30/11/2009 ♥

why do i keep running from the truth? all i ever think about is U !!!


hey, went for karaoke again with my colleagues :) have a lot's of fun. WE drive, we sing, we EAT and of course, we fool around -.- haha. as usual, laugh n laugh n laugh without any reason xD really never ever thought before that i can know someone that's older than me 10 years and we can talk about our problems and also fool around -.- glad to know u all, guys. but i left :( aiks. i need to help my mum out and also i got to concentrate on my study since SPM coming soon -.- i know that 2009's SPM have not come to an end yet.lols, but..i think it's time for me to prepare :) i hope i do what i said :) and peoples, miss u all very very much. lot's of laughters, angers, arguements, etc etc. haha. will u all miss me like i do? hope so :D hahaha, here a secret to say -.- the few fellows really bull shit. keep 'boom'ing' in the car while waiting for green light -.- innocent Ky, :(

this is the first time, will it be the last time? god bless, i hope not :(
will everything come to an end? should i?
what i think, what i feel.. am i right?
oh gosh, what should i do?
what does those sights mean? what does the date means? am i thinking too much or...? please, help.

To, issac.
text me when u saw this article. and, i did what i can do. and also what u told me.

By,.
Ky. yan

Brief

now is, saturday, 28th November, 1:28am.
is just finished my dinner :( already few days continuously i take my dinner in this time. yesterday, i finished half bowl of rice and cooked another packet of instant as i wanna drink some hot soup, after that chat with my sister tll 3am. sleep. this morning, vomit + stomach ache. aiks. back pain. work so hard yet ... :) well, no worry, two more days to go then i am free :) aiks.

today, really tired. total 193 cups. really weak, feel dizzy after busying. and now back damn damn pain :( have a gathering with JFC at Gasoline today. after Gasoline go to tea 1. sorry that initially i dun wanna go to tea 1. but luckily we didn't go to tea 1 around 2 because T was there at that time.huuu ~ and w.k said that they just went back then i come. haha. thanks god. oh ya, thanks Chris a lot for the presents.

these few days, some weird feeling. really, but, is better don't think much la. no hope = no disappointment. impossible = impossible. aiks. issac a, want find u 'keng sam si' a... *tears. friends, herher, ridiculous. RIDICULOUS !!!!! i rather alone like i said to Yz. swear, really not i think much. i heard it with my own ears. well, 清者自清。是清是浓，天知地知我知。* learn from 宫心计。haha. shit ! gastric again !!!!aiks. going to off la, bye. good nights, blogger.

By,
Ky .yan

2012

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers,She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers,Dreaming bout the day when you'll wake up and find,That what you're looking for has been here the whole time !!!

hey, am still highing..lols. finally i watched 2012 today :)
Bee sim, Chi shan, Melanie, Connie, Foo Weng, Daniel, Jeff and Kok ong made my day full with tears and laughter xD haha. tears is surely caused of touched by the movie la ;P before going, was thinking must be a little gap between me and them as long time didn't mix with B.sim's gang..but totally NOT !! haha. thanks , people :)


people, am joining Y.z's gang for second round this Friday !! haha. should i? hmmm...whatever la. as long as enjoy !!! sometimes, money can buy a little happiness too xD muuuuacks, love u guys.
2012, taught me a lots. appreciate what we have, whoever around us !! especially family members. daddy,mummy !! i love u all !!! guys, while watching those parts about Jackson's family..was thinking to make a call to my parents and say thanks to them..appreciate what we have a!!!! no one knows what will happen later on :) love u, daddy n mummy,jie n gor ..and also my friendssss !!! muuuuuuuuuuuuackss.

loved,
Ky.yan

what a wonderful Tuesday :)

i am just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze and love is a riddle ~


yea yea, finally i went for karaoke yesterday :D
surely,definitely,without a doubt...thanks my dear Issac la. so good, accompany us :D haha. actually was definitely worth. we sang for about..6 hours, and it only cost RM25/ppl. let's go for 2nd round on others day :) haha.


aiks, it's wednesday again. got to go to Super for add math class and BM class again. actually add math class was okay, it's just i dislike BM class. so boring. don't feel like going :( furthermore, today yz and jeff went for camp d. walao..sien. huuu..fortunately, just receive tze wei's msn message..said that later will be going :) love u so much :-*
got to take my brunch d :) bye..

by,
KY. yan

stop everything !! right now.

aiks, should be a happy day but... i rather did not receive that suck message. today, right after recess, my phone vibrated. zzz, zzz , zzzz... well, was thinking must be her as recess keep on disturbing, so..flipped up my phone and see what nonsense she send it to me again. BUT, when i am in my inbox, the phone number occur wasn't hers but his. double checked, triple checked..*jump up will cheers. well, doesn't wish to say the message detail but it really made me feel like, oh my gosh, i got it !! surely, share my happiness to Faye. after texting few messages, my phone run out of credit as i left 60+ cent before the first message. ran over murni class and ask Lynn's help. lols. and story my happiness to Chris and Lynn. haha. but at last, still i doesn't reply his last message as i feel that.. this is what i do normally ( no credit no reply). right after school, ran to Readers for top up card. reply him. tick tock, tick tock, tick tock.. no message receive. then, simply send another message over with a...question. no reply too, that time..i was so happy that he doesn't reply as it mean his phone run out of credit too xD. then i went for a nap :) after my nap..many messages and missed calls. just pray hardly that no message from him..but..aiks. while texting...no mood. after few messages..his phone no credit. well, i said many times!!! NO HOPE NO DISAPPOINTMENT !!!! who give me the hope and who grab it back??!!! it's U !!! each n everytime, i remind myself..that it's impossible !! everything was my imagination and it will not come true, will not be the truth FOREVER ! but who is the one that always give hope to me? maybe everything was my fault, am thinking too much ~ it's time to stop everything. 是我想太多。

will impossible be i'm possible? miracle.

decelerating,
Ky. yan

result :)

first and foremost, let's talk about my result.
here it is.

BI - 67%
EST - 65%
MM - 87%
Chem - 90%
Moral - 73%

this is what i got. is really shock when i got my MM paper as the previous paper i only got 60 something. the worst MM result i got. was hopeless, was disappointed when i got that result but fortunately, i did it quite well for this term :) and also congrats my Chemistry result :D hehe. although i am not the highest among my classmate, but it's enough. i really feel damn damn damn happy when i got my result. thanks, Gina :) well, those coming soon subject's result must be suck, especially Biology. gosh! anyway, good luck to everyone. and congrats those that have a good result and keep it up ya :) for those who score not very good de, add oil :) if u think u can, u can !!!! me too :) haha

love,
Ky. yan

:)

left Biology paper 3.
well, this term's result must be very rotten. even my chemistry. paper 3. i just dunno why suddenly so emo and didn't really do like how i do usually. aiks.

forgot about exam. let's talk about my birthday. :)
should i say my 16th birthday a special birthday what? exam fall on my birthday, have no outing with friend 4 celebration as everyone busy exam -.-
but it's okay la, as long as happy :) thanks for ur birthday song ya. hehe. so paiseh when u all sing -.- hmmm, only receive 4 presents. lols. the present that i hope for, i didn't got it. :( nevermind :) will present it to myself later on XDD

aiya, long time didn't blog, dunno how to talk to my blogger already :(
got to go now :) bye ~

happy birthday , evil yan.

happy birthday ?? oh, thanks.



since my birthday was fall on tuesday furthermore was exam day.. my family members planned to celebrate with me today ...everything go like what we planned...was great, was wonderful..
but something really unhappy happened. whats going on with my family??? where is my HAPPY family????!!!! whenever we have a outing (dinner) sure we argue. and mum will be the one that everyone blamed. why??!! especially jie n gor !!! they just keep on blaming her. just like my birthday celebration. it's totally non of my mum business.. is my bro.. we asked him come over n snap photo for us but he just sit there n chat..okay. we wait. then my sis suddenly scold my mum that sitting at the living room.. what related to my mum???? and my sis n bro just keep scolding my mum... well, still i can smile happily? still i can cut the cake??? i tried my best to squeeze a smile... i tried my best...but still i throw the knife n ran out to living room continue my add math ( as i just started revision at 10pm)...and now is 10;40...what i revised???!! nothing. and i really feel sorry to my parents. i don't know why i will say that... sorry !!! nad when they were singing the birthday song to me.. mum looking at me with a very strange sight. and what mum said after i say the word made me feel really guilty...sorry !! i don't meant that...since when i hope my family was just 3 of us.. my dad, mum and me... even my english essay... about the story that something related to family...i also didnt mentioned my sibling..why? i don't know.. i just hate them while they scold my mum... it's really not my mum fault.. but i just can't say anything to help my mum because i am the youngest... what can i say??? will they listen to me???

what a happy birthday i have.
sorry, mum. i love u.
i really doesn't meant that... :(
sorry for gor n jie's attitude...
thank you mum..
all i want is just my Happy Family..
i remember that i post on my fb's status..it's something like..im sure my 16th birthday is better than my 15th because 15th is the unhappiest birthday to me... BUT... although i got a camera from my bro, a birthday card from my sis..a cake, a dinner...but i all i want is laughter. i know.. they love me right? i love them too..but why??? i really hope everything will be okay.... from young till now.. i just always feel glad to have such a family.. a pair of parents that love me so much n also my sister and brother that love me so much... i am proud of my family !!! but this is past... current? how bout in the future????