kinda suck.

MOODY !!!!

NO MOOD !!!

MOOD-LESS !!!

what the fuck is going on now? i really can't get what u want,what u mean,what u're thinking!
when is the time that u let go of me? please la. i really have no more credit to play with you!! don't make me feel like killing myself okay? sucker !!!

what the fuck is going on right now? i just can't follow the flow.
FAKER !!! i hate, but why i got to co-operate with you all?
u all made me does not trust promise,forever,secret...even best friend.
today, my mood really suck. i grab up my phone, willing to call someone for a talk. but i don't know whose number m i going to key in. i got a good listener? i don't know.
till the time i really upset,depress,helpless.. who will be there for me? no one.
i know, this is my problem. but i don't know i got to cure from which part.

i tried very very very hard to go into u all's life. but the door was locked.
i tried. i really tried.
i knew i changed. i extremely dislike current KY.
but i don't know why, i can't find the real KY.
i betrayed by someone i fully trust. i hurted by someone i love a lots.
maybe im really weak. only these stuff already made me does not trust the exist of forever, the exist of true friend and love.
from that friday,i hurted 3 guys. really sorry =(
i really need some time and rest for the next start.
i tried to consider all of you, but i can't. those pains,hurts still reminding me.
whenever the Q that u all ask, my inner sound just keep on telling me. "NO, KY. U WILL BE HURT LIKE HE HURT YOU. U CAN'T EFFORT THE PAIN.DON'T EVEN CONSIDER."

friends.
i know many people BEFORE.
but now...
don't know why,i just feel that they kinda fake.
and i dislike test.
not because of i got to memorize a lots.
the cause of this is.. whenever the result release,everyone changed.
not willing to mention their name,their reaction.it's too sensitive.
okay,well..maybe it's really like what people used to say,讲者没心，听者有意。
but the fact tell me that NOT !! totally.
that day, xxx ask me, whats yr score for + math?
58 o,u leh?
xxx faced turned in the same time i say my marks.this is very very obvious. please! i can't find any reason for ur change. please. i really hope i didn't see ur reaction.
please lahh.. we are friend. don't challenge okay?i hate challenging.
in my dictionary,the definition of CHALLENGE is idiot.
please. don't 比较me with the others. 没有人比得起我，我也比不起人家。
everyone have their own character ,no one is the same. how can we challenge?so please.
what i want is a 100% pure friend. a listener, a playful human being, bla bla bla. but not challenging btw friends.

feeling suck,
KY . yan