yesh ! My Uni life gonna start soon ! Ky, play hard and work hard ! You can do it :) haha.

乱哈拉

两个相爱的人，在等着对方先说分开的理由。
之前，看到这段歌词是，真的很能feel到它的无奈。是真的很...酸?悲? 也不知道怎么形容。可久而久之，发觉，有那么凄美吗? 既然相爱，为什么还要分开? 还相爱却分开的，我觉得，是双方都不争气，不珍惜，不坚持。


珍惜。
你懂得珍惜吗? 珍惜你的家人吗? 珍惜你的朋友吗? 珍惜他/她吗? :) 如果，你珍惜一样人，事，物，你就不会允许任何东西伤害他，或导致你失去他。不是吗? 我相信，如果我们都珍惜身边的一切，世界会是美好的。虽然是土了些，可是认真想想，不对吗?
如果，我们珍惜大自然，空气污染，土崩，水灾，一切一切的灾难都不会发生。
如果，我们珍惜对方，就不会分开。因为珍惜，所以都会想尽法子避开会导致『分手』的发生。不对吗?

Hari Anugerah Cemerlang 2011

21/5/2011


Hari Anugerah Cemerlang @ SMK TAMAN EHSAN

Ya, I'm glad that I'm invited to this event at least once in my life. HEHEHE.

Pictures!

Ky Jor !

Serene Ky !

Jeff Ky !

Ky !!

Dad Ky Mum ! ♥

Ky Mum ♥

Ky Ly !!

lol, come some ss's picture of mine ba. It's been a long time didn't ss d.

Jay Again ! :)

Know what?! Jay gonna have another concert in Malaysia on 30th July 2011. OMG ! But, this isn't his own concert like The Era World Tour. This is come with a few artists. Jay, Soda Green, Landy and Cyndi will be performing from what I had read from newspaper la~ Fuyohhh. Hati Gatahhh.. lol. The cheapest was RM148 but it's numbered seat. Should I? or? Emmm... loll. Lynn~~ saya mau worr...*puppy eye* LOL.

Colored.

HAHAHAHAHA.



Finally, I had coloured my hair. *clap*
Purple colour lehh... hehe. But la, the effect not like what I want lo..actually~ loll.


Need to have sunlight only got colour. So o, i keep go outside, under the sunlight, ask my family... got a? got colour or not? LOLLLL. I don't think that is purple lo, macam brown jeeee... :(



Hope after few days the colour will "come out" la~

酸

其实，有时还蛮佩服自己的。为什么能够那么固执。最讨厌固执的朋友了。


因为不想有遗憾，不想后悔，不想轻易放弃。
因为我珍惜，它。
因为我相信，他。


就像朋友在Facebook Post 过的，“信任是一点一点小事情累积而成的。所以建立信任难，但是毁坏信任却可以是一瞬间的事情~” Emm,可是我想...毁坏这份『信任』并不是一瞬间的事。毕竟，到现在..我还是会相信他的所言。笨吧? 每一次的失望，令我对这份『信任』动摇了。事实就摆在眼前，这样，我还能坚持我这份信任吗? 我真的试过了，每一次失望时，都不停的在为残酷的『事实』狡辩，其实，自己非常清楚的知道...这『事实』就是真正的事实。只是希望，狡辩后，伤可以轻一些，痛可以少一点。

可能是我现实吧，我做每样事情，都会先想想..这样做是否值得。只要，是值得的，付出的代价是多少，我根本就不在乎。因为，结果才是重点。过程再煎熬，只要得到我要的结果，那过程也会是美好的。所谓:" 回首向来萧瑟处，归去，也无风雨也无晴" LOLL. *还要show off 下我华语程度*haha.


从非常期待到期待，再到不敢期待，再到不去期待。这过程，看似简单，可是..这可是一段非常心酸的过程。是由很多个失望，一个一个慢慢累积的。对，不去期待，就不会失望。:)


说来说去，我还是坚持着我的信念。为什么我就是那么的固执呢? 可能就像我的"老"朋友说的，我们都死性不改吧~ loll.



切记: 不要对号入座哦 ~ :)

朋友们都clubbing去了

T^T




Yesterday my sakais went for their first clubbing section together. I really wish to spend my first time with them too. It's so precious. But, somehow ... there're some "obstacle". And, the "obstacle" was ... well, since no one forced me to do so ... So, well, ya~ u know? LOL ! Hope u guys really enjoy it la :)


And, let's say goodbye to my dear Faye! She went to the jungle for 10 weeks. ya, hope u enjoy your life there, my dear :) gonna miss u very much ! and, hope things will go better after 10 weeks ! hehe.

黑眼圈

"你最近很夜睡?"

"你偷鸡啊?"

"你最近很忙咩?"

"哇!!你什么事哦"



好啦，知道了啦。我亲爱的朋友们。我黑眼圈很恐怖啦 T^T 的确，最近都有遇到蛮多很久没见的朋友。10个有9个都酱说...我真的很很很很伤心叻 >< 最无奈的是，有的后面还要加一句，"黑眼圈很难消的~" argghhh..我简直就是..bek cek !


对啦，这几天真的还蛮夜睡的。都出到蛮晚。*我知道这是自找的* lolll
怎么办怎麽办 ><

母亲节快乐 ♥

早安:)

今天一早(12:00noon) 被妈妈吵醒。不停的听到他骂那个在网上剪头发的女生。好啦，在我半梦半醒的走去了客厅，妈就马上叫我看。其实，我早就看到了这video,只是，说真的...我没兴趣看。即使我再闷在无聊，click进去看的念头不曾出现过。我也不知道为什么，可能就觉得他们无聊吧。没资格浪费我的时间+精神。昨晚，跟朋友出去喝茶时，他们也说了一些给我听。好吧，反正妈都load了，我就看吧。说真的，的确，看了，心很酸，很痛。我也没看完，只看一半，就跑进房间，眼泪既然掉了。我不知道为什么。是为那被欺负的女孩而掉的吗? 还是，为那班无知的小孩而掉? 无可否认，对于那被欺负的女孩，我深感同情，也真的很心疼她。T.T 头发，对女生来说是命根吧? 头发短了，可以再长过，唯一需要的是时间与耐心。可是，这是否会令那女孩有什么心理问题呢? 唉，欺负人，有那么好玩吗? 有想过，后果吗? 爸妈辛苦赚钱让你们去求学，你们却搞出了那么大的丑闻。相信，爸妈的心一定很难过。面子是其次，真正伤心的，懊恼的，是要怎样把他们一路以来细心教导，抚养长大的孩子带回进"正途"。今天，是母亲节，这就是你们给母亲的礼物吗?感谢她的礼物吗? 这就是她付出的代价吗?! 每做一件事情前，拜托用你们的脑想下后果先吧。



Mummy !! Happy Mother's Day ♥ ILoveYou. xD

很多人都说很久没跟妈妈说“我爱你” 了。可是，我似乎每晚都有说。“谢谢你”的话呢..偶尔有说啦。就当看到妈妈做到很累了的时候，就跟他说咯。哈哈哈。虽然我每次说谢谢你时哦，妈妈都会很骂我:"谢什么啦，去对着你的电脑啦，不用帮手的" 哈哈哈。因为，我总是在妈很累的时候说嘛，她可能就bek cek了一点咯。hehehe.反而，“对不起” 我却真的好像没有说过。为什么的? 我也不知道。虽然说长大了，很久没发爸妈脾气了。尤其是妈妈。就算有时因为他们不能理解我的看法，说了些过分的话，马上的，我就会很内疚，不停的自责。可是还是希望我能慢慢学会控制自己，不再伤害他们啦:) 咪，sorry a.. hahaha.知道你不可能会看到 :P

咪~~ 呵呵。再给我一点点的时间吧，我会努力的! 爱你 ♥ 记得我说的话哦!

Hope that next year's mother's day present will be a better one.and of course, hope u will like this year one la~ hehehe . I will work hard for it ! I love you, mummy ! forever and ever, from the core of my heart ♥ muacksssss !

responsibility

我讨厌不负责任的人。对我而言，没交代就等于不负责任！




承诺的定义是什么? 难道就是在话前/后加上一句，“我答应你”吗? 只是没做到“答应”了的事才叫做不守诺言吗? 说到，就要做到。就算做不到，至少在之前跟对方说声好吗? 之前不说，之后也说声吧... 如果，是完全当没有一件事的... 好吧，你就是不负责任。


please la ! say what u mean , and mean what u say !!

我们的爱犯了什么错

suddenly found this video on Facebook posted by a friend of mine. Hmmm, clicked it with curiosity. Eh~ the lyrics ... not bad .. :(

...

为什么每一次遇到问题时，就只会流泪? !!!




没有用 !!!





真的觉得自己很失败 ... aiks.

一双红鞋走天涯

一个人拥有的东西，总是越来越多。我们搬进一个新家的时候，也许只是带着一个箱子，要走时，东西却装满了二十个箱子。

舍弃从来不必拥有容易，尤其是要从心爱的东西里舍弃其中一些，好让自己转身上路。

终究有一天，你会明白，我们只是旅人。人生的百啭千回中，根本一直也布满了一个一个车站，机场和渡头。我们相聚，我们离别，我们是彼此生命中的一个旅人，留下了欢乐或悲伤的足迹，然后各自转身到下一个未知的地方去。

每一场相聚，都是离别的开始。既然我们要去的总站不一样的，我们要走的路也不相同，这场相聚，只能在其中一站分手。

舍不得你，但路还是要走下去，前面也许会有一片更旖旎的风光。抹干眼泪，我走我的路，如果你曾是那么值得爱，我会永远怀念你，谢谢你陪我走了一程。如果你不值得，我会把你抖落，你是我年少无知所犯下的最愚蠢的错误。

每一段旅程，每一个过客，每一次心碎，后来都让我长大。从今以后，脱掉童稚的小花袜子，换上一双红鞋，走我的天涯。

笨?!

我知道，在你们的眼中..我是很笨，很呆的。


你们要求什么，我都答应。因为我不会say no.

你们说那次只是纯粹的因为我好运，我沉默。你们说我默认，我也算了。 我不需要你们的肯定。真的不需要。



可是，我再笨..你们也不能这样 ! T.T

roommate

Not bad.



went 1u with my loafer-friend again. lolll.
here r our pictures :)

















my first time tasting 臭豆腐。it's nice !!! not willing to post this pic actually, my dark eye circle was so so so serious >< anyway, use as a memory of my first time la~ hehe ^^

Journey II

S&J 9th annual party. SnJ (MV) with our "headmaster" Jeff Yap :)

Ky n Pei :)
Girl, be strong. and same thing la, hope u can get a GOOD NEW job soon. Don't ever limit urself. You can do it !
The closest friend of mine in snj mv. LOL. If to write down memorable stuff of us, it's endless. Might be the age of us was close and somehow our thinking is similar. anyway, I'll never ever forget the way she carry and throw me out of the shop. loll. sifeipo, I'll lose my weight in this week time !! hehe ^^v

Ky and Thulasi (Darling)

HAHAHA. Pandiii ... lolll. oooi, betui betui punye babi~ loll. The very first person that always tell me very PROUDLY that she's a real pig (betui betui punye babi). hahaha. and, the most disgusting love story that I ever heard before was told by her too. haha.
Darling~ thanks for the bracelet that you had presented to me. and, gambatte for May's target.

Ky and PeiLing (Biii)
Biiii, hahaha. EMO. see her face, I could just relate to E.M.O. The youngest between us. The most-easy-jealous person. not only in sale, but also in social. haha. her face will turn immediately when she saw pei / darling holding my hand or talk secretly with me. haha.
Biii, zui ai shi ni le la. bu yao zai chi chu le. haha. hai you a, xie xie ni de Stitch de pencil case a~ ni yao gai diao de dong xi, yi ding neng gai diao de ! gambatte !

SQ and Ky :)

Girls, thanks for being a part of my journey :) You'll really taught me a lot ! Especially in training my EQ and temper. haha.

张小娴

深秋蝎子


天蝎太多恩怨分明，对于人性，天蝎从来看得比所有人透彻。他们有着异常炽热的感情，但大多长的较深。

是的，我不喜欢解释，以解释就没意思。大多数时候，我宁愿选择沉默。

有些心事，可以永远深埋于心底。有时候，不是为了我，而是为了保护我在乎的人。

当你长大，你慢慢会学懂下面几件事情:

* 有些人不必理会。无论他说什么，做什么，多么无理，多么无礼，多么幼稚，真的不需要在乎。

* 有些人永远成不了你的敌人，不必抬举他。这种人只是自作多情，一位攻击你，伤害你，就能够被你所恨。

* 有些人不必等待。我们心里其实清楚得很。这个人不必再等了，只是我们放不下。


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我就是喜欢张小娴。因为，我觉得读他的书，就像在说出我心里的话。很多很多话，我不懂得怎样表达，可是，一看到她的文章，我就觉得，原来，简单几个字，就是我要说的。lolll... 对，我不喜欢解释。对我来说，解释是一件很烦的事情。毕竟，本小姐真的很不善于表达。你越要我解释，我越说错话。所以啊~ 同事们每次都说我不听人解释，很讨厌。诶，小姐们，不是我不听你们解释啦~ 只是，我觉得，解释就是....就... 相信我的人，不需多解释。不信我的人，我没必要解释。就酱。所以，当你们解释时，我总会说...“我懂啦，不用解释~” haha. *就说我不善于表达*

目标 vs 方法

那天，朋友问我...目标和方法，我会选哪个? 其实，我也不是很明白这问题啦~ loll.. 只是，不知道为什么，这问题偶尔会浮现。其实，对我而言，目标是非常非常重要的。

没有目标，我就不会努力了。不，应该说，我会很轻易地放弃，喊累。


就像上个月的我。在做工那里，我的target是14000。因为，我是7号开始工作，所以，当玲跟我说时，马上脑海里出现-不可能的任务。 就是这样，我没有经我所能争取到底。每天只想着只要有过0.25有得交代就好了。结果，我真的只过了0.25。


这个月头，当我们的personal target出了时，看了我的是14733.33。就答应自己说，我一定要过。结果，我真的过了。的确，我很欣慰。因为，今天才27号。我已经是149多了...玲跟我说，他做了5年，我是第2个在31号前hit 到完的。说真的，听了这句话...我很开心。所以，我更加相信，有目标，我才会努力做到最好。就算达不到，至少我没有遗憾。



可是，为什么当我要换我的definite goal 时，我却不知道要写什么呢? 我只知道，我的时间比别人少。我一定要跟上时间的步伐。

选择

一颗苹果…当你咬下第一口…发现它是酸的…那么你会选择把它扔了…还是咬下第二口…第三口…然后期待下一口会是甜的？

刚在facebook看到朋友的这一段话...在想，如果是我，我的答案会是怎样呢? 第一个想到的答案是，我还会继续吃，如果..真的很不喜欢那就扔吧，何必委屈自己? 可是，过后...我开始犹豫了。不是应该先看那是什么苹果吗? 如果，那是我找了很久，花了很多时间，金钱才买到的苹果，就算是酸的...我也会坚持下去，不会期待下一口会是甜的 (因为对我而言，那几率太低了) 只会希望，自己真的能慢慢适应。会有一天爱上酸的苹果 :)


你呢?

生活

有一个问题一直在我脑海里浮现，一直都想不到答案。



每天，一早起来就开始了我们忙碌的生活。工作的工作，读书的读书...每天早上，有的左手拿着一大叠的资料，不断的再看，右手不断的把面包往嘴里塞，有的半睡半醒的再绑头发，有的甚至连鞋子也没穿好。 到了晚上，大家都累垮了。都完全不顾形象的在火车里睡死去。其实，我们这么忙碌的过日子，为的只是生活。从小，爸妈就不停的灌输我们要好好求学，长大了才能找到好工作，可以过好的生活。


其实，生活...又为了什么? 因为，大家都一样这样吗?

I did it !

HAHAHAHAHAHA !!!


Although today I'm very very tired. but, I need to share this happiness here :)



Today, 21 April 2011 ( Thursday ), I did 19 transactions. But my sale was Rm1905. hohohohoho !! but, still lack Rm100 to break my friend's record. anyway, I should be happy !! hehe.

This is my first time, with my hard work, promote the product of ours. and, the customer ordered so many !! Thanks !! Panasonic !! LOLLLLL~

雯，可能你说的是对的。我真的输不起给我自己。

我爱过，所以我活过

hehehe. 很久没有看这些散文了。朋友介绍了这本《我爱过，所以我活过》给我看。无可否认，看了几篇后，我又爱上了张小娴的文采。她，真的很棒。差不多每要翻第2篇的时候，我都是在赞同她所写的。


你说: “男朋友两年前离开我的时候，我很伤心，可我现在已经想不起那是有多伤心了。但是，我以前养过一只很可爱的金毛狗，他七八年前死了，直到如今，我还是常常想起它，我还是会难过。我是不是爱狗而胜过我爱男人?”

我也常常想起我小时养过的一头混种小狗，它在我上学时候给汽车撞死了，后来我又养过一头胖胖的黑毛小狗，它走失了。我最后养的是一头楚楚可怜的马尔济斯，它也死了。

我相信，这一辈子，我都会常常想起它们的傻模样，想起它们忠心的黑眼珠，也想起我失去它们是掉过的眼泪。

但是，那些我一度爱恋过的男人，我虽然偶然会想起他们，但我不会再流泪，我也不想念他们。
不是我们对狗儿的爱胜过爱男人，而是人对狗的爱是不求回报的。

那头很捣蛋的马尔济斯当时咬烂了我不少鞋子，还要烂了我一把雨伞，那是我买过最昂贵的一把雨伞，但我从来没恨它，我只是拿起一根鸡毛扫吓唬它，罚它去蹲墙角。

我最爱的是那头给汽车撞死了的混种狗。那是我还是个小学生，放学回家，妈妈告诉我它死了，我只是幽幽地“哦。”了一声。等妈妈走开了，我关上房门哭得死去活来。

我们爱一头狗儿或是任何动物，是爱它原来的样子，没有想要改变它，我们也不需要它回报什么。然而，当我们爱着一个男人，我们终究是希望回报的，希望他以微笑回报我的微笑，以深情回报我的深情，以爱回报我的爱。

可惜，在爱情的领域里，两脚动物毕竟是比四脚动物难驯的。


ermmmm, 刚读的时候，明明觉得很感触的，可是...post了上来，好像也觉得...没什么。lolll... 越来越善变了~

Journey.

S&J MV with our boss (Sam n Jeff)

12 April 2011.

S&J 9th annual party. This annual party had motivated me a lot. Thanks !
Without a doubt, I had really learned a lots during this working period. And, I really do tasted the sweetness and bitterness of social. Listening to my friends' stories, their background, lifestyle .. I really feel that, I'm a lucky one. I need to be more gratitude. Girls, I will never forget this period although it's a short one. Don't know what's the reason it make me feel so, would it be the time we spent together is long? hmmm... Anyway, the laughter, the tears, the joy, the anger and of course the game we played is always a good memory for me :) I hope, all of us could cross over this obstacle together before 30th April, like we promised. * abo I need to work till 29th May* what a big punishment for me. haha. MV is the best !! Gambatte ! <3

First driving :)

Yesterday started my first driving lesson. LOL !


It's was cool? emmm, ok lo... quite boring de~ keep driving straight only == Actually the uncle not bad de, didn't scold much..Just, hahahhaa... sometimes he's bek cek. lollll.
the first thing he bekcek about was...
" reaction faster ... don't so slowww..."
actually, i also bek cek when he say like this :(


" don't drive so fastttt .. slow down"
" aiyo, don't give so many oilllll..."

HAHAAA, whole driving journey keep repeat ==


Isn't because recently the time i spent alone getting more or what? I like day dreaming. Even when I was driving .. OMGGGG...

DECISION !

Yeshhh !! Finally I had ran out from the darkness of decision making. LOL ! Hope that what I choose were lead me to what i want, so to all my friends :)



Today went to Utar for registration. Haha. Snapped pictures of my registration forms and documents. but, can't connect to computer again a :( anyway, it's a great one. Going for Foundation in Science ! :) Anyone same with me a? hehe.

猜不透

我不想，我不想，不想长大。长大后世界就没有花~





外面的世界，是残酷，现实的。



可是... 在感情上，到底应该现实些还是单纯些?




...........



真的猜不透呐 !

result !

成绩出炉了。


期待已久的SPM 成绩，终于出炉了!



期待，紧张，害怕。等待的过程是多么的可怕。



接过成绩，勤说：“9个” 我，真的很开心! 可是，那开心在几秒钟后消失了...我的华文竟然拿A-。好! 那我去看Biology。 A ?! 酱...... 难道我拿10个?! 再看到，B+ ... 再看... Pendidik Moral. 再三的看清，为什么?!!!! 为什么会是这科?



即使到今天，想起我的成绩，我还是会很不甘心。 那又能怎样? 算了吧~ 只是，我真的很不甘心咯!! yerrr !!! 原来这样才是真正的bek cek ! Aiks.



6A+ , 1A, 2A-, 1B+ 。 好吧，成绩是怎样，都已成了定局。是时候决定读什么了。烦!!

ganjiong

23rd March 2011.


SPM result of 2010 candidates will be release. Which means, the returns of my effort is coming to me on this day too. I'm really scare. Although, it's useless. I can't change a single thing even i cry my eye off, but...aku memang takutttttt >< Especially after listening to my colleague's experience. She is one year older than me la, so..asked her why not continue her study after SPM. She said :" I planned everything, confirmed colleges and course. But my result was out of expectation. I failed my BM, so...I can't continue. ... " Emmmm... fail BM? errr.. I won't gua? I really very scare. aiks. 希望越高，失望越大。I know, but I can't lie to myself.. I really aim for that, because i have my own goal. but, what if i didn't get what i aim for? eeeeeeeeeeeee....


And horrr.. I can't off on this day lehh.. ishh! apa la ~ after getting the result need to rush to ktm >< I hate looooooooo~ eeeee. but la, hahahhaa. hope is bringing happiness la ha~ hehe.

Good Luck to every 2010 SPM candidates la :) Of course especially my dearssss la !

epi 1

我知道，我们都没有错，只是放手会比较好过~最美的爱情回忆里待续 ...♥


emm, many things to blog actually. but i had forgotten. Many things n people i met recently cause I m currently working, i think this is cool although it's freaking tiring.


My work place have no chairs for us to sit == so, we stand whole day long. ishh. but la, each n everytime saw my customers buy present for their loved one, wowww, u know~ so sweet. Really feel happy for them :) hehee.

You're my bestie !

虚伪。



知道了一件事情，真的令我觉得非常的失望。这段友情，非一般。一直以来，我都非常珍惜。甚至，对我来说...这已不再仅仅是友情了。就好像家人，不用带任何面具，不用伪装。可是...为什么呢? 是你自己亲口跟我说的！


心里有无数的话，感受想说，却卡住了，一言难尽。我，无言。失望！唉...如果，你是别人,我不会这样，不会这么的不明，不这么的心痛，不会那么的失望! 就是因为你不是别人! T.T 难道，长大了，就没有真正的朋友了吗?

The Era World Tour 2011 !

Thanks Gina for sponsoring me to my Jay's 2011 The Era World Tour concert :) Went to this concert with Gina, Kelvin and Jeff :) Ya, it's awesome. and we bought lot's of goodies of Jay ! I had bought a cap of Jay, a goody bag and some other small memorable stuff ! Wish to buy the purple shirt with my Jay printed on it, but no more size :( Well, I believe I will get a better n nicer one during his coming concert ! LOL.


His concert is just awesome, screamed all way long. And know what?! He did walked down and shaked hand with his fans at the rock zone. The feeling of mine at the moment was... I wanted to jump down from 2nd floor ! I really went crazy when he say he gonna go down. OMG ! I swear, I wanted to go to his concert and buy the rock zone ticket ! (hope I have the ability by his next concert!) Few sentences that he said really impressed me. It just made me love Jay deeper and deeper ! lol.

Firstly, 我不会倒，谁叫我是周杰伦！
Next, this one is the really freaking man one. LOL. It goes like this : " 刚不是跟保全说过了吗? 不用兰我的歌迷! " OMG ! How could he be so ..... undescribable? LOL. I just love him very much ! I will never ever forget the scene after he had said this sentence. The fans were like pushing the security guards with their whole effort right after Jay finished his words! How could he be so powerful?! gosh !

After the concert, without a doubt, my ear was a little blur. Like, can't hear voices clearly. Ya, exactly. Because Malaysian were so passion that we keep shouting n screaming ! LOL. Went for supper after that :)


Really enjoy the concert ! Of course, the concert is awesome isn't just because of it was Jay's but also because of I've watched it with my love one. Gina n Jeff ! ♥

Here are some pictures we took before the concert !

My Jay's goodies :)

The lovers :)

Ky Gina !

Kelvin Gina !

Ky Jeff !

Ky Jeff during concert !

Hope that we could enjoy more and more concert TOGETHER ! :)

Job ! :)

People !!!



Hello ! I found a job ! Finally, hahahahaha. Will start workingon Monday. So, I will put a very fantastic full stop here. The end of my loafer life. HAHAHA. Loafer will get bored and tired also. So am I. :)


As usual, I went Midvalley for job hunting with my lepak-partner, Serene. HAHAHA. We photo shot of course. So, here we go :)

Visit The Garden's toilet :)

Serene Chew !!

Ky !!

Then night time, met Freanceyn Bong and Issac Liu. Same thing happened. We snap pictures. wait for Miss Frean to upload ba, lazy.

Today went for Karaoke sectin again with some new friends !! It's worth! only cost us Rm15. hahahaha. but, it's really tiring. My leg is so painful now >< And, when I was coming back in ktm(7pm something) crowded. Seriously, Im really lack of oxygen. I sensed Im about to faint that time. My eyes're blurred and my face 麻痹 already. So samfu. Luckily we're in lady coach, no nid tat aware of guys. Aiks, That s why I hate travel by public transport ! I want my driving license !!

Singapore Airline, SIA :)

26 Feb 2011. Saturday.


It's a memorable day ! HAHA. Me and Serene Chew had went to ParkRoyal Kuala Lumpur for an walk-in interview organized by SIA :) Emmm, seriously there's a lot of people. boys and girls. Really unexpected. After few hours of waiting, it's our turn :) so, it's like this.

Interviewer : Hi, everyone. Just take a breath and give a brief introduction of urself and tell us, why u choose SIA.

Okay, then one by one. LOL ! Honestly, it's really scary. everyone is shaking. lol. Actually, we did the preparation for this question. hahaha. So, after that, went out the room and wait for the reply. While waiting, both of us went into the washroom. After sometime, a girl of our batch went in and say, hey, all of us had failed le~ O_O Harr?! So fast? HAHAHA. This was our reaction. We expected we will fail it, but not so fast ba? well, double checked with the clerk then okay, let's go for lunch. Was so hungry. lol.

Good try la:) had an experience, at least I went for an interview of air stewardess. LOL ! And, until today, my leg's muscle is still killing me. I wore a high heel shoe for the interview, and we went there by ktm n monorail. so, walk. that day, it really make me feel that, Malaysia's road was suck. so many holes and so slight and so many stairsssss. Aiks, luckily i pandai, hahaha. buy a slipper after the interview. *I had bought a lot of shoe this year* ==


Here are our proof :) !

While we're waiting :)

Application form.

Zoom In. LOL.

Lepak in Timesquare.

Meet Gina at Fahrenheit 88 :)
This was our attire for the interview.
Serene changed her coat. And I, forgotten to bring cloth to change. So I had a OL look for whole day -.-



- The End -

Scorpio :)

天蝎不擅表达自己。

如果你能感觉天蝎座对你三分的喜爱，事实上会有五分；

如果你能感觉到五分，事实上会有七分。

超级能忍比如明明想见一个人，却不会见面。

比如明明想知道谁的消息，却什么都不问。

除非不想忍。

不爱发短信，也不爱打电话，懒蛋一个。对特别的人会例外。

自尊心很强！强过金钱，强过事业，也强过爱情。

天蝎座的爱需要时间。

会喜欢很多人，却很难爱上一个人。

喜欢细水长流的感情，长长久久。

不喜欢做决定，

小事情随便怎么样都行，没所谓，

大事情很喜欢听朋友的意见。

如果天蝎座有了自己的想法，

一旦下了决定就算全天下反对也几乎没有改变的可能，

一意孤行。

其实多多少少有些靠直觉行事，

不过天蝎座的直觉大多时候还蛮准的。

天蝎座喜欢和自己喜欢的人斗斗嘴

却不会大声吵架或者说根本不会吵架，

你想吵可以，

天蝎座只会转头走人。

天蝎座有善辩的口才，

可被别人误会的时候却不爱解释

不要问为什么，就是不爱解释。

就是跟他再近的人，也很难看出来，

其实天蝎座脾气很倔，

如果有一天，真的把他惹怒了，

他绝对敢和你同归于尽。

让天蝎座消气很容易，不管是天蝎座男生还是天蝎座女生，

也不管对异性或者同性，

只要你撒撒娇说两句软话，保准天蝎座不会再有脾气。

不管对朋友还是恋人，

在外边天蝎座绝对袒护的是你，就算错的是你，没道理的是你，

也会和你一起对付外敌，

不过事后你们单独相处的时候才会告诉你说他觉得哪里哪里似乎是你的不对。

不要因为在天蝎座面前丢了人而自卑或在意，

因为天蝎座绝对不会在意。

天蝎座觉得有时候丢人也是可爱的一种表现。

天蝎座不喜欢向别人提要求。

对朋友一点要求都不会提。

如果向你提要求，就代表对你的喜欢和信赖非同一般，

也不喜欢逼喜欢的人讲不愿讲的，天蝎座认为这是一份尊重。

对于恋人的过去，过去就是过去，天蝎座在乎的是现在的坦诚。

同样，天蝎座不会把上一份感情留在现在生活里，

不允许心里死去的人和眼前喜欢的人相提并论，

因为他会告诉自己，现在爱的才是最好的。

同样，天蝎座死去的爱情，是绝对没有可能爱火重燃的。

失恋的时候喜欢听悲伤地情歌。

既然伤就伤个够吧，

呵呵， 还会删除对方的电话号码联系方式，

以及丢掉所有回忆的东西。

天蝎座对理财没什么概念。

经常不知道自己帐户里有多少钱，也不知道花了多少钱。

对父母挺舍得花钱，对好朋友和喜欢的人也不会把帐算的很清

理性的天蝎座更感性，

有颗不切实际单纯美好的心灵。

比如看到蓝蓝的天会感动，

会觉得生活真美好……

比如看到乞讨的老人，

会觉得可怜，然后想着以后有能力要帮助好多好多可怜的人。

但是过后又很快会忘记……

天蝎座吃醋时不爱说话，也不会明讲。

只是你会发现天蝎座有点气嘟嘟的一个人生闷气，

说话语气有点阴阳怪调，

自然就不会给你好脸色看了。

很少说承诺，一旦说出就会履行；

很少说“我爱你”，

说了出来就是真的爱你。

喜欢用行动来证明一切。

责任心重。

天蝎座不爱怀疑别人，所以也别怀疑天蝎座诚实度。

怀疑的结果是让天蝎座伤心，生气，

也会变得不再相信你。

如果两个相爱的人，

天蝎座觉得自己的存在阻碍对方的前途或发展，

会选择自动离开。

很爱很爱你，所以愿意，舍得让你离开。

很爱很爱你，所以愿意，不牵绊你寻找你的幸福。

甩掉天蝎座很容易，只要给一个理由，

就算是你编出来的，天蝎座不会纠缠，也不会乞求爱，更不会要施舍的爱。

爱里的天蝎座异常要强。

天蝎座相信分手的恋人还可以做朋友，

只要对方愿意，希望大家都好。

如果曾经爱过，就不要带着恨吧。

不管理由是真是假，

但请你亲口讲出来，天蝎座都会离开，

因为这是天蝎座拿来替你说服自己的理由。

如果你表白后，天蝎座对你说“不喜欢你”或者类似的话，

那就等于判了你死刑。

这个时候不要想着继续努力来感动天蝎座。

没用的。

爱上天蝎座的人是痛苦的，

如果天蝎座爱的不是你，

结果往往是对天蝎座又爱又恨又不愿放弃。

小事糊涂，大事聪明。

有些天蝎座看起来是正常人，

可经过交谈后会发现有些很简单的东西都不知道。

不要以为那是在装，

天蝎座就是这样，出人意料的单纯，

大家都懂的事情会不懂。

发觉了单纯之后也不要以为天蝎座就蠢的什么都不懂，

大事情照样可以比你更有智慧，更有主见，更有见地。

天蝎座没你想象的精明，

他们本不是精打细算的人；

天蝎座没你想象的愚蠢，他们有的是大智慧。

被天蝎座爱的人是幸福的。

This article really scared me. HHAHA. I'm a scorpio ;)