goodbye 2010, hello2011

it's 31 Dec 2010. The last day of 2010.

Let's say goodbye to 2010 and welcome 2011.
May everyone of us have a great year in 2011. All the best, my dears :)


recently, many 2010回顾in tv shows. So, I think gonna have a 2010 Ky's flashback here. hehe :)

Jan.
woww, this was the Jan2010's Ky. Look so young. now, really old jor :(


Feb.
OMG !! satu bulan shj, aku telah jadi macam ini?! Finally I knew why friends always say I macam aunty -.- I admit it now, LOL !
Feb, cny lo. I remember, I lost many money to Faye Kor. HAHAA. we had carlsberg at lynn's house. great time we spent :) and I always use to keep reminding friends and myself to study because SPM is "near". lol. what a joke.
and, I got my new pinky phone - w705 :)


March.
hmm, tak dapat cari picture le. what happened le? Ohya! busy practicing for Choir competition. As we had told that the competition will be held on April. LOL. althought, at last there aren't any competition for us,but i think the time we spent together is great :) As life have no take two.


April.

LOL. memang 欠打punye muka. *like* haha

Since, my blog had never appears this two dears' picture. LOL. Zy and Serene :) A lots of memory about them and it's really undescribable. It's just great :) love u.
May is the month of Frean n Zy's birthday too. and another picture of May that i love most already post on my page. with that 3 silly monkeys :P hehehe.


May.
I had picture of this month ! and it must be upload !! picture of me, lying on the Sentosa Hospital -.- Aku telah kena dengue bulan ni. sudah skip mid term exam. and got last in class. sux
I have the picture of me 吊水-ing. tangan dan the pipe with water pun ada blood. disgusting right? haha. but that time, i had no strength to 反抗。



June.


Seriously, I miss my long hair now. and, all there picture were from facebook cause my memory card had lost ><

Sook Wei, Bsim n Ky :)

Ky and Richard. I love this, because I macam korean in this picture. don't u have the same view as me? I sure you're ! hahaha.

Ky and Jeff :) another undescribable guy in my life ! Lots of memories. xD

Here we go :) All of us.

Since there're many pretty picture took in June. lol. Outing with Te's friends :)


July.
LOL. I had such a picture for July. hahaha. -.-
Broga Hill. Family trip. Sudah ada picture at my post of the day.

August.

HAHAHAH. At Green Apple with Issac :) The first time he fetch me out. (i think so.)

Jump !! Fly !!

Memorable day. First time shout Merdeka so seriously on stage! lol ! no more 遗憾。haha
I love Malaysia:) haha

Sept.
no picture for Sept. because, it's trial month. it's a very tiring month for me. ya, I still remember how i study that time. It's crazy !


Oct.
Same, no pictures -.-
Half month gave to trial i think. And what I am thinking in these few months was SPM n books only.. lol


Nov.
My birthday !Sweet 17 :)

Dec.
pictures still in friends' phone. anyway, its a great month :)



so many pictures in my phone. but cant connect it with usb cable. ishh...
nevermind, LOL !

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

心声啊 ♥ 哈哈

越长大，越难和另一个人在一起。

不是因为条件。还是有人喜欢你，你也活得比以前更好，不再那么任性，更像在投资的艺术品。

也不是因为对爱情死心。在KTV突然听到的某首歌，会让你不自禁模糊了视线。一些场景，一些气息，始终无法忘怀。朋友帮你介绍时，你也会满心期待。

却依然单身。闭上眼睛吹蜡烛的时候，总是希望身边有另一个人一起许愿。一些客气的场合，有人来搭讪，话题围绕着你单身的原因。而他们最后给出的结论是，你太挑了。你在心里面笑，所以其他人都不挑？

其实你自己知道，为什么不能好好谈一场恋爱。就是因为，你太清楚自己是怎样的一块料，所以不会再轻而易举把自己交出去。就像是，有一天你发现跌倒以后的伤口，会开始留下疤痕，于是走路时不敢再大步跨出去。

因为，你惯性太强、记性太好。认识一个人很简单，忘记一个人很困难。你曾经心满意足的闭上眼睛，让另一个人带你去任何地方，最后却差点回不来。所以不能再失去方向感。

于是你就变得胆小了。以前喜欢男生有幽默感，现在更在乎安全感。以前打电话找不到人就拼命的打，现在发了短信没回应，即使心中有波动也可以忍住。以前最有兴趣的话题是对方的过去，现在会先关心这份感情有没有未来。

所以，空暇的时候，你宁愿和朋友在烈日下逛街，也不愿让对方觉得自己很在乎什么。你安慰自己，有朋友就够了，一个人生活也很好。你忘记了当另一个人女朋友的感觉，当那个人出现时，你开始慌张、害怕。

只 是，你并不是一定要单身，就像你也没计划过一定用哪只手写字。不过是，既然如此了那就这样吧。你想要有人一起旅行，一起看电影。你想和那个人说自己准备好 了，只是没有勇气，请对方多一点耐心。你想说不再需要太多惊喜，在心里等的是一份相守以望的感情，抬起头来相视而笑，安心的生活，如此而已。

When i go through this note in Facebook, I were like... OMG ! Why this people knew exactly how I think and feel? Even myself, can't write out my feeling so! GREAT ♥ Really awesome !!

失望? 不！

“人最大的失望是對自己的失望。無論我對別人多麼失望，也比不上我對自己的失望。我可以撇下那個一再讓我失望的人，卻永遠無法撇掉自己。失望是人對自己最深沉的嘆息。為什麼我從來沒有我以為的那麼好？為什麼我做不到自己的期望？當我如此真實地面對自己，我不得不承認，我再也沒有資格對別人失望”

在我很欣赏的作家- 张小娴的Facebook看到了这段话。真的非常的认同。人，最大的失望莫过于对自己失望。一直很努力在做好，一直很努力很努力，真的希望，我的努力不是白费的。我也知道，为了达成我要的成果，我已经忽略了一些重要的东西。毕竟，有得必有失。人，总不能太贪心。所以，在我正努力追求着我的梦想时，我选择了暂时的放弃它。对或错，我真的不知道。放弃了，我不遗憾，也希望，没有令我后悔的一天。


“你要求太高了，这样会很辛苦的。”
曾经，有一位非常好的朋友很认真的看着我，跟我说这几个字。可是对我而言，要求不高，我是不会全力以赴做到最好的。no matter in the sense of what. 当然，效果没有自己想象的那么好时，失望了，伤心了，还是得接受，再努力过。只是，唯一担心的，机会不再，时光已流。我相信，只要我不放弃，成功一定离我不远的。我坚信着这个信念。

人生，总会遇到许多分岔路。现在的我，就站在这且平静又恐怖的分岔路。眼前，似乎微微闪烁着灯光，可是，当我鼓起勇气，踏出第一步时，那光莫名其妙的，灭了。不要紧，我相信，一定会有那里一天有一位贵人会帮我的 :) 你，也会帮我吧? :) 加油！

lethargic

Its a very tiring day..


don't know why, maybe because lack of sleep?
today went for the first gathering of the 7Monkeys after SPM2010 :)

Whenever we talk about what course to take, I felt like I am helpless. Who's there to give me some advises? I have so much question marks in my mind. IB / CE ? it's two very different path.


Sigh. I am really tired of my current life actually. except cookies, it's drama. Help ! My phone was like turned into a hotline for someone. Whole day long, I only receives calls n messages from someone. annoyed. Ishh.


Headache. I am really tired. good night.
Weird, I miss u today :)

Ky

喜欢一个人就去争取 :)

喜欢一个人就去争取

不管最后怎么样

你怕什么?

怕尴尬?

怕对方不同意你?

那你不说你就不会后悔吗?

自己一个人再想我到底说不说呢?

我原来就是这样

但我现在不会了

喜欢就去说！

当然是抱着失败的可能性去说的

但不管怎么说

我对得起自己

我不会有任何遗憾

对方也知道我的想法了

能不能在一起就看缘分了

但我要做的我做了

喜欢一个人就去珍惜

我写完那篇文章以后

看到了有很多人也刚分手

也挺难过的、也想着对方

那都在想着

为什么不主动跟他说呢?

要等他来跟你说

假如两个人都抱着这样的想法

最后分手了值吗?

面子就这样重要吗?

人有时候要知道要面子

有时候真的不用

这时候面子算个屁啊！

喜欢一个人就要学会相信

我个人觉得相信对方很重要

真的很重要！

不要老想对方会做什么事

其实对方什么也没做

好多事都是自己胡思乱想的

最后还因为这样的胡思乱想而吵架

我觉得这样真的很不值

有什么问题就问

但相信对方很重要

你既然跟他在一起了

为什么不学会相信他呢?

喜欢一个人要学会等待

如果你真的很喜欢一个人

即使他不喜欢你

如果你下定决心了就要学会等待

不用说太多话

说太多反而会烦

自己用事实来证明

喜欢一个人要学会宽容

也不要太在意别人的看法

别人可能觉得你们不合适

合不合适你最清楚

反正是你们过生活

管那么多干嘛啊?

两人在一起开心就他么够了

最后喜欢一个人要学会付出

你付出虽然不一定会得到相同的回报

但她一定能感受的到

只有你付出了

你才有资格让别人也付出

不是么?

喜欢一个人当然要学会努力

不可能你什么都不做

人家会主动找你的

除非他喜欢你

你要义无反顾的努力

不要想结果怎么样

最起码你努力了

最起码能对得起自己

喜欢一个就去追

想要珍惜要快去珍惜

希望每个情侣都开开心心的

is this correct? LOL.

Copy from a note I saw in Facebook :)

Eve, Xmas , Boxing day :)

many things to talk about actually.

hmmm, what first?

...

Christmas "countdown" 2010 first ba ;)
LOL. It's a very crazy Christmas eve I had. I spent my times with Frean, Jeff and also Issac :) It's always the best time ! We had Korean food there, it's okay actually. but someone break their name. HAHAHA. Pictures ... waiting for Issac to upload :) *faster ya ;) *


Christmas day of 2010.
I spent whole day for cookies. From noon to 9 only we finished everything. Although we dated to go to Pavillion for photo section at night, but the rain had delay out cookies process :( The family-christmas-day-plan had gone. but then, aunt came and bring me and mum to The Curve for tea :) hehe. We went to Chocolate Launch. OMG ! The chocolate was awesomeee !! :) I had fall in love with it. I will be back ! :D


Boxing day :)
No boxes here. No Christmas present for me :( But the joys is the greatest present for me, actually. HEHEHE.
But then, what really annoying is that someone keep texting over, and asking some freaking lame and make-me-bekcek's question. Please, don't ask those brainless + impossible question okayy? ishh! Ya, what Kun said was right. Yup, maybe what someone said was correct. I had changed. indeed, I had learned how to treat guy like you. I am not that soft hearted to you anymore. This is what you taught me, thanks. Just don't ask me Why. It just simply because u taught me these ! and now, get lost ! I love my current life. I have my dream to chase of.

Love,
Ky.

Dears, really sorry.

为什么每次都是这样? 那么的容易就掉眼泪。不是伤心，只是激动一些些，眼泪就一直一直流。



Issac, Frean and Jeff, really sorry... I really wish to celebrate with u all... But sorry, I can't T.T


我不会忘记今天的每一样事情。我会永远记得。谢谢你。
希望，你也记得我跟你说的东西。

无话可说。

entitle

I had wrote a long post actually, but... before i title it. I had deleted it. Aiks, after typing everything out, I felt better :) Gonna rest, bye !

child abuse.

child abuse?


seriously, no matter in the state of what, children is always the innocent one.
as a parents, child abuse is really a can-not-do-action! no matter how the child act and how old they are.
but, yesterday mum receive a call from my aunt, telling us that.. one of my cousin sister (who we seldom contact) had looked up in a police station and her 8-years-old boy was in comma and currently at hospital. how cruel is thing incident? I can't really believe that this thing really happened around me. Seriously, I just saw the little boy once when he's still a very young boy (many years ago) and also my cousin sister...I can't remember her face. but the impression of the boy in mind never change since I meet him the very first and last time. I always use to describe him with words like, a child who is different with others, a very unhappy child. and what mum told me was, because he have no parental loves. as his dad had dumped my cousin sis and him since he were almost 1 year old. Aiks. Why?! said wanna give them a better life by going to others country to work, but?! Had a new family there! wtf.

And now, he was in comma, staying in ICU for almost a week already. dad disallow us to visit him as my uncle doesn't wish to let so many people know about it. But my aunt did went to visit the poor little boy, all bruises all around his body, 3 fingers had cut because the cells there had died, the most ridiculous was... some of his skull had scattered. Even if he awake, he will be a little abnormal. :( Why? Just a 8-year-old child. Why he deserve such a cruel lifestyle? How pain he was, and no one knows. I really felt guilty for not contacting them for so many years although i know, my cousin sister always don't let us to know where she is, what are she doing, even when we're around her house, she don't allow us to visit there. Aiks !! I think, my cousin sister must be have mental problem as no one shows care to her, even her parents ! dammit! May god bless them :(

P/s : If u're not prepared to take care of another new life, please, don't give a life to them ! Irresponsible ! You had spoiled one's life! You're the murder of his life ! Brainless.

爱我，你怕了吗? O_O??

有听过这首个吗? 之前，听过..就觉得这首个很有意思下。
昨天，他跟我说，每次听到这首歌都会想到我..有点吓到啦..
他说，很像我跟他说的东西...
“爱我你怕了吗?眼泪你忘了吗?...”
然后又说，“敢爱敢恨敢失去” 很像我~
唉，完全就不是嘛~
似乎，有点伤到他太深了:(
我也没说很直接啊~ 怎么办...? 糟糕。该怎么办啊?~~
对不起。~.~

Edu Fair

hu~ exhausted.

today went to edu fair.. asked many things. initially was interested in business management, but then after listening to the professor and discussing with parents, I think international business is better. hmm, but if INTI, the fees is quite expensive la. if i could get a scholarship then I will ha tve the chance to study there. but if not, then I will be a UTAR student :) but, need to go to Perak campus. Although parents doesn't wish me to go there, especially dad, but I wish to try to be independent :) LOL ! International Business need to study account. hmm, will it be difficult for me as I dont have account base.. aiks. gonna check with teacher tomorrow.

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Yayy :)
Just now drive again. but today isn't as good as the first time.
because, today I drive manual. OMG ! It's really tough
kaki pun dah cramp. -.-
A little bit scare jor~ erghh...
Just now, when we change back the seat...scared by my brother..
really, hati pun dah nak keluar.. aiyo..
why can't I be a little bit more brave?!
little bit thing then scared -.-
anyway, i prefer auto ~~ HAHAHA.

玛丽外宿中。

《玛丽外宿中》第10集，看完了。

看完了，心情真的很不好呐。
不是因为个人因素啦，只是...戏中，男主角和女主角的感情好像有问题了。很怕有什么事情发生。
为什么就不给机会，心平气和的谈一下呢?

之前，明明就是都喜欢对方的。都不说。
男生啊，喜欢就一定要说，不要有遗憾。虽然说时代不一样了，不分男女，可是...在某些事情，还是跟传统比较好~ 呵呵。
好不容易男主角知道了，跟她说了，真的很sweet叻~
现在又有问题。
为什么不谈一下啊?
明明就是能解决的小问题。
呼，心情超烂的。
希望，有一个好的结局吧~

我落泪 情绪零碎

最近在追韩剧。《玛丽外宿中》不错看。
有帅哥，可爱的女孩。

不知道为什么啊，这两天都非常的emo。
怎么办?我不想。
心事谁人知? 又能跟谁说呢?
变得越来越不爱跟朋友说心事了。

人，是群体动物。
可是，前阵子的我。
我越来越倾向单独了。
喜欢一个人。什么都一个人。


不安于现状了。
感觉上，路人都是一大群的。不然，就双双对对的。
我呢?
....
......
无言。


我渴望爱情，但我不稀罕爱情。
话，是怎么说吗?
至于你，真的很抱歉。
啊!!!! 超不耐烦的!
为什么啊? 每次都这样。
坏人，我不想当了。
婉转的话，不想说了。
难道，就不能有个让我能说...“嗯” 的人吗?
“对不起...我不想:) ” 我不想再说了。



我不落泪，忍住感觉.... T.T
这感觉叫...思念 吗?我忘了。

无奈。

变。
我真的对这个字感到很恐惧。
它，只有简单的笔画；却比想象中复杂 （copy 爱不单行's lyrics,LOL）

人会变，月会圆。
变得好与坏，就在于我们如何看待一件事情。可是，对我而言，她变了。变成一个很陌生的人，变得一个我非常非常不认同的人。 就是这样，我们之间...也时常起争执。无可否认，因为她，也有许多不愉快的事情发生。不止一次，两次。 劝也劝了，骂也骂了。甚至在你面前说到崩溃，眼泪不停的流，你还是不改? 你知道你自己真的错了吗? 心，真的很痛。为什么是她? 为什么不是别人? 我真的对她很失望。


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是不是越不想，越忌的事情，就越会发生在身上? 真的很奇怪耶~
最近，有种莫名的感觉。真的很奇怪。明明自己之前，都口口声声说过，不可能的。
为什么最近....? 哎哟。都快疯掉了。
奇怪。
真的吗? O_O ??

有灵魂的我? LOL

最近，快考spm啦...还剩下，完完全全没把握的 - 华语。

家人甚至朋友们，都不断的在唠叨我。“还不去读华语啊你...”“很得空是不是？很有信心了哦？厉害了咯？”哈哈。我的性格嘛～当然是顶回他们的咯...hehe.可是，心里却真的很欣慰下的...也很害怕这一科。我真的有读，可是...语文科跟别的科目不一样，不能在几天内就能upgrade...我也不知道要读些什么。作文？有啊，每天都拿着文杰借我的书来读，名句?也有，读那些可爱可爱的咯~ 至于文言文嘛~ 还是一样，他懂我，我不懂她。唉... 现在不是时候埋怨自己没脑去拿这科了，唯有...花完我这几天的精力在这科所谓有灵魂的科目。"The result doesn't matter, what really matter was your efford." right? hehe.. I will always remember what YOU had told me :) 加油！拼了!!

D R I V E

OMGGGG !!

I drive, I drive, I DRIVE !!!
yay yayy :))

Bye SPM Bye Bio

yay yay yayyyyyyyyy !! Arghhhhhhhhh ~~ HAHAHAHA.

HUuuuuuuuuuu :D I will not forget the feeling of today ...

解放的感觉。越来就是如此!
期待了整整一年的一天，终于来了。感觉，的确跟想象中不一样。感觉格外的轻松，自在，自由!真的，做完了那无聊的paper3 后，还有半个小时。可是，感觉却真的兴奋。无可否认，之前，我真的没有花心思在这科一直都很懊恼的科目-bio。 昨天的我，真的疯了。把自己关在房里一整天，就是在 face book. 今天，又把我最好的表现出来吗?有! hehehe. 我已经尽力了吗?不敢说啦， 毕竟form4 都玩玩下的。只是，本小姐已经仁至义尽 XD HAHAHA. 超兴奋，不知要怎么形容。 可是，就是要把这个一生一次的解放感发泄在这里 ....

泪了。

不知道为什么，我真的很想大哭一场。
可是，眼泪却很不听话。
想要哭时，就是偏偏不出来见人。不想时，往往就不请自来。
到底发生了什么事?
我只想说，我真的很不开心。

心事谁人知? 我也不知呐。
心很烦。烦什么? BIO? 不至于吧?
就是很moody。
昨天，也是。
可是因为我的表妹在，那调皮到难以形容的猴子，总是能令到我笑。
小孩就是那么的天真无邪。
开心不开心都写在脸上。
只要不开心，哭了，所有人都会想办法迁就，帮她。
可是，长大了呢? 很多事情，因为明白了，想多了，顾虑多了。
也不再什么都摆在脸上了，让别人担忧。
谁来帮我呢?唯有自己。
一个人听歌，一个人流泪，一个人看戏，一个人...
有时真的想跟姐说下心事，可是，为什么我们都抽不到时间呢?
是不愿意，还是时间不允许呢?
....
.......
为什么，说到家人，眼泪还是会流?
朋友说，不是姐不在乎，是我太在意。
是吗? ...
以前的我们，不是这样的。
看过一篇文章；
一个人，单身久了，就会越来越注重亲情。
是吗? ...
我只知道，世上没有任何一样东西..
比我家人重要。
比我父母重要。
时间快点的过，我真的很想赶快达成我的心愿。
看见他们...
一天比一天的老，
每天说这里痛哪里不舒服，
我真的很怕。我觉得我很没用。
我很怕，很怕等我有能力时，他们却...T.T

Jay ♥♥♥♥

wowww, finished 1 week SPM examination. Hope everything is fine and hit my target :)
so do all my friends :) Good luck, people. Love.

know what? Today whole afternoon was upset n moody because of my dear :( Daniel tagged me in Nicholas's picture. It was my dear's concert ticket. I was so desperate for it since year 2008 after the concert. HAHA. but then, due to some finance problem(driving license), gonna satisfy my dear. T.T few hours before, sis saw my status on Facebook and commented. LOL !! I was like..OMG !! r u sure?! " it's RM330 le, jie ! " "it's okay la, just accompany me go lo~ " wowww !! love u so much. HAHA.

Ky

变? 害怕。T.T

21/11/2010, 2112. Sunday. Single day more.

Look through back what I had wrote about for these few weeks was all about SPM. This torturing, frustrating stuff. Yet, today.. It's a day more to go. I have the passion to blog still. I don't know what made me feel so free although Im really not ready well yet with my subject especially Biology and History. Gratefully, I have finished reading History few days before, but when I open up the exercise and start doing it.. SUCK ! I read it, but why?! aiks. I think, the day before History paper, must be a very suffer day for me. Every time when I was thinking about the examination weeks, it make me feel so excited, especially the 2nd week of examination. It feel like, everything is over once you reopen your eye again. yet, Im worrying that, everything is gone when I reopen my eye. Because, I know, I doesn't put as much effort as I did in the trial paper. I don't know why, I do know the importance of SPM. and I really wanna get a good result, get scholarship, finish my tertiary study and realize my plan ! Dad and Mum, wait for me :) Love you.

人生...
最大罪恶是【不孝】
最大破残是【绝望】
最大礼物是【宽恕】

这，就是我唯一想对'你们'说的东西。不要做会令你遗憾终生的事情！

Last day of Form 5

Today was a tiring and upset day for me actually.
Im a former SMK Taman Ehsan student officially after this noon. :)

Finally got our 5Mulian'10 's class T-shirt. hmm, it's acceptable. We ss after got out examination slip from teacher. it's kinda great actually. Yet, disappointed once again. Trying hard to thinking in a positive way, but the truth was so obviously in front of me. I could not run away from it. Anyway, 5 Mulians ! All the best in SPM , jom perang sampai the end of the examination !! :) 5 years we spent together in this school. Time just past too quickly, everything is still fresh in my mind. Even the first day we went to this new school, what pn.neo had told us. (pakai tali leher sepanjang hari, baru smart and macam pelajar kelas A) LOL ! what a joke.

Form 1, Form 2, Form 3, Form 4, Form 5.
Form 3 was the craziest school life I ever had. The way we study in class, how we act, it was totally crazy ! LOL.
Form 4, it was really a honey moon year for me :) We just spent our time together with laughter. And the day we celebrate mid-Autumn festival !
Form 5, a year full of pressure? nola, i think. just this few months nia. hehe.

people ! U had coloured my secondary school life ! May we enter a wonderful path that brings all the besty to us ! Love.

Relaxation xD

15/11/2010 ____ 7days left.

current study status : Haven't finish learning n memorizing. U know learning? not revising but learning new terms, new stuff ! damn -.-

13/11/2010

It was like a farewell day at Super. I believe most of the people do have a swollen eye like I do on the next morning. LOL. Watched the movie that I really anti to watch in front of the others -- 母亲节快乐。 I watched it 4 times including that day at Super. Before the movie start, HuiDeng told me that it was the movie she lend to me few years ago. I feel like going home when I know it. Because, I knew I will end up crying and do not wish to cry in front of 100+ person. LOL. Without any exception, I cried like I did for the past few time I watched it. The first time I watch was at Standard 3/4, borrow from HuiDeng :) LOL ! emm, it's a not-bad-movie and really could make me love and care my parents more. Feel so sorry to Ms.Ting and Mr.Lee T.T When the slide show of them was played on the screen, tears drop again :'( And I found that, it's really hard to say sorry to a person from the heart. but I did xD BRAVO ! *claps*

As a relax method, I blogged. xD It's time to torture my mind again.
And DUDES, jom go for Rapunzel after the exam ! Dad and mum used to read this story to me every night before sleep when I was a little girl ! and now, Im 17 ! HAHA XD Love u, dad n mum !

By
Ky. Yan

10 days.

erhemm. It was 0225, 12/11/2010. 10 more days to go for the life-decision-examination - SPM.

progressing subject was still bio, sej and also add math.
aiks, seriously, was not revising Biology but learning it ! dutt.
I just wish to have an A- it's enough. please, I already lost an A(BC)..

yesterday survey some further study programmes and courses. Checked scholarships requirement. Aiks. Zam shang n Gah yao ba, Ky ____ :(

All the best, dudes. Love.
反省当中... ////// ....... 30%

Ky.yan

Sweet 17 ________♥

yea, Im here to update my 17th Bday celebration's memories :)
once again a~ thanks my dad and mum, family and friends !! Love you guys ♥
seriously, this year was the most wonderful birthday I ever had for 17years. LOL. it's the first time and of course I hope that it's not the last time la! HAHA



31 oct 2010, celebrated with my family. always the sweetest and most wonderful ♥

2nd Nov 2010, what a surprise ! HAHA. actually, Im really sense-less. so many tips, yet I don't know. HAHA. Mummy is really suck in lying. lol. another cake I had for 17th Bday. HAHA. celebrated with my chemistry's classmate, family and lynn. hehe. Thanks !

3rd Nov 2010, the special one ! celebrated with those monkeys at Green Apple. dudes, I think, I really understand what's u all thinking and wanna do. haha. too close d ba? HAHA. sakais~ Each and every time we gather together. It just give me a special feeling. undescribable feeling. but I love it very much ♥♥♥ Thanks for the presents，wristband, little cucu and the cake :) !

*why can't upload pictures?* next time ba :(

gah yaw!

0319, I was alone on the net. initially was thinking to online to search for some companion. but, no green light in my msn list. swt. aiya, Ky!! work harder and harder and harder! I know you can do better than now, work harder than now (as now really lazy) that's ur future.. 2 weeks left nia~ 顶硬上吧! HAHAHA ~~

APPRECIATE .

it's 0135, good morning !

update stories about my birthday awesome's celebrate next time after I got all the pictures from sis and joe. hehe. really thanks my family and friends ! 我是幸福的 ♥ 我爱你们!! hehe *psps*

Just now went out for another "celebration" again. LOL! macam very old d, so many celebration. HAHA. okayy, actually what made me to blog was my guilty feeling. Yesterday, when we're celebrating my 17th Birthday at Green Apple, a couple about their 40s came over our table for donation. something about the auntie was suffering from arteriosclerosis bla bla bla. Initially, I did thought that they're fake or whatever. but then, when I saw them was halau by the boss and the auntie's actions..I believed it. I know, what Frean said was reasonable, but what if they're the true one? not everyone,especially man, could doesn't care about they face, self-esteem and wanted money from others. it's shameful. but he did. I believe they're really helpless. aiks. T.T WHY I DO NOT DONATE EVEN RM1? It seems nothing to us maybe, but it means a lot to people who need it. I understand it ! T.T

Furthermore, just now went to bungkus supper with my brother. Saw another auntie and uncle. why they still need to work so hard in their old age? that time i went to buy supper was 12.ooam ++, where's their children? aiks.

Appreciate.
Ky.yan

Sweet 17 ♥

5hours and 30 minutes later, I will be 17 years old:)
LOL ! gonna think and act like a big girl.

first and foremost, I need to thanks my parents for bringing me to this wonderful world ♥
and thanks god for giving me such a wonderful and lovely family ! I will do my very best in Exam and will not disappoint you all :)

confused.

It's 0246 now.. 29days more to go.
just finished my add math brief revision. gonna do more practice to achieve my goal. Initially, like what I said in the previous post, I do felt satisfy for my trial's result. But, when I look into my "definite goal" list today, many subjects do not achieve the gred I aimed. moral, bm, bi, chem, etc. Just now, was busy doing survey for further study's stuff. still blur and no idea about which college/ U to choose. and I do have few courses which Im interested in. Really worry that I choose an unsuitable course / path. few months more, I will be really step into the society. Excited and also scare.

After SPM, I want to do many things~~ LOL ! faster over ba, SPM!!!
DRIVING LICENSE. saving saving saving $$$.

By,
Ky :)

1 month

ahhh~~ Its 22 Oct 2010. 30 days more.

Seriously, I gonna study much more harder. *wish I could*
Trial result was not bad for me actually. counted as satisfy :)
Worrying, what if my real result isn't this good? How am I going to face questions without TIPS? aiks.
work harder + harder + hardest! dudes, let's study !! HAHAHA.

results.
BM - 71
BI - 71 *embarrassed*
BC - 56
MM - 96
Sej - 84
PM- 89
Chem - 76
Bio - 68
Phy - 85
AM - 77

aiks, bc n bio~~ is killing me~~~~~~

原来还有《他》

昨天的我，因为你而浪费了我宝贵的睡眠时间。再一次以泪洗脸。
原因?我也不知道。突然想到盈的部落也有一个文章--《what I care about you, others care about me》。的确，也适合昨天的情况吧? 刚刚才知道，原来昨天在我失意时，他也因为我而失意。而你呢? 我不会再浪费我的时间在你身上。不是因为读书没时间，而是你没有占据我读书时间的资格!

今天，令到你放下我的原因，也会是令到你感到放下我很后悔的原素 !

results.

1258, I should not be staying at home blogging right now. I should be in school studying with 5Mulians. What's the factor for my absence? today will be giving out BC paper, and this is one of the reason I run away from schooling. Aiks!
Yesterday, got to know my Bio n BC mark for this trial. okayy, as what expected..It's really suck. got a B for Bio and a C for my BC. I do not blame for taking BC as I did as usual when I got to know my result was this suck, is just I feel that..why others can but not me? They used to write, read and talk in Chinese, I do too. The only different is, they put more effort in this subject than I do.

Actually, days before getting Bio n BC result was good. Results that I got is quite satisfied. Is just Chemistry, the subject I used to be confident on. the subject that I aimed A+. but i got only an A- for it. Really gonna work more and more harder to achieve my goals. but the problems is, after trial, I do not study for any subject. Even I do want to, but there're always stacks of rotten reason to put my footstep away from my desk. 借口是迈向成功的最大敌人...

Im still a scorpio!

what you waiting for actually?
what u want as a return in the future for today's hard work?
does these questions ever appear on your mind?

today, my mind came across with these questions.
ya, what I want? what is the main purpose for my hard work? which day is the one Im waiting for? and now, I can surely say that, the day Im waiting for is the day I could shut you all's mouth with my achievement!

thanks god !

firstly, I should thanks God for saving our life(s) today! If not, I have no chance to write out this article.
since I promised Issac to treat him, we went to DPC and then went for tea after that..Once Im in the car, he told me that he drive into a hole and now the whenever he turn the steering, have a very loud sound.. kay, checked, but nothing different.. on the way for tea, a car horn us and told us that there's something wrong with the wheel.. that scene is really scary..quickly stop at a side and check. whole wheel is totally bended. I know, it's really dangerous as bro told me before that the wheel kena hole is not a small matter.. drive slowly to aman puri and check, it's really getting worse and ask a foreman to check, said that the absorber mul xxxxx broke, bla bla bla.. Aiks, anyway, really thanks god. the feeling in the car is really difficult to describe!

to whoever that drive, especially u,Issac!
always bear in mind that, safety first. Be patient, don't rush!
I really heard of many accidents recently, even some of our senior had passed away because of accident. Even don't u love urself, please think about ur family, ur parents. how hard they brought us up, but just because an accident, it take our life.

safety first!
drive moderately, don't wind down the window too low, lock the door!
so many cases happened nowadays, we should alwsay be aware! I tell u because I care bout u, please, listen okay? don't always use "belum biasa" as a reason! *issac liu*

worry,
Ky

Im speechless

reason reason reason!!!!


give urself a good reason for this idiot-ness, bullshit-ness!! MKY!!
what the hell is happening to u?! It's chemistry paper! Chemistry, the one u used to handle well among the 10 subjects. but why?!! even tips is given! 40marks!

MISTAKES

T.T


what's really happening to me? My English paper is suck, and I know the result will be terrible. I faced problems in choosing the title, writing the intro, writing the content smoothly, and writing my writing in a proper manner. OMG! and as I proceed, as I thinking further into what the title talk about and what I've wrote, more mistakes I've made. Even the title, I didn't read it clearly. I hope what I did for saving my essay really works. Or, even doesn't. It will be the the greatest lesson for me. After yesterday's paper, I was filled-full with confident. And I have a strong determine to score good result in this trial. At least a good result in trial could be a bonus. I don't know why am I so nervous in this examination. probably it's because of I want to get a very good result? and yet, I did mistakes due to the excessive nervous and anxious. Like what Sac said, let english past and be ready for other's paper. ya, this is what I used to say to myself for all those exams and tests I sat for, but for this, I just don't know why I can't.
I don't want to lose.
I don't want to make u'll disappointed.
I don't want to burden u'll.
I don't want look-downed by them.
I don't want to cry over the split milk.
or maybe I should say,
I want to win, want to make u'll proud of me, want to reduce the burden of u'll, shut their mouth off, feel worth-ful?

Ky

*sorry*

原来这种感觉叫做罪恶感。
真的很对不起，非常的抱歉。
我很后悔。因为"贪方便"，所以...
唉，真的非常抱歉。

我终于明白为什么她们会这样了，可是，我真的过不到自己。
guilty is killing me.

dudes, have a good luck in ur trials :)
strike it !! LOL!

sixth sense? LOL!

星座研究每次都说，天蝎座的人直觉很准，很强。我一直都不觉得，反而觉得超烂。至于到什么地步，自己知道就好。可是，最近又好像很准下~LOL! 原来，真的。天蝎座的直觉真的很强至于准不准，在这件事情，我当然希望不准。唉，可是事实好象已经摆在眼前了叻..那过程我也好像很熟悉了。看了，听了，知道了，就心痛，伤心，流泪，流泪到累了，就睡。睡醒，自然就没事。只是，眼睛会肿一些。想回，我也令到人家这样伤心过。因果?LOL!

读书读书!前途的都在你手中!不要理他了!错了不要紧，最重要是让他过去。

Great day ♥

watched Step Up 3 with Yz, Jeff and Faye :)
woww.. they're awesome ! obviously, I miss it ! LOCKING T.T
I hope never too late..LOL !

and know whats the most ridiculous?
my 2 years slipper spoilt T.T ter-stepped by Yz and terpatah -.-
what a weak slipper. LOL! but, new one will never come if the old one always there..HAHA

Horoscope

看到题目- 和12星座谈恋爱前注意的事情-时马上毫不犹豫的按了进去。看了后，抱着电脑哭得死去活来。可能，死心是最好的解脱。:)

【白羊座】白羊座人对感情直率而真诚，眼睛里容不得 半点沙子。跟白羊座交往，你仿佛遇上了小风暴，时时要准备遭遇惊险的画面；跟白羊座交往，你仿佛是他永远的囚徒，永远要记住"坦白从宽，抗拒从严"，要是 你让他知道你心里有一丝一毫"坦白从宽牢底坐穿，抗拒从严回家过年"的想法，哼哼，那就有你的好果子吃了！

跟白羊座恋爱，当他告诉你他喜欢 你，那么他就是真心实意的喜欢你。但是喜欢你和他的原则相比，当然，他的原则更重要！切记！不要对白羊座隐瞒什么，如果他真的关注你，他会无声无息的掌握 你所有的背景资料。至于你说的是真是假嘛，他早就一清二楚了。如果你的隐瞒跟他的原则相抵触，白羊人，尤其是白羊女人会表现出最狠的心肠，他可以跟你分手 的时候，掰开你紧紧握住他的双手。不过在你不知道的角落，他一个人独处的时候，却是一个人坐在空房间饮泣到天亮的。

一旦他们认定你，白羊男 人能系起围裙，为你做喷香的排骨汤，白羊女人则是相夫教子，出得厅堂，入得厨房，对你一定温柔如水，那些绝不可退让的铁面就一致对外了。

不 过，你过得了他们的原则关吗？

【金牛座】看起来是在帮别人挑选对象，其实自己比别人还入戏，细细体会，他 用的对象衡量标准都是他自己的，所以，给别人挑的时候，呵呵，也是时时在为自己找对象。那么为什么不说破呢？人家不好意思嘛！

金牛座的体贴 和温存都是有着强烈的目标性的，他会暗示暗示再暗示，实在不行，再明示，他总想给你一个惊喜，给你一个浪漫的surprise!可是，要是你不吃惊喜这 套，连连让他受打击，让他觉得你又不听话，又没有能力，沾花惹草，赚不来钱，那么，他就会狠心的放你的鸽子喽！

刚开始是回短信的字数越来越 少，到后来，就不回你短信。当你问他，他也会把他的状态告诉你。金牛座是不能冷的。冷了几天以后，他就会灰心转移自己的目标到别人身上了。

【双 子座】双子座聪明伶俐，重视人的外貌、仪态和气质。看起来他们是轻浮的，但是实际上他们最会挑选爱情的对象，被他们挑上的肯定是多方面的能手。不过嘛，他 们太喜欢挑了，有的时候会挑花了眼，甚至失去了重点。

他们的爱情因为跟外在的很多事情有关，所以，有的时候他们往往忽略了异性一些最基本的 美德。跟他们在一起，你会有一辈子做情人的感觉。

但是，你喜欢谈恋爱谈一辈子嘛？

【巨蟹 座】巨蟹座温柔体贴，心思细腻。他们有的时候也很淘气，任性起来，像一个小孩子。他们有时候能给你气得半死，以为你失去他们了，有的时候，又很窝心，让你 觉得他们是世界上最体贴，最会站在别人角度为别人照想的人。

他们有一个原则是永远碰不得的，那就是你要对他们不离不弃，要对他们好。

他 们很多人都渴望有一个温暖的家，虽然有的时候他们运营的有些机械化，但是，那肯定是他们没有意识到，明确地告诉他们，他们会改好的。千万别伤他们的心，你 可以犯错误，但是不可以伤害他们。当他们发现他们只是你的一个暂时存货，他们会毫不犹豫地离开你。

他们会不见你，可能很有耐心的在电话里跟 你讲道理，但是，当他们已经决定了分手这样的结局，如果不是用持续的温情来感化，他们会把这件事情放在最隐秘的地方，甚至终声闭口不提。巨蟹座在爱情上是 非常倔强的。

别伤害他们，你做得到吗？

【狮子座】狮子座会觉得你是他的。他们的感情很直接很确定，你是他 的，就已经定下来了。他们绝对是热情的海洋，舍得给你花钱，当然，也舍得花心思给你设重重考验。狮子座的人为了爱情，可以变成一个侦探。他要把握住你的所 有状态和参数，要对你的行踪牢牢掌控在手，如果发现你欺骗他，请注意！不是背叛，不是劈腿，是欺骗！只要是谎言，就会让他对你的感情产生变化。至于他们自 己的私生活。这个，不归你管！你什么时候听过王者只有一个配偶的，对不对？

不过说实在的，跟狮子座谈恋爱，真的是一种享受。男人俊俏女人漂 亮，有些自恋，也会让周围的人觉得理所当然。跟狮子座恋爱，就仿佛在吃冰淇淋，一口一口甜在心里，温柔如丝般顺滑。而且狮子座的人算是最好哄的一个星座 了，只要你跟他们说，他们如何美丽，你如何需要他们，并且来一点点的强硬，一点点哦！他们就会被你溶化得晕头转向。

不过，万人迷的狮子座， 你要保护一辈子，你愿意吗？

【处女座】处女座聪明，对周围的人、事、物都有一套自己的独特见解，你不用多 解释，只要你表现好，他们自然就会接纳你，反之也一样。也许，你认为处女座的人不需要甜言蜜语，不，那不是真的，好听的话谁都会讲，处女座更加相信实践出 真知。处女座在工作上可以说是最合格的上司，但是对于爱情也用工作的方法来说，有的时候，你会误会他们，你会以为处女座的人是在爱情上不积极不争取的人。 其实不然，处女座很在意他们的爱情，可能因为在意，有的时候更希望爱情是稳固的，所以不会强求。他们虽然说话凌厉，但是为人善良，做事公正，是个很好相处 的人，很值得长期相处的人。

如果要学会爱处女座，你要懂得长一双眼睛，用脑子去爱。他们的付出就像宝藏一样，只要你勤奋，你会越挖越多的。 问题是，你带铲子了没有？

【天秤座】天秤座不会狂热地追求你，他会把你写进小说里。他不会恶意的挑逗你， 他会说乐意为您效劳。他表现的不是非常的积极，除非你对他很确定。他的爱情稳扎稳打，稳定平衡，是他的原则，他会因为觉得麻烦而不愿意去换一个爱人。不是 每个天平左的男人都爱猫，不是每个天平座的女人都热衷动漫，但是他们大多数人都有着艺术天赋，并且愿意无偿的对你提供帮助，只要你对他们是真诚的好。人家 说借人钱，不借道。但是他们是少数的，愿意教你很多东西，并且无论你的是恋人、情人、朋友都会对你温柔的少数人种。他们并不是没有自己的好恶，不过贵在能 忍。只是忍有限度，一旦，爆发，他们决不回头。

跟天秤座人恋爱总是徜徉在一种轻松愉快的气氛中，他不会让你觉得尴尬，他对于突发事件落落大 方，在他看来，有共同的兴趣爱好比性的吸引更加重要。

跟天秤座在一起，你会发现他有很多朋友，你可以保证不吃他朋友的醋嘛？

【天 蝎座】要说猜心游戏天蝎座自称拿第二名，没有人敢拿第一名。你的眼神动作，一个眉毛的轻蹙都会被他看在眼里记在心里。除非是优秀的演员，不然逃不过他的法 眼。跟天蝎座在一起，只有真诚才能打动他的心，勾心斗角，他是始祖，关公门前耍大刀，最多你只会让他觉得很好笑。

其实天蝎座的人很好相处， 因为他们很实际，他们决不会因为你放屁打嗝而拒绝你，当然太过分了谁都受不了，不过偶然的失态，他们不会记挂在心的。可以说，跟天蝎座谈恋爱，你完全可以 撕掉自己的面具，当然如果你是个花心发电机，规劝你还是跟他们做朋友吧！他们喜欢跟人攀谈这些经历，但是他们正经的恋爱基本都是以结婚为前提，爱得猛烈， 爱得刻骨，跨地域、跨时间，他们都不怕。爱情之中，他们怕的是说话不算数。

跟天蝎座在一起，恋爱是激情而浪漫的，生活他们也会帮你打点，他 们是善良的慈善家。不过，他们的小心眼，你要学会不断去平抚。你要给他们及时地解释你做事情的原因，你当时的想法。有错就认，这就是好孩子。

有 一个问题：当你想做一个坏人的时候，是不可以的。但是当他们想做坏人的时候，你是不会知道的。这样的生活，你要不要？

【射 手座】射手座的最大优点就是乐观。但并不排除他没有想过最悲观的情况，但是他想了以后，就放在那边了，还是一心想着明天会更美好。射手座的人的隐私是最多 的，你会发现很多事情，他压根就不告诉你。当然，对他来讲，他也是出于好意，公平的讲，这些好意有些自以为是。有的时候，你会听到他们抱怨别人不关心他 们，很多时候，这种情况是他们自己造成的。他们不肯敞开心扉。想要你来的时候，就来，你找他们的时候，却找不到，这在恋爱关系中，的确是很不公平的。

不 过，结婚对射手座来说是个鲤鱼跳龙门的过程，只要这个婚姻是他希望要的，它就会完全变成另外一个人。不论射手男女，他们都会在结婚以后，主动丢掉以前的暧 昧的朋友甚至情人。也许他们嘴上会抱怨，自己为你付出了多少，但是从秉性上，他们不会做对不起家庭有害家庭的事情。

问题来了，婚前婚后差别 这么大的射手座，有多少人敢这样赌博？你敢吗

【摩羯座】要说聪明，摩羯座绝对是顶尖的。他精打细算，前后 做事都有余地绝对不亏。摩羯座也许在年轻的时候会冒些风险，但是冒险过以后，就不再会了。如果你遇到一位很稳重的摩羯座，而且他做事情绝不冒险，放心，他 疯狂过，而且绝对是小说ｚ中那样浪漫的情怀。摩羯座的记性很好的，吃过的亏，隐忍，不会再犯第二次错。你可以有很多机会骂别人"笨蛋""傻子""猪头"， 但是对于摩羯座，这种机会很少，而且你骂他的话，是会尝到代价的！

说摩羯座小心眼，其实这是很不要解释的问题。他们的确很斤斤计较，但是他 们更以大局为重，在以大局为重的情况下，他们是少见的，仍然斤斤计较的一群很有意思的人类。有的时候，你会被他们的好记性，很周全的考虑，连最后一个细节 都不忘的表现逗笑。（这个句子有点长，慢慢念，慢慢品味～）

摩羯座可以说是居家过日子的良伴，也是一位良师益友。不过有个问题，摩羯座人其 实蛮好色的，而且还有一群不分年龄阶层的军团崇拜他。有一天你惊讶的发现了这一切，你能忍嘛？

【水瓶座】 跟水瓶座谈恋爱，必受伤。这一条可以吓跑一堆人，如果你还愿意继续坚持看看水瓶座是个什么样的人，那么，继续往下读吧！水瓶座的人98%都是爱情的逃兵， 心里很想爱很想爱，可是迟迟就是不放马过来，抑或乎冷乎热。你当他们用计谋阿？算了吧！他们虽然知道这是很好用的计谋，可是真的这么做，只有一个原因：水 瓶座害怕爱情。他们也知道自己最不擅长的就是爱情了。暧昧的话，他们是高手，调侃的话，绝对不怕，但是恋爱，这个问题有点严重。恋爱对他们来说是很恐怖的 事情。跟他们恋爱，伤人伤己，除非你很坚持，很温柔、很稳定，否则，他们会以各种方式把爱情的可能性从大化小，从小化无。在你不知道的地方，不知道他都给 你写了多少东西了。可是，恐怕你根本就没想到他对你这么上心。

生活太美，爱情多痛～水瓶座因为胆子小，所以他们一般很容易被稳定所吸引，但 水瓶是风向星座，就注定有着一双翅膀。只要你肯对他有一颗宽容的心（当然有些事情该计较还是要计较）他会慢慢的停下脚步，不再飞翔。不过，不要妄图摘下他 的翅膀，除非杀了他。水瓶是属于回报型的恋爱星座，只要你对他好，不要让他有一天醒悟，"天哪，你居然这样对我！"他可以为你放弃天使般的生活，水瓶座从 不介意过着平淡的生活，他让你的生活充满乐趣。可贵的是，无论是男女，他们都不介意成为爱人的后盾，背后的贡献者。水瓶人最容易出风头，但是他们是最懂得 退让的风向星座了。天底下最好的记性和最滥的记性都是水瓶座的。

心上有翅膀的人，你有那么巨大的勇气，巨大的胆量，巨大的魄力去争取嘛？

【双 鱼座】你以为要给他修灯，他却准备了烛光晚餐；你以为他只是要你帮他解围裙，才发现他的呼吸急促；你以为他爱你，其实，他的心中有很多浪漫爱情故事，你只 是其中一个。跟双鱼座谈恋爱，一个字"乱"！双鱼座往往不太清楚自己应该做什么，他们总是象一只掉进毛线团的猫，把自己弄得乱七八糟，不过从某个角度来 说～也是非常的可爱。跟双鱼人谈恋爱，你会发现他们心很细，要求很多，但是你不可以对他们自己提出要求，你只要称赞他们就够了，反正你的意见，他们总是有 理由反驳回来的，而且会让你们两个都很不高兴。说说跟双鱼座恋爱的优点吧！双鱼座上得厅堂，入得厨房，口才极佳，非常善于处理复杂的人事关系，管你有七大 姑八大姨，他都能把你们家上上下下打点得极其满意。双鱼座一旦打算正正经经的以结婚为前提恋爱，他对爱的人绝对是从上到下都会帮着打理好，而且总是营造浪 漫的气氛，自己的朋友也都一一介绍给心上人。

双鱼座的人，都是容易迷路的孩子。跟双鱼恋爱，你认得路吗？人生的路，可没有地图哦！

不执着了，认了

是不是说，先喜欢对方的人，一定会被伤害?
我一直坚信这雯跟我说的每一句话。可是，一切的一切不断的提醒着我...不可能了。
我也再不执着于我一直很在意的事了。唯有的，就是努力做好自己，不让他觉得我真的很没用。
你，是我其一的动力。加油!

everyone have the LIMIT!

“说者无意，听者有心” 我知道，可是你也该知道“祸从口出，病从口入”吧?
说我什么都可以 ，要拿什么来开玩笑都可以，就不不能这样说!我真的很讨厌。这次，掩饰得很好，可是并不代表我不介意。我可以说，我真的很介意别人这样说我，不论是谁。我知道，tak sungguh orang x kata.

可是，我有吗?

不要到我问你是，你跟我说“开玩笑的啦”..

我只能说，“对不起，我真的很介意。”

从你说出这句话的时候，一直到现在0212这句话都一直在我耳边回绕着，甚至，我因为这样..浪费我宝贵的睡觉时间来写这来发泄。

W.E.A.K ?! -.-

Peopleee, whoever going 30HOUR FAMINE' 2010, enjoy yourself ya :)
aiyerrr..so geram la.. Dad and Mum keep don't allow me to go..please, 30hours only..Its not a big deal for fasting 30hours okayy.. everyone who knowing that they don't allow me to go also ask why not?Its good, bla bla bla! *geram*
now, must be very very very "healthy" -.- so that i can go next year :(

房祖名-假動作 KTV

lyric is great.. :)
but the melody is a little boring for the first time listening to it..after all, it's okay after get the message in the song..

S.M.I.L.E X)

"到底是你太真还是他们太假?"

".... 我..不知道"

anyone there to tell me what to do?
what I could see is just a large field of DARKNESS.
Cheer !

Changing ..

From Complaint Free World -- 如果不喜欢一件事情，就改变那件事；如果改变不了，就改变自己的态度。

林峰---直到你不找我 KTV

nice song! meaningful lyrics...
soul.. I listen to it when i think of u..

2-amino-3-phenylpropanoic acid

昨晚跟妈一起看《谈情说案》，真的很惨。
因为家庭背景不一样，家人反对，层次问题，他们俩不能在一起。
看到这样，眼泪不禁的一颗接一颗得流。值得一提的是，既然跟妈两个一起哭得眼红红，眼泪鼻涕一起来-.-妈知道我哭时还说，“傻的你，将都好哭。”一望过去，她自己却在流泪-.-//

很能感受到犀利妹的感受，那种痛不欲生的感觉，那种无助，那种..好像被抛弃的感觉。唉...触景伤情，那些被列为黑点的回忆一一浮出。曾经何时，... 没脑到-.-
可是，我领悟到不一样的东西 :)

phenylalanine,苯氨基丙酸 is a hormone in our body..when one fall for someone, the secretion of this hormone will increase and this is what we call LOVE. -> according to Pro.Kings :)
1+1=2 and also could be 10(base two). but how bout us?
base two ba.. I accepted and did it! :)

blank.

Short hair.

test finished. finished learning Bio yesterday night about 1am. damn tired, sleep. today, total blank when i saw the question. Just cant recall back what had memorize. aiks.

我一定能 !

那些事情，我永远不会忘记。
我知道，现在的我，没能保护她，所以保持沉默。
妈跟我说的那句话，我听进去了，我一定会的！
在多一阵子，就一段短短的时间，我一定会让你们后悔。
我并没有恨你们。因为，讨厌一个人比什么都还要累。


要争气!一定能的 ! 为了这一切一切，我不能也得能。
加油! Thanks n love u, mum

shitt !!

about to finish my Sejarah revision for tomorrow's test (Bab5 n 6)
yesterday finished Bab 5 and started Bab6 just now..almost finished but now..Bab 5 started to de-memorize.. :( damn.

Broga Hill ♥

Broga Hill ♥ Semenyih
Sunday, 18July2010.

Since my Bro's Girl gonna back to Canada for further study, so, we had a family trip to Broga Hill.
wowww.. what a Healthy day we had. LOL. its really tired but fun. really can mengeratkan silaturahim keluarga, HAHAA.
around 6am we reached.
can't describe well with words..Pictures describe better :)

The couples ♥♥♥

Dad n Mum ♥

Bro and Bro's ♥

Sis and Sis's ♥

Mine? Lol ♥

The girls ♥

The guys ♥

The Family Picture ♥

Sis and Sis ♥♥

Mum is the first that reached the peek :) *followed by Ky ♥*

Yan and Bro's ♥

Dad and Yan *Ki siao* x)

Yan n Gina ♥

Bro and Yan ♥





The lalang is awesome !!


When we first reached the peek ♥♥♥

After that, went to Seremban for breakfast .. :)

Beef noodles that dad desperate ♥

Buy the famous Seremban Siew Pau

Steamboat at night with Aunt n family ♥

Dudes, should have a trip there xD
p/s :
* bring enough touch light
* bring a bag as well

Yan ♥

when i get OLDER, I'll be STRONGER

Just leave me alone.
Finding the only shining star in the darkness.
who care? you? I don't.
Please just kindly leave here and shut the door.

Maaf! Kahyan tidak dipilih.

Kena tak? Checked? How how how? Kena?

wowww, once step into my class, whole class is asking these few questions..
Name list for NS year 2011 participant released , but many of us knew it by yesterday night..
kayy, saw ZhenYe's status : " Tahniah! Anda telah dipilih!" LOLx..
scared. since listened lots of bad cases from those who back from NS.. so, i don't hope to go..

Text over to 15888 after some hesitations..
*Message delivered*
....
.....
*Message received from 15888, read now?*
*Yes*
Yeahhh !!!!! Maaf! 93110310xxxx tidak dipilih untuk menyertai PLKN siri 8/2011..
wowww.. I was like, Im free.. *screaming like hell*
But after calm down, I wish to go -___- search some of the PLKN's activities from the internet..woww.. I wanna play the gun!!! OMG!!
*freeze* BANG BANG BANG!! hahaha xD

many of those who wish to kena, x kena.. x mau kena, kena pula -___-
So.. no matter u kena or not, think in a better way la :)
I want to play M16! haha..
Jom paint ball !!

FIFA WORLD CUP 2010 - SPAIN !

was currently waiting for hair to dry..
HI, finally Im home :)

HOME SWEET HOME. -.-
went for FIFA final yesterday with BeeSim,Eileen,Jolynn,SinYee,Chris and Eric.
its awesome and a little torture to us.. All watch till 80++ mins already half eye closed. HAHA.
Wowww,Spain!! Paul is great :) may i use it to tell me what question will come out in SPM? xD

Gonna sleep now, damn tired. My panda eye scared me myself-.-
Saturday night x sleep -.-
till Sunday 5am baru pergi tidur but wake at 8am -.-
lagi tahan till today's 5:30am -_____-
I need a long long nap now to cure my panda eye.
night

遥不可及

看到今天的那一幕，我真的不能不这样想。
除了这样，还有别的原因吗?
我知道，我不能怪任何人。就只能怪自己。
今天的一切一切，都是当时的无知，笨拙搞成的。
“爱最痛的呼喊，是不能够再重来"
为什么?就没有回转的余地?
我不配，现在的我，一点也配不起你。
我惟有，很努力很努力的提升自己。
至少，我有那么一点点值得你欣赏的东西。
至少，令我觉得，我也有让我觉得骄傲的东西。
这样，我才有资格承认，我喜欢的是你。

不可否认，在你面前，
我不能不伪装，我不知道为什么。
我也知道，我伪装的很虚伪。
可是，在你面前，
我就是不能当我自己:(
我太失败了。
这样，令到我觉得我们的距离更加的遥远。
look so near yet so far.
越是喜欢你，越没自信。
每次看见你被大家肯定，我很为你开心。
看见你开心，我真的很开心。我不知道为什么。
之前，别人说什么，"只要你开心我就开心的东西。"我都觉得是客套话，可是，那天，我很清楚的知道，原来，真有其事。加油! :)

♥♥♥♥♥

Omgggg!!
Read IssacLiu's latest article. It's awesome, man. great job.
But ! how bout me huh? when i was in hospital and sicking like hell, where r u a?
aiyo, sad la.. LOL. anyway, I bet she sure damn touched.. keep it up man!
What we need the most when we're in this kind of helpless condition isn't medicine but CARE.
Sac; Bless her get well soon :)
_______________________
IMY.
I wish time could stop at that moment..
or maybe everything was just Im the only one that care,
but,
at least, I did it.
at least, I have something to refresh back when I think of u.
at least, I have a memory of ours, just you and me.

Yan

Psycho

How? What to do?
My sis is getting worse. *tears*
How to make her back to the right path? I know, she gonna be transfer to another school. Its a MUST. Aiks, Im really down. Reading those status of hers in Facebook, listening to what her mum complaint to us.. I really couldn't believe that she was my sis.. The one who always bring laughter to us :( How to teach a child? I don't know.. refresh back to my lower form's life, am I that bad too? whats in my mind that time? I can no longer remember.. *broken heart*

anti-Negro

Its glad that Im here, home safe and blogging ..
Went for Bio class at Kasturi just now. Okay, since my dad said traffic is suck at that time, so i decided to take bus :) my house is really convenient..

well, although it's a little rain drop outside when i was about to go, but i didn't bring umbrella. as i said, just a little rain drop. but when i reached the bus stop, i saw my mum walking over with 2 umbrella. kay, noted. that moment, i felt like Im really bad.. need her to worry about me -.- aiks.
after mins, Metro is here.

whats climax?
after class, its still raining out there. refused lynn to fetch me..really inconvenient la weih..sakai. :P
then, walao..damn windy.. also can't hold me umbrella steadily -____- kay, reached Kepong Sentral. walk over the bridge with few people.. Im sure that time no people on the bridge but only me and few people walking over.. but when Im on the bridge, look back.. a Negro is behind me @@.. scared me.. looking around, why dad haven't reached -.- that time only noted that i forgot to call him -.- kayy, walk quickly to the station since its brighter there.. when Im calling my dad, the Negro walk beside and talk to me..walao, scared. definitely, ignored and accelerate -.- aiks, i need license please. Im still very scare now.
why huh? why Malaysia so unsafe? before this, i hate traveling by bus because always kacau by those car that drove by seafood. kayy, thats no longer that scary for me now.. But then? here come the scariest - The Negro.
_____________________________________________
why so scare of the Negro?
few days before, a friend told me that, one night around 10pm, a girl is raped by FEW Negro on the pedestrian bridge. thats why I scare and furthermore, the Negro appears suddenly.

My voice,please.

wei ya!!! I lost my beautiful voice a..

Choir competition is finally around the corner, and we got to have practices in this short period.. Please please please, i want my voice back, I already input lots of water and Strepsils.. at least allow me to finish my practice n competition only lost my voice.. If not, the time and effort i gave is just nothing. 我不甘心。

walao, whats scared me is.. this whole morning i didn't talk until i reached school.. when i buy Strepsil at Readers, i talked but no voice -.- Im shock, even keep *ahemm* also no voice.. Strepsils really work. HAHA. *advertising*

不是他早就是她晚 :(

男生爱上一个女生可以在一秒间发生，那是一见钟情；但是

女 生却不可以，女生必须在男女的相互了解中慢慢地建立感情。

当男生爱上女生时，女生也许才刚刚喜欢上男生；可当女生渐渐 地从喜欢升华到爱时，男生却因厌倦了而抽身离开。

男生的爱情就象龙卷风，来得很激烈却也走得很迅猛；女生的 爱情却是涓涓流水，细水长流，只会不断的汇聚成江、成海。

男生其实并不知道，女生从来不敢轻易去爱，因为女生的爱一 旦付出了就很难收回来，她害怕受伤害；女生总是先喜欢上 男生才会爱上男生，因为她明白男生的心里只知道谁是最爱， 却没有谁是唯一，所以她必须慎重的爱。当男生遇见爱情时，女 生其实一直都在等待爱情。

有人说，在错的时间遇上对的人，是一场伤心；在对的时间遇 上错的人，是一场叹息；在错的时间遇上错的人，是一场荒 唐；在对的时间遇上对的人，是一生幸福。可是我从来都不 相信那句所谓的“在对的时间遇上对的人”，我觉得经久的爱情 是需要不断的磨合与相互适应的。

因为爱情总是存在着时差，不是他早就是她晚，反正总是不同 步。世界上最残忍的东西莫过于时间，他让我们错过太多， 也遗憾太多。有时后我不禁要想，到底是时间在作弄着爱情， 还是时间在考验着爱情？没有人知道，只知道爱情的路不好走。

copy from Facebook.
i agree with every single word in this passage. *like*

时光机 . time machine :)

当局者迷，旁观者清。

这句话，我一直都大力支持! HEHE.
刚看回一些之前的articles, 真的觉得..很好笑，很白痴!哈哈哈哈..
甚至有些，看了，我真的情不自禁的把脸遮着*虽然没人看到*
真的不知道做么我会写这样的东西，哈哈哈。
当然，如果时间回到那曾经何时，我不会再走这路了。希望现在，还来得及~
看到了一些东西，突然觉得，为什么我之前都没有发现这东西啊?真的很后悔..那短短的几句话，依然写的很清楚啊，可是，为什么当时的我，就会不知道，还回应有的没的..啊!!为什么我那么白痴的啊~~~

好了，是时候关机，养神:)
i hope everything isn't that late, and.. :)


I noticed, i don't know whether if u're still meaning that for now,
but i will do my very best,
sorry for my dumbness.



No any doubts about that feeling now.
i honestly 32553678-75 :)

my long n curly hair

had a hair cut, damn!
really short.. well, friends around me should know Im really happy because finally my hair till this length.. and it's the first time i keep it long till this length. Used almost 2 years time.. since my hair till certain length damn difficult to long..finally, the length is over and finally it's long now..

BUT!!! now, just 10mins, the idiot aunty cut it short. just a little bit over my shoulder. i said, not too short!!

我哭，不是因为不美还是什么，是我真的很不舍得。难道你们就不明白吗?
我真的很难才留到这个长度，而且，我已经跟那人说短一点点就够了，毕竟很多。结果?! 现在又要等2年吗 ?都什么叫有感情吗? 一看到镜子，眼泪就一直流。我知道，眼泪不能换回我的头发，可是，你们就不能就让我哭下吗?没有要你们安慰还是什么。你们不了解不明白不要紧，不要来骂好吗?

relink ♥

Yayyy :)


finally my articles can be view :))))
but i gonna change my blog url, *i know i changed for many times and promised many of u not to change anymore* but this time really terpaksa one.. LOL.

relink ♥

naive.

可爱..可笑..

为什么还是那么容易相信人?okay,我知道，我清楚了。
没有希望，真的就不会失望。真的可笑，什么相信某某某，所以那份希望不会是失望?LOL.
拜托，回到原点。
越远越好，越冷越好。就像那时候。


考试快到了，还是读书吧。
不是都习惯了嘛?为什么有这样?加油! 欣，你一定能的!

Yan

Brazil, bye.

Aiks Aiks Aiks, Brazil lose. *heartbroken*



went for tea and football match at Heaven with friends, wow.. the seat we sat is awesome. damn clear man! wowwww.. but! Brazil lose.. what the.. Im speechless. Brazil and Portugal, both i support, both back to their country. *don't blame me* LOL.

tomorrow, Argentina and Germany! great match too :)
lastly,
boooooo sama Holland !!! *booooooooooo*

*broken heart*
Ky

almost there ;)

Yayy :) My Add.Maths project almost come to an end, LOL. although is just copy from the internet la, but, still i feel so successful now. HAHAHA. yesterday do till 3:15am. wowww, i think is the first time i stay up late for school works -________-

great!! But still got a stack of Bio worksss not done yet. suck. Why can't Bio be a little bit more adorable?

Talent Show :)

woooooooooowwwwwwwwww, today's performance of Talent Show organized by Choir SMKTE is great :)everyone of u is awesome, at least u all have the courage. x)
the winner - Mr.YongZhi ♥ his diabolo is awesome. and the hand stand. wowwww ♥♥♥ *claps*
and for those who lost,don't be sad la weih.u tried ur best right :) chill. u got an experience at least and shown your talent to SMKTE's students :) U're the best!!

saw some of the contestant dance, LOCKING. OMG.
i miss it ♥♥♥
long long time didn't dance,didn't watch an video of Locking. OMG.
but today i watched quite a lot. HAHA. LOCKING ROCKs xD *funky*

GREAT JOBs, Guys!!

XiaoRen-ful

!@#$%^&(*&^%$#@!

靠靠靠靠靠!!!

Bull shit u!

真的有够生气的!就那6.2分嘛，怎样? 我不希罕! 不要说现在我拿最后，就算，我就差那6.2分拿不到第一，我也不会要那不属于我的6.2分。是怎样?要赢就赢得光光彩彩! 像你吗? 为了那几分跟老师吵得死去活来。幼稚! 难怪大家都那么说你!亏我还一直跟他们狡辩!看来，我是盲了吧?!

Talent show完了后，就等爸来。挖老!有够讨厌，一个死印度‘豆记’ 竟然跑过来搭讪。没死过，在本小姐心情不好过来惹我。死黑豆记，活多几年才来跟姐姐搭讪啦! 要号码? 123都还不会写，怎样给你10个号码啊?靠! 死样衰，死黑豆机!!!

Heyyerrr!!!!!! No mood a!

Yan