goodbye 2010, hello2011

it's 31 Dec 2010. The last day of 2010.

Let's say goodbye to 2010 and welcome 2011.
May everyone of us have a great year in 2011. All the best, my dears :)


recently, many 2010回顾in tv shows. So, I think gonna have a 2010 Ky's flashback here. hehe :)

Jan.
woww, this was the Jan2010's Ky. Look so young. now, really old jor :(


Feb.
OMG !! satu bulan shj, aku telah jadi macam ini?! Finally I knew why friends always say I macam aunty -.- I admit it now, LOL !
Feb, cny lo. I remember, I lost many money to Faye Kor. HAHAA. we had carlsberg at lynn's house. great time we spent :) and I always use to keep reminding friends and myself to study because SPM is "near". lol. what a joke.
and, I got my new pinky phone - w705 :)


March.
hmm, tak dapat cari picture le. what happened le? Ohya! busy practicing for Choir competition. As we had told that the competition will be held on April. LOL. althought, at last there aren't any competition for us,but i think the time we spent together is great :) As life have no take two.


April.

LOL. memang 欠打punye muka. *like* haha

Since, my blog had never appears this two dears' picture. LOL. Zy and Serene :) A lots of memory about them and it's really undescribable. It's just great :) love u.
May is the month of Frean n Zy's birthday too. and another picture of May that i love most already post on my page. with that 3 silly monkeys :P hehehe.


May.
I had picture of this month ! and it must be upload !! picture of me, lying on the Sentosa Hospital -.- Aku telah kena dengue bulan ni. sudah skip mid term exam. and got last in class. sux
I have the picture of me 吊水-ing. tangan dan the pipe with water pun ada blood. disgusting right? haha. but that time, i had no strength to 反抗。



June.


Seriously, I miss my long hair now. and, all there picture were from facebook cause my memory card had lost ><

Sook Wei, Bsim n Ky :)

Ky and Richard. I love this, because I macam korean in this picture. don't u have the same view as me? I sure you're ! hahaha.

Ky and Jeff :) another undescribable guy in my life ! Lots of memories. xD

Here we go :) All of us.

Since there're many pretty picture took in June. lol. Outing with Te's friends :)


July.
LOL. I had such a picture for July. hahaha. -.-
Broga Hill. Family trip. Sudah ada picture at my post of the day.

August.

HAHAHAH. At Green Apple with Issac :) The first time he fetch me out. (i think so.)

Jump !! Fly !!

Memorable day. First time shout Merdeka so seriously on stage! lol ! no more 遗憾。haha
I love Malaysia:) haha

Sept.
no picture for Sept. because, it's trial month. it's a very tiring month for me. ya, I still remember how i study that time. It's crazy !


Oct.
Same, no pictures -.-
Half month gave to trial i think. And what I am thinking in these few months was SPM n books only.. lol


Nov.
My birthday !Sweet 17 :)

Dec.
pictures still in friends' phone. anyway, its a great month :)



so many pictures in my phone. but cant connect it with usb cable. ishh...
nevermind, LOL !

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

心声啊 ♥ 哈哈

越长大，越难和另一个人在一起。

不是因为条件。还是有人喜欢你，你也活得比以前更好，不再那么任性，更像在投资的艺术品。

也不是因为对爱情死心。在KTV突然听到的某首歌，会让你不自禁模糊了视线。一些场景，一些气息，始终无法忘怀。朋友帮你介绍时，你也会满心期待。

却依然单身。闭上眼睛吹蜡烛的时候，总是希望身边有另一个人一起许愿。一些客气的场合，有人来搭讪，话题围绕着你单身的原因。而他们最后给出的结论是，你太挑了。你在心里面笑，所以其他人都不挑？

其实你自己知道，为什么不能好好谈一场恋爱。就是因为，你太清楚自己是怎样的一块料，所以不会再轻而易举把自己交出去。就像是，有一天你发现跌倒以后的伤口，会开始留下疤痕，于是走路时不敢再大步跨出去。

因为，你惯性太强、记性太好。认识一个人很简单，忘记一个人很困难。你曾经心满意足的闭上眼睛，让另一个人带你去任何地方，最后却差点回不来。所以不能再失去方向感。

于是你就变得胆小了。以前喜欢男生有幽默感，现在更在乎安全感。以前打电话找不到人就拼命的打，现在发了短信没回应，即使心中有波动也可以忍住。以前最有兴趣的话题是对方的过去，现在会先关心这份感情有没有未来。

所以，空暇的时候，你宁愿和朋友在烈日下逛街，也不愿让对方觉得自己很在乎什么。你安慰自己，有朋友就够了，一个人生活也很好。你忘记了当另一个人女朋友的感觉，当那个人出现时，你开始慌张、害怕。

只 是，你并不是一定要单身，就像你也没计划过一定用哪只手写字。不过是，既然如此了那就这样吧。你想要有人一起旅行，一起看电影。你想和那个人说自己准备好 了，只是没有勇气，请对方多一点耐心。你想说不再需要太多惊喜，在心里等的是一份相守以望的感情，抬起头来相视而笑，安心的生活，如此而已。

When i go through this note in Facebook, I were like... OMG ! Why this people knew exactly how I think and feel? Even myself, can't write out my feeling so! GREAT ♥ Really awesome !!

失望? 不！

“人最大的失望是對自己的失望。無論我對別人多麼失望，也比不上我對自己的失望。我可以撇下那個一再讓我失望的人，卻永遠無法撇掉自己。失望是人對自己最深沉的嘆息。為什麼我從來沒有我以為的那麼好？為什麼我做不到自己的期望？當我如此真實地面對自己，我不得不承認，我再也沒有資格對別人失望”

在我很欣赏的作家- 张小娴的Facebook看到了这段话。真的非常的认同。人，最大的失望莫过于对自己失望。一直很努力在做好，一直很努力很努力，真的希望，我的努力不是白费的。我也知道，为了达成我要的成果，我已经忽略了一些重要的东西。毕竟，有得必有失。人，总不能太贪心。所以，在我正努力追求着我的梦想时，我选择了暂时的放弃它。对或错，我真的不知道。放弃了，我不遗憾，也希望，没有令我后悔的一天。


“你要求太高了，这样会很辛苦的。”
曾经，有一位非常好的朋友很认真的看着我，跟我说这几个字。可是对我而言，要求不高，我是不会全力以赴做到最好的。no matter in the sense of what. 当然，效果没有自己想象的那么好时，失望了，伤心了，还是得接受，再努力过。只是，唯一担心的，机会不再，时光已流。我相信，只要我不放弃，成功一定离我不远的。我坚信着这个信念。

人生，总会遇到许多分岔路。现在的我，就站在这且平静又恐怖的分岔路。眼前，似乎微微闪烁着灯光，可是，当我鼓起勇气，踏出第一步时，那光莫名其妙的，灭了。不要紧，我相信，一定会有那里一天有一位贵人会帮我的 :) 你，也会帮我吧? :) 加油！

lethargic

Its a very tiring day..


don't know why, maybe because lack of sleep?
today went for the first gathering of the 7Monkeys after SPM2010 :)

Whenever we talk about what course to take, I felt like I am helpless. Who's there to give me some advises? I have so much question marks in my mind. IB / CE ? it's two very different path.


Sigh. I am really tired of my current life actually. except cookies, it's drama. Help ! My phone was like turned into a hotline for someone. Whole day long, I only receives calls n messages from someone. annoyed. Ishh.


Headache. I am really tired. good night.
Weird, I miss u today :)

Ky

喜欢一个人就去争取 :)

喜欢一个人就去争取

不管最后怎么样

你怕什么?

怕尴尬?

怕对方不同意你?

那你不说你就不会后悔吗?

自己一个人再想我到底说不说呢?

我原来就是这样

但我现在不会了

喜欢就去说！

当然是抱着失败的可能性去说的

但不管怎么说

我对得起自己

我不会有任何遗憾

对方也知道我的想法了

能不能在一起就看缘分了

但我要做的我做了

喜欢一个人就去珍惜

我写完那篇文章以后

看到了有很多人也刚分手

也挺难过的、也想着对方

那都在想着

为什么不主动跟他说呢?

要等他来跟你说

假如两个人都抱着这样的想法

最后分手了值吗?

面子就这样重要吗?

人有时候要知道要面子

有时候真的不用

这时候面子算个屁啊！

喜欢一个人就要学会相信

我个人觉得相信对方很重要

真的很重要！

不要老想对方会做什么事

其实对方什么也没做

好多事都是自己胡思乱想的

最后还因为这样的胡思乱想而吵架

我觉得这样真的很不值

有什么问题就问

但相信对方很重要

你既然跟他在一起了

为什么不学会相信他呢?

喜欢一个人要学会等待

如果你真的很喜欢一个人

即使他不喜欢你

如果你下定决心了就要学会等待

不用说太多话

说太多反而会烦

自己用事实来证明

喜欢一个人要学会宽容

也不要太在意别人的看法

别人可能觉得你们不合适

合不合适你最清楚

反正是你们过生活

管那么多干嘛啊?

两人在一起开心就他么够了

最后喜欢一个人要学会付出

你付出虽然不一定会得到相同的回报

但她一定能感受的到

只有你付出了

你才有资格让别人也付出

不是么?

喜欢一个人当然要学会努力

不可能你什么都不做

人家会主动找你的

除非他喜欢你

你要义无反顾的努力

不要想结果怎么样

最起码你努力了

最起码能对得起自己

喜欢一个就去追

想要珍惜要快去珍惜

希望每个情侣都开开心心的

is this correct? LOL.

Copy from a note I saw in Facebook :)

Eve, Xmas , Boxing day :)

many things to talk about actually.

hmmm, what first?

...

Christmas "countdown" 2010 first ba ;)
LOL. It's a very crazy Christmas eve I had. I spent my times with Frean, Jeff and also Issac :) It's always the best time ! We had Korean food there, it's okay actually. but someone break their name. HAHAHA. Pictures ... waiting for Issac to upload :) *faster ya ;) *


Christmas day of 2010.
I spent whole day for cookies. From noon to 9 only we finished everything. Although we dated to go to Pavillion for photo section at night, but the rain had delay out cookies process :( The family-christmas-day-plan had gone. but then, aunt came and bring me and mum to The Curve for tea :) hehe. We went to Chocolate Launch. OMG ! The chocolate was awesomeee !! :) I had fall in love with it. I will be back ! :D


Boxing day :)
No boxes here. No Christmas present for me :( But the joys is the greatest present for me, actually. HEHEHE.
But then, what really annoying is that someone keep texting over, and asking some freaking lame and make-me-bekcek's question. Please, don't ask those brainless + impossible question okayy? ishh! Ya, what Kun said was right. Yup, maybe what someone said was correct. I had changed. indeed, I had learned how to treat guy like you. I am not that soft hearted to you anymore. This is what you taught me, thanks. Just don't ask me Why. It just simply because u taught me these ! and now, get lost ! I love my current life. I have my dream to chase of.

Love,
Ky.

Dears, really sorry.

为什么每次都是这样? 那么的容易就掉眼泪。不是伤心，只是激动一些些，眼泪就一直一直流。



Issac, Frean and Jeff, really sorry... I really wish to celebrate with u all... But sorry, I can't T.T


我不会忘记今天的每一样事情。我会永远记得。谢谢你。
希望，你也记得我跟你说的东西。

无话可说。

entitle

I had wrote a long post actually, but... before i title it. I had deleted it. Aiks, after typing everything out, I felt better :) Gonna rest, bye !

child abuse.

child abuse?


seriously, no matter in the state of what, children is always the innocent one.
as a parents, child abuse is really a can-not-do-action! no matter how the child act and how old they are.
but, yesterday mum receive a call from my aunt, telling us that.. one of my cousin sister (who we seldom contact) had looked up in a police station and her 8-years-old boy was in comma and currently at hospital. how cruel is thing incident? I can't really believe that this thing really happened around me. Seriously, I just saw the little boy once when he's still a very young boy (many years ago) and also my cousin sister...I can't remember her face. but the impression of the boy in mind never change since I meet him the very first and last time. I always use to describe him with words like, a child who is different with others, a very unhappy child. and what mum told me was, because he have no parental loves. as his dad had dumped my cousin sis and him since he were almost 1 year old. Aiks. Why?! said wanna give them a better life by going to others country to work, but?! Had a new family there! wtf.

And now, he was in comma, staying in ICU for almost a week already. dad disallow us to visit him as my uncle doesn't wish to let so many people know about it. But my aunt did went to visit the poor little boy, all bruises all around his body, 3 fingers had cut because the cells there had died, the most ridiculous was... some of his skull had scattered. Even if he awake, he will be a little abnormal. :( Why? Just a 8-year-old child. Why he deserve such a cruel lifestyle? How pain he was, and no one knows. I really felt guilty for not contacting them for so many years although i know, my cousin sister always don't let us to know where she is, what are she doing, even when we're around her house, she don't allow us to visit there. Aiks !! I think, my cousin sister must be have mental problem as no one shows care to her, even her parents ! dammit! May god bless them :(

P/s : If u're not prepared to take care of another new life, please, don't give a life to them ! Irresponsible ! You had spoiled one's life! You're the murder of his life ! Brainless.

爱我，你怕了吗? O_O??

有听过这首个吗? 之前，听过..就觉得这首个很有意思下。
昨天，他跟我说，每次听到这首歌都会想到我..有点吓到啦..
他说，很像我跟他说的东西...
“爱我你怕了吗?眼泪你忘了吗?...”
然后又说，“敢爱敢恨敢失去” 很像我~
唉，完全就不是嘛~
似乎，有点伤到他太深了:(
我也没说很直接啊~ 怎么办...? 糟糕。该怎么办啊?~~
对不起。~.~