my current soul.

if you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
but make allowance for their doubting too.

neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
neither indirectly nor directly,
neither with actions nor words.

if you can dream, and not make dreams your master,
you might meet Triumphs and Disasters,
but treat them just the same,
don't make allowance for tears and somber.

being hate but don't give way to hating,
being lied about, don't deal in lies,

if you bear to hear the truth spoken by you,
twisted by knaves to make a trap for fool,
if you bear to face the people doubted you,
no worries and be stronger than every previous seconds.



By,
Ky . yan

speechless.

was tired.
facebook'ing from 2pm till now.
was about to sleep. as i really tired and moody.
ya. i was moody AGAIN.


since when my blog became the record for moody n sad stuff?
it made my page look half died.
but this is what i feel.
recently, i just feel that.. well, im speechless.as silent is golden. so why am i here? i suppose to sleep..but it's too early, i know. it's 2051. huuu ~ friendship.. hmmm..


to Raymond,
really sorry for the sight. and others stuff. anyway, no worries. i know what to do, all i need is just time. thanks. thats all.



should learn to be more gentle as i am still a girl. i not i am too rude for a girl. but this is me, why i need to change to match the others? huuu ~ many stuff is self know self thing. :)
i am okay. i am alright.
everything will be fine after a loooong sleep. nights.

gentle'ing,
Ky. yan

sweet dream or beautiful nightmare?

hohohohohoho ~~~~


feel so happy, as the scariest paper gone :DDDD
history..goodbye :D tomorrow was physic paper..hmm, i know i got to spend a lot a lot of times on it..but why still am i blogging right here? maybe is because there's something to record :D

here it is,
today, my idol, wei ling. lols. he reported to pn.yap that Mila and some others people cheat during the history paper. ya, we knew it long long time ago and choose not to tell the truth as we were friend. but...today, when i was awaken by pn.yap's sweet voice..only i knew that wei ling had told teacher.. although many people feel that it's right to do so as it's really not fair to the others, so am i..but still feel a little guilty and sorry to her..aiks.

next,
today..i reveil the truth to JFC -.-
they spoilt my planning la !!! aiyayaya :(
anyway...i just don't know how to hide from u all when the stupid lynn say the name so damn loudly..kns. but...aiks. telling u all is the right or wrong decision? MKY, think wisely before u put something onto the someone. aiks. u knew very clearly that's impossible to happen those things that u and Faye chat about right..so, like what lynn said, think wisely !!!
people, i knew its impossible so... stop dreaming !!!! study..
*he does't affect my study. thanks god.

Ky. yan

speechless.

is this world really such reality?


herher, it's really.. cruel, reality..
u must be stronger than others to survive.
guys, i really don't know what did i did that make things go like this.
it's just like hell.
i felt regret about my changes.
i shouldn't be a straight forward people, shouldn't face people without mask, shouldn't think everyone in this world was kind..etc etc.

honesty is the best policy?
honesty may be the root of trouble.
i really need to talk to someone. but there's no one there.
the only people that volunteer is still the same..-> MKY !

i will be stronger,
i will be okay, soon.

perasan / in-perasan?
KY .yan

updated

hi, blogger.

sorry for abandoning u for such a long time. i really have no time for blog as i need to work and do revision for my final year examination. well, i have sat for the BM,Moral and Modern Math paper. all of it was just okay. the climax is coming soon by next week. History, BI, physic, etc. that's why i took 1 day lift for revision and also for myself to cool down and think properly.

Ky. yan

no moody la !!

guys. i have time for blog today.

sad day? i don't know la.
aiks. actually mood was affected by my locking class. from the previous week, my locking class doesn't teach locking but Michael Jackson's dance as teacher said we need to learn to follow the melody. aiks. i just can't follow the step. i can't remember. aiks aiks aiks.

money or feeling?

am crying in the room.

am thinking what wrong i did.

am feeling wanna slap 9 her.

am feeling wanna snap her qiao photo and upload to facebook.

i just can't story out what had happened. or else i will cry non-stop. well, let everything was my problem. okay?!!!


may i have shoulder? may i have a listener ?

hatred,
Ky. yan

ugly duckling.

people,
i have only 10 mins for me to blog. so here are my summary :D

yesterday, it should be a happy day for me, but things does not go like what it is.
first of all, lets talk about those happy things. went to Jusco for KFC with Lynn. initially was planned to have a hair cut at Dry Cut. but, i just have no courage to cut :( whatever, cut / no cut still sama that idiot face. aiks. wow, while we were discussing what we wanna order, i feel like im from village -.- so many KFC's food i dunno -.- anyway, i was damn full after having that meal. okay, then we walk to PTK for chemistry class. after class, walk to my work place ALONE. :D i cross the road using the zebra crossing :D lols. feel so successful :) fortunately got a 'uncle' walk with me, if not..i think sure i will stand at the road side and cry since i wait for the red light for so long time :( kay, happy things just till here. :(

here comes those suck things.
i just feel like slapping the idiot. walao, feel like vomitting. ya, she was a leng lui. but she's just too..qiao. kns. made herself so cheap.this nevermind as it does not related to me and i am just working. then, it's almost 12:30am. a gang friends of hers came and wanna her to make tea for them, well, i just prepare all those cup and put stuff into it as usual. her f**king butt just block my way to get all those stuff. i swear !! she did it purposely. what can i do? oh ya, something reminds me.before all these happened. i made a winter ground milk tea for my locking teacher. i swear, sure i remember what Y had taught me. 1st she said, winter ground 100% can't put sugar as it's already sweet. the next time, i confirm with her, she say make milk tea wan. okay, then ytday, i make it.then when i put sugar, she asked me.. eh, y u put sugar? this is winter ground. then i story back what she taught me. she just.. aiks. enough. i just can't continue story about what happened ytday. sorry.

wish me luck,
Ky.yan

book :D

i love this book a lot :D
it cost RM36.90,if im not mistaken. it's worth to buy, i know. but i just..hmm, don't know what the hell happen to me :( lols. will buy it soon :) will also share everything i read from it :) i read almost 1/3 of it already.lols. each n everytime i go to Jusco's Popular i will just go to the same place and search for the same book and go to the same corner and read it. lols. enjoy this way of reading too :D haha.

ky. yan

我。无力反抗。也无法反抗。

怎么突然眼睛好像湿湿的呢?
是因为读书的事情还是你说的东西?
都是我想太多。一切，都是我想太多。
也好，至少不会越踩越深。
我不会那么容易就倒的。
可是，有时我真得很想找个人来说说。
可是，我真的不知道该找谁。
自己就是最好的听众吧~
只怕，自己选错了，听了恶魔的话而不是天使的。

天堂。地域。 只是一线之差。
恶魔。天使。 也只是一时之差。
我恨你。我爱你。只是一时之差。


突然很想听梁静茹的《情歌》。

helpless

guys, i have the time to study. i want to study. but i just dunno start with which subject. and whenever i sit on my room ready to study, sure i will confuse on which subject to study 1st and start feeling sleepy. i touched none of my books today. what the dut !!!!

wonderful and memorble moon cake festival ♥

peopleee, here i am. :)


okay, cut my story short. story about yesterday 4 Mulians' moon cake festival celebration 1st :D well, everything goes like what we plan, just Jeff n Yz put our aeroplane. will kill them on Wednesday. haha. okay, we went to the basketball court near Pro.Hing's house as the Tangki's field was damn dark. okay, since when we reach the basketball near Pro. Hing's house there were 2 gangs ppl there. -> 1 gang playing basketball, another children play candles. so we play in another corner. about 10 something the 2 gangs gone. left us. okay..damn happy. play play play. used many times to complete the 4 MULIA word with candles. snap photos and play 'pop'. keep screaming here n there. okay, reach climax was damn high then suddenly we saw a white colour car stop right beside the basketball court, was thinking is it Chee weng's car or whoever car? then a uncle came down.. walk over and said..:"hey, what are u all doing here?who allow u all to play candle here? if u all play here then we will fall when we play basketball..bla bla bla.." everyone of us, stunt for 30seconds. then we keep and clean up. well, everything was over..then when we walk until the other end of the court, the uncle scold again. then our Pro.Kuan scold him back like this :" uncle, you see here la. those kids play one a..u call the police la." then the uncle said.:" what u say? !@#$%^&." then Pro.Kuan scold him back:"!@#$%^" all of us stunt again -.- then when we turn back, saw the over, turn our head back, Pro.uncle was runingKuan running too.HAHAHAHA. the uncle chase Kuan with bare leg -.- i really don't know how to describe the scene -.- just like chasing a thief -.- all of us don't know what to do. run or follow Kuan? after some times, the uncle came back and scold us..like this :" u all, don't run a. i will call the police. write down u all's ic number and name and also address." all of us stunt again -.- then he called the security guard. the guard run over and ask us what happened. then we tell him that we were just playing candles and the uncle say wanna call police. and the guard was stunt too -.- then we follow the guard to the guard house. and Hing call his parents. okay..after we tells the whole story to Hing's mum, then Hing's mum talk to the uncle. after around 10 mins, we apologize to the uncle and promise him to clean the candles and even those that the children played. we used almost 30mins to clean the candles. and the Kuan just enjoying his tea at Chandran -.- and keep calling over and 'blow' us faster -.- what the dut.... but anyway, both of the uncle n Kuan also got wrong la. it's good too, a wonderful n memorable moon cake festival -.- after having tea at Chandran, we went back to Hing's house for games. here are the photos. :D

4 Mulia with lights :D















the boys.

the girls.

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love u all,
Ky. yan