confuse 2

guys,
it's bothering me.
whenever i see her face.
things floating out on my mind.
i just wanna stop everything. and back to my original life.

okay,
if u really wanna apologize,
why don't u do so?
i know, sometime it's damn difficult to say out..S.O.R.R.Y to friend right?
i felt the same before.
but..at least don't act like a witch or whatever i dislike lorr..okay?
shit !
y m i talking these type of craps???? KY a !!!! aiks.

next,
i really feel curious about what make u feel sorry to me?
isn't the same thing that make me hate u?
or...others stuffs that i don't know?
if it's really about the stuff that make me hate u,
why?
why that day that when u act rude to my mum and both of us argue..
u will said so..
said that i create a story out?
it's true.
what my dad n i said to ur dad is the truth of the truth.
but why?why u said that i very pro in creating stories?

may god bless me.
i just wanna stop thinking..
the article she wrote.
the incident.
the happiness time v spent 2gether.
the 100th month anniversary.
the name.
everything !!!!

STOP EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW!
i want my life back !
i rather i didn't read through the article.
i rather my hate toward her getting lesser and lesser and make she disappear in my life.

u know?
she.
she really know me very well.
still remember.
actually what really happening i not really remember.
the point is..
she say everything that in my mind.
u know?
every single word she said is definitely same as what i wanna say.
that time i was...SHOCK.
and she was just perasan'ing and say..geng lehh?
well ~

i think 10 memories is enough for me to refresh.
i just don't know how to face the others if our friendship suddenly "transform" to become as good as last time.
peoples used to say we're sisters and can't differentiate us. [the uncle that stay infront of my house]
hey people,
both of us so big different okay?
one eye big one small. ==

well..
just follow the flow.
we can do nothing.
bak kata pepatah,
多一个朋友，多一条路；多一个敌人，多一道墙。[must praise me menggunakan peribahasa yg sesius.lols]

may god bless us,
i just hope that u will feel regret on what u did,
and please,
stop doing those stupid things that will definitely regret.
that's all i wanna tell u.

Ky.yan