APPRECIATE

my uncle that suffer from pancreas cancer passed away yesterday. aiks.

life is short, and really got to appreciate everything we have, every moment we spend together. no one knows what will happen the next second. just 6months before, we went for a gathering and my uncle's still that happy-go-lucky and fool around. 5months before, operation. 20th Jan, visited him and scared us. totally changed, really skinny, just left the skeleton. and few weeks before, he can't get down from bed. just a few months time, things changed so badly. T.T
aiks.

*R.I.P, no worries, everything will be fine.*

gonna go to the funeral again later, huuu,
no tears but laughter, just like what my aunt said.
cheers !!!!!

By,
Ky.yan

time

another holiday tomorrow.
aiks, it's March soon. and SPM falls on November. omgggg, totally blank, even my chemistry's knowledge. what to do? except study, it's still study. start from Form4 syllabus. and March test is coming soon too. arggghhh, still have stacks of school works to do. many things happened this few days, and i really have no time for books. time time time.

By,
Ky. yan

red dots.

Peopleee,
s.o.s !!
my legs, neck, back and arms are full of red dots and its damn itchy.
since i can't complain to my parents, so i can only throw all my itchy-ness here. lols.
yesterday have a tin of Carlsberg♥ at Lynn's house. and after having half tin of it, my face turns red.haha. so sad la, everytime just drink a little bit then gonna suffer the itchy-ness the other day.*sob*
yesterday went to The Curve for Faye's birthday celebration. have not upload those photo we snapped yet. haha. after that, back to Lynn's house for cards.
so sad, i lost Rm30++. hmmmm, what a bad luck i have yesterday. wish that my luck will turn better day by day :D haha. ONG ONG !!!



may god bless my uncle,
please minimize his pains.
*pray for him*

By,
Ky.yan

have a roaring year :D

hey guys:D

Happy Chinese New Year. having a great CNY :)
as usual, visit my relativessss' house. and got ANGPAU ♥
how day whole,just do two major things, eat and drink. xD
if life going on like this, what i gonna be? lols.
hmmmmm, this new year still have not meet those monkeys. miss u'll la weih. :(
love u guys, have a good tiger year :))))

By,
Ky.yan

shopping ♥

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!

GONG XI FATT CAI !!!

ANGPAU MARI MARI :D

lols, i completed my shopping mission today :D
yesterday, went to 1U with my mum for mum's stuff but very bad, we have no time for my things. so, go to 1u again today :D lols, initially wish to go there alone, but my parents don't allowed me to do so:( so, i dated Eileen :D lols. but i think most of the time i shop by myself la. haha. cause she see her thing, i see my thing. furthermore, she go there late and go back earlier then me. lols. u know what, shopping alone is really really great !! i love shopping alone ♥
when i am tired, just sit down and see how the others dress up,lols.
when i am hungry, just grab some snack and enjoy it :D lols.
go wherever i want, do whatever i want, and buy whatever i think it's nice.
normally when i wanna buy something, sure will ask others' opinion since they're beside of me. and made me hard to make decision. but today, lols. decision making is just simple. i like, and it suit me, just pay :D lols. ohya, finally i bought a high heal shoe. shopped many shoe outlet also cant find a nice one, finally i got 1 :D in the process of learning how to wear -.- i swear whoever that see i walk with my high heal shoe sure laugh till stomachache. haha, learning learning and learning.

okay, lastly, wish u all a very happy chinese new year.
may lots of joys, wealth and health always be with u :D
and happy valentines day ♥

*iffy*?

Love,
Ky.

got a new phone and hairstyle :D

hey guys, i curled my hair and got my new phone !!! hahaha. finally :D
my hair, omggg... yesterday right after finished -.- look like japanese doll since my fringe is totally flat. emmm, look really disgusting actually. but it's okay la, try new hairstyle. but it really look very ugly. -.- for the curl hair..emmmm, hope that it will look better after i wash it la :D
haha.

suck alert.

*geram*

aiks. today really no a good day ! really really bad mood!!!!! wtf. early in the morning already made me feel very very very frustrated. wake by the idiot alarm alert, damn. scared me when it rings, ytday night forgot to change the alarm alert of this phone. walao ea, today wake by this suck damn music made my mood bad ! aiks. very tired.

worst receptor. -.-

Sometimes, you don't realize how much u cares for someone until he/she stop caring you.


omggggg, this is what i got from today's facebook's love quote. hmmm, i know its just a coincidence but am really shock la. haha. it's really true and just fit to my current situation. really regret. 失去了才懂得珍惜。before this, i thought that the way he treat me, is just a way he treat a friend. but now only i realize that, it's actually not. omggg, how can i think that naively -.-and not even listen to friends' opinion, always argue with them about the way he treat me. omggg, i am really stupid. 后知后觉。
arghhhhhhhhh, my left eye very itchy! from yesterday till now. no redness, no swollen, have nothing but it just very itchy !! feel like digging it out and clean it ! arggggggghhhhh !!



sorry, xxx.
now only i realize that the way u treat me isn't like what i think,
what i thought is, u just treat me as a "brother" but.. aiks.
refresh back those things u did to me, i have the worst sense in the world!
how can i sense it wrongly-.-
and the worst is, i even tell u things about HIM. -.-
sure, hurt u badly ba ~ *iffy*

worst sense,
Ky. yan

curl/short? advice~

guyss, need help !!
haha, what hairstyle should i have? curl it? or cut it short?
i planned to curl it since i really bersusah payah keep my hair till this length. -.-
but, i really hate tiding my hair each n every time i go out. how how how??? going to saloon next week. how??!!!! curl or short? just now search a hairstyle, quite nice de, but someone say worr..i will look like aunty o T.T how? let's see ~

will i look like aunty in this hairstyle -.- omggg, fed up with my idiot hair.
wish to try new hairstyle but my hair not allow -.-

*iffy*
Ky. yan

a great mail from y.mun :)

yesh !!! hahahaha, i am really happy right now !! can't control myself -.- hahaha, feel like jumping up as high as i can !!!! thanks !!! U really restarted me, indirectly. although something u said really make me feel a little upset but at least u cares for me. maybe just as a normal friend's care but it's better than doesn't care at all :D wong yee mun, i love you !!! hahahaha, thanks for the mail. heartbeat was very very fast when i saw y.mun's offline message. feel like, should i open the mail and see? will it make my mood worse? but when i see the title of the mail, hahaha. i really happy !!! thanks yee mun !!! and U, what la u..aiks. see, i said, something changed. may i know what happened and made u became like this? anyway, im now in a very very nice mood :)))) thanks, U and ymun !!!


and please,
U're NOT d.g.x.s'ing lorr !!
aiks, also dunno why will u feel like this !
*iffy*

thanks :)
Ky. yan

too late, right?

well, since i skipped yesterday class, i wish to go for today's replacement class.
the objective for me to go to school is to do my works, besides that, U are the 2nd motivator.
while doing my works, just one thing appearing in my mind, the only thing. but, doesn't happen. *broken heart*U really shut me down. stay moody whole day long, don't know why. just can't squeeze a single little smile from my face. okay, today finished my karangan finally. and also hand in my history note. emmm, counted i have done things that i planned to done except some other things. thanks, y.mun for being my listener :)



u really shut me down,
not blaming u or what,
as i know i did many things hurt u badly before too.
if u're like what y.mun said,
just go ahead.
if i am u, i will do the same thing too T.T
iffy, ***

*moody*
Ky. yan

现实

今天，没有去学校上课。只是放学后，去学校看看那个rubic cube competition.第一名，42秒。超恐怖的~加油!去了science and math club,去choir..乱乱的一片-.-

emmm,今天，学了一件蛮重要的事情。真的，听到他们这么说，有点觉得....“虾?做么他们会说这样的话的?” 可能我不明白吧~可是，我知道，不接受别人的说法，意见，是一定一定不会进步和成功的。人就都是现实的 T.T


have many things to do, bye :D

external/internal ?

peopleeeeeeee, need help T.T


CancerS really made me mad. omggg, what happened? again, heartbeat accelerate suddenly. aiks, almost a year after everything happened only feel so. no use right? everything changed. really have many works to do, yet cancerS is bothering me T.T


Do u got the same feeling ?

By,

KY.yan

Opportunity, only once.

hey guys, today i let the opportunity ran away from me T.T
what the dutttt. i really dunno why i react so, but.. that's what i wanna do at that moment. aiks. well, am i really sick for him? or, it's just a habit? that's the reason why i wish to tell no one at the very first time i realize that weird feeling. but, im still that "transparent" -.-
today, just feel like i can't control myself. what happened? besides i react so to him, i also got a very very weird feeling when a very usual thing happened. omgggg, it's really unbelievable. OMG. no, stop thinking about it. i can't even type it out what happened -.- may god bless me. and i know, right now, i really got to shut my lappie down and go for the stacks homework. Gosh!