almost there ;)

Yayy :) My Add.Maths project almost come to an end, LOL. although is just copy from the internet la, but, still i feel so successful now. HAHAHA. yesterday do till 3:15am. wowww, i think is the first time i stay up late for school works -________-

great!! But still got a stack of Bio worksss not done yet. suck. Why can't Bio be a little bit more adorable?

Talent Show :)

woooooooooowwwwwwwwww, today's performance of Talent Show organized by Choir SMKTE is great :)everyone of u is awesome, at least u all have the courage. x)
the winner - Mr.YongZhi ♥ his diabolo is awesome. and the hand stand. wowwww ♥♥♥ *claps*
and for those who lost,don't be sad la weih.u tried ur best right :) chill. u got an experience at least and shown your talent to SMKTE's students :) U're the best!!

saw some of the contestant dance, LOCKING. OMG.
i miss it ♥♥♥
long long time didn't dance,didn't watch an video of Locking. OMG.
but today i watched quite a lot. HAHA. LOCKING ROCKs xD *funky*

GREAT JOBs, Guys!!

XiaoRen-ful

!@#$%^&(*&^%$#@!

靠靠靠靠靠!!!

Bull shit u!

真的有够生气的!就那6.2分嘛，怎样? 我不希罕! 不要说现在我拿最后，就算，我就差那6.2分拿不到第一，我也不会要那不属于我的6.2分。是怎样?要赢就赢得光光彩彩! 像你吗? 为了那几分跟老师吵得死去活来。幼稚! 难怪大家都那么说你!亏我还一直跟他们狡辩!看来，我是盲了吧?!

Talent show完了后，就等爸来。挖老!有够讨厌，一个死印度‘豆记’ 竟然跑过来搭讪。没死过，在本小姐心情不好过来惹我。死黑豆记，活多几年才来跟姐姐搭讪啦! 要号码? 123都还不会写，怎样给你10个号码啊?靠! 死样衰，死黑豆机!!!

Heyyerrr!!!!!! No mood a!

Yan

down.

Sunday, report card day.
I don't feel like going to get it. scare? ya, definitely. Isn't because of worrying what teacher talk about me but my result. Didn't sit for lots of subjects, get no marks for the subjectsssss. and definitely Im the last in my class. I know, it doesn't because Im really bad in the result but is because of Im sick that time. but, i really can't accept it actually. my report card became so ugly because of this f*ck off dengue. Last. u know? once i reach home after class, my tears drop. i can't act like nothing anymore. I don't know why i care about it so much, the matter is, I don't want to be the last. T.T
everyone is telling me that, is because u're sick that time ma..bla bla bla. I know, but..i need some times,maybe.

By,
Ky

smile :)

你累了吧？

你每天嘻嘻哈哈到底在掩饰些什么？是孤独？是无奈？是伤

心？ 还是害怕？
为什么你面对着自己在乎的东西总是摆出一副可有可无的样子？ 为什么总是说着些口是心非的话？

为什么知道那些都是在敷衍你，
你却还屁颠屁颠向他讲诉着你的事迹，
而他只是“哦”的应了你一声，你讨厌他的“哦”，
讨厌别人的敷衍，讨厌等待，在等待的每分每秒里，时间走得那 样慢，慢到恐惧…


你明明很在乎，却还要装作一副无所谓的样子；
明明很喜欢，却还要倔强的说讨厌；
明明很生气，却还要微笑着说没关系；
明明很害怕，却还要逞强着说无所谓…
你怕失去，怕被丢弃，怕一个人面对黑夜，怕孤独寂寞，怕失 落…

每次失去一样东西，一个朋友，你都会迷茫、不知所措，可你巧 妙的用微笑掩饰了内心的恐惧，害怕…


你是为了自己那不低头的面子吗？
为了自己倔强的脾气吗？还是为了显示自己的大度？

感觉到疲惫了吗？ 你为什么不说心里话？

怕遭到拒绝？怕被别人笑话？
怕让自己很难堪？怕让自己再次沦陷吗？

为什么你连属于自己的幸福都争取不了？

为什么你眼睁睁看着别人一点一滴从你手中夺走属于你的幸福， 你还无动于衷？
是你不在乎吗？

那为什么当你看到自己手中正一点点消逝的幸福，你会偷偷躲在 被子里抽泣…



为什么你只选择默默守望自己的幸福？
为什么自己在被别人弄伤之后，你还要顾及别人有没有被你弄 伤？

知道这样的你有多傻吗？
为什么看到你的他一步一步离你远去，而你不挽留他？

难道你真的无所谓吗？ 那为什么你看着他的背影，还会掉眼泪？


你说你希望他为你留下，而不是苦苦求他为你留下，明白他已不 属于你，就算失去很痛，你也要放手…

为什么不哭出声？为什么当你再次抬头的时候又是一个微笑，那 个微笑满是泪痕…

为什么你总是想要把自己伪装得严严实实…却还是感觉得到心 痛？

你幻想要一份安全感，一份完完全全属于你的幸福。

你不喜欢和别人争什么，别人是主动者，你却喜欢做被动者，你 幻想着幸福来找你…
你傻傻的笑了，满足的笑…
你已经笑累了，该休息了，不要再天真的以为，别人会看透你 微笑背后隐藏的悲伤，因为彼此只是过客，擦肩过后只是陌生 人，仅此而已…

正如，你也看不透别人，也不会为谁而改变自己，为谁做什么…

请收起你的虚伪，捡起你的失落，放下现在的……

重新做真实的你……


got this from facebook's note. smile :)

Ky

result

okayy, school holiday is over. and SPM is exactly 5 months later. since today was 22nd June.
everyone got their result, and definitely many of them got a freaking good result. Me? since i didn't sit for many of the paper, so.. I can just look at those question that Im totally don't know whats their talking about -___-

today got my BM paper that I've waiting for long time, cause the essay i know and i think i did it quite well la. but the result a little bit disappoint me. got a low mark in Kertas2. gonna brush up rumusan those stuff. aiks.

anyway, marks doesn't matter. the most important is we do not do the same mistake in the next exam. :)

Ky

20 June 2010

20th June 2010, woowwww ♥

ya, it's Father's day. what make this year more special is that, on the same day was my dad, Henry Mak's birthday and wedding anniversary. LOL. 3-in-1 celebration :)

→ pictures of the day ♥

sweet-nye :)

3-in-1 cake

issac liu ♥

Issac Liu bought for me from ShangHai
it actually not a album, just a CD with some Jay's songs :) anyway, it's great to heard that he bought this for me. *touched* LOL.
Thankssss :) ♥

爱不单行

用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到
爱情那个枷锁

爱
只 有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱
是不可输的吗
为 何我还相信
它不是独行侠

我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
我在等一个人
在等我的 永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信她

i love this song after going through its lyrics :)

handsomes n pretties

snsd ♥

2pm ♥

suddenly discover this → video from Facebook. They're really freaking handsome n pretty. OMG. KOREAN ♥♥♥ dude, let's save for Korea trip :) HAHA ♥
this song - CABI by Snsd n 2pm.

Ky

pictures ♥

I love this madly ♥

oooppss, raining~ gonna go home? No. LOL


Prove that, Richard is our driver for the day ♥

modeling ♥♥♥



Peace ♥ LOL

hey, finally Richard upload those pictures we took yesterday :)
snap-ing is great :) willing own a professional camera one day later. LOL.
edited some of it since the lighting is quite suck.

More :)

yan

Movie day ♥

wowww, wowww, woowwww~~
went to One Utama with Bee Sim, Richard, Sook Wei and Jeff Chen. LOL. ♥
watched 2 movie in one day, was my first time -.- HAHAHA. It's fun n cool~ Killer & Karate Kid. nice movies, both. but both of it is a little violent. *killing n fighting* really nice movie, go and watch it!! HAHA. but please choose a suitable n nice place. lol.
Next round, 17 June Toy story 3 !! who wanna join? hehe.

as usual, we SS when we're not in the cinema. LOL. here are some (taken with my phone)♥
but no sook wei's picture in my phone -____- *sorry

By,
yan

SHOPPING ♥

Just now went to shopping with Gina ☺
Time square.
wowwww, those clothes is CHEAP!!! omg, maybe is long time didn't go for shop, when i saw shirts, i was like.. mad. HAHAHA. bought a slide beg, pants and a dress. the dress i like it very much but i dare not to wear it out la weih. no confident, LOL.
share ♥


how how how? feed back. LOL. pm ya~ haha.

Ky ♥

从生..reborn. LOL

actually, i got dengue 2 weeks before school holiday start. which means during the mid term exam. i didn't sit for Bio, Physic, Add math, Moral paper. okay, it's really not that important when im suffering from this sickness. but after i recover, and discharged from hospital, i start feeling it's not worth to skip those paper. but my condition really don't allow me to go to school or even step out from the room. it's so fatigue and before doctor figure it was dengue, doctor gave me 5 types of medicine. because i was having high fever (39.7), so every 4-6hours gonna take 2 pills of fever medicine. so 6 pills each time in total. what a torturing stuff is this? i hate medicine. after taking those medicine, i have total no strength to do anything even talk. was so dizzy that make me always wanna sleep.

For almost 8 days, i can't eat and even drink, just lie on the bed just like a dead body. my mum is the one that suffer too, looking at her, i feel like dying. she's so worry about me when doctor said that im attacked by dengue virus. she even cried in front of my friend,Kate when she came in and see me. when i saw my mum tears, i really feel like ending up my life so that both of us won't be so suffer -__- my mum cooked the soup with frog + bitter guard for me. cause those aunties said that this would help. and also ate a powder that got from the duodenum of the porcupine,it's damn costly. rm300 - 400/0.5g. mum cook, buy and also squeeze the juice of the papaya leave for me to drink. honestly, this three things is really suck especially the papaya leave. it's damn bitter. the powder.. when i eat, so suffer. feel like vomiting but can't cause i know it cost a lot. damn damn damn suffer. a day after figured out it was dengue, i "checked in" to Sentosa Hospital. AGAIN, take blood for test n have intravenous infusion. actually, it's really pain and feel disgusting when the needle is in ur vein, u know? but i have no strength to complain like what i will do normally. LOL. after all those registration stuff, sit on the wheelchair *i don't want to, but the nurse want me to sit -__-* and go into my "hotel" room.

This is the first time i stay in hospital and be in hospital as a patient. Gina volunteer to accompany me for the first night, yea. if not, i won't stay in the hospital alone. it's a impossible mission. both of us, squeeze into a little patient bed and sleep till the other morning when the nurse come for another blood test -____- but what impress me is, the porridge in the hospital is YUMMY ♥ hahaha. maybe because day before these, hospital's food is suck for me, but when i have no choice and gonna eat it, i persuade myself to say it's tasty -__- that's why i always say the porridge is yummy even till today. HAHA.

2nd DAY.
when Im having my lunch, dad n mum came. they were so happy,especially mum when she saw me sitting on the bed and eat the porridge by myself. honestly, when i was sick n stay at home, my mum is the one that feed me,i ♥ u mum. after that, dad stay there and accompany me for the 2nd night :) i know, everyone care n love me a lots ♥♥♥♥ not only my family members, my friends too. LOL. thanks for u all's calls and text messages. i off my phone all the time because i have no strength to answer u all's phone n read the messages. just on my phone once a while when i have the strength to do so. after my lunch n medicine, dad went to ask for my blood test result. woowwww, my platelet count increased to 105 from 77. i can discharge :) so, the nurse pulled the tube of the intravenous infusion off from the needle. but the needle still in my hand, is just it doesn't connect to the water. HAHAHA. that feeling was like, yea~ Im free now~~ when downstair with dad to see babies ♥ so small n cute. new life..

after those discharge procedure, waited my brother that went for outstation come over to fetch us. LOL. should be happy cause he was outstation in this period, if not..i bet my life in hospital may not be so easy. -___- sure he will say many disgust stuff when he saw my hand that is injected with a needle. LOL. and the whole that caused by the needle, last almost 1 week time. due to the day i discharge was also Wesak day, we went to the temple for pray :) actually, in the hospital.. i almost pray to the god that i want to discharge quickly, so that i can go to the temple for prayers. so, now i really can be discharge, definitely i would go. but... when we're going into the small hall for blessing, i feel like fainting because really crowded + can't breath, lack of oxygen i think. so quickly walk out and sit on the chair nearby.

-- ONE WEEK AFTER THESE --

went back to Sentosa Hospital for check up. hmmm..my platelet count increased to 403 -.-lll normal was 150 - 400, and my was 403. so swt when i saw the report. HAHAHA, no wonder i so active nowadays.

give u all some tips for dengue la, haha *experted*
- drink 100 plus
- eat the damn expensive powder (豪猪粉)
- papaya leave juice
- frog and bitter guard soup


p/s :don't blame me for not telling u all i stay in hospital during that period, because i really can't do so. sick badly ma~~ LOL.

recovered,
ky

张小娴

昨天，奇迹出现了。我竟然乖乖的拿着这本书一页接一页的翻着去读。没有一点闷的感觉。第一次，拿起了书就不想放下的感觉。也成功的在短短的几个小时读完了~呵呵。还觉得自己蛮厉害的。我喜欢书里的恋情，单纯，简单，真心，真诚，痴心..这种感觉，似曾相识。真的很好看的一本书，会跟朋友介绍。毕竟，这本书也是我的朋友介绍的- issac liu ♥ 张小娴的书，我看了几本了。很好看的~ 可是，今天当我想拿回出来读的时候，竟然不见了T.T
我借给谁了阿~~书名是 --- 悬浮在空中的吻。

欣 ♥